I have had something on my mind for quite some time. My xanga site. It is the last real tie I have to a chapter in my life that I almost allowed myself to die in order to forget. Although I rarely post any real information here - it is still a link to my past that I find myself both loving and hating. My presence here was in many ways the first step to a long and steep decline into a darkness that I fear I will never truly be rid of.

If I am ever going to truly be free then I must let go of EVERYTHING .... including this website.

I hope that life is kind to those of you who've known me.

Good luck and God bless.