| WOW;
xanga still exists? haha;
so what's been new with JOYCE?
nothing much ... //
school is just a PAiiN
but right now im on CHUSOK break ^^ *1 week //
did i mention i joined cross country this year? haha
i have NO idea why, i just DID.
not to mention; i NEVER exerciesd prior to XC ...
in the middle of it, my foot had like stress fracture so .. i couldnt run for a long time*
last wednesday was our home meet~ wooOT*
my goal this year is just NOT to get LAST and YAY; i havent yet! ;D
AND im meeting my time goals ^^
however, since it's my first time actually joining a SPORT im taking it easy =) ive gotten very close with church friends; however it's hard to get to know everyone cause my church is so big -_-;;
i miss KENOSHA .. i miss knowing EVERYONE and being SO CLOSE *sigh ...
on the other hand ... these days i find myself leaning on God more than i could've imagined*
just NEEEEDING him right HERE with ME right NOW;
i may say "OH GOD, I LOVE YOU, I NEED YOU, YOU ARE MY GOD." and stuff; but what really striked me was
am i saying that at times when i REALLY need him? meaning, do i really find God first when i am going through such a hard time?
and trust me, i have gone through such hard times ever since i came to Korea, i don't know how many times i searched for him FIRST ...
i've realized that my school is so hard to cope with; especially because of THE PEOPLE *
yeah, my school's a christian school and that's one of the reasons why i love it; the mandatory BIBLE CLASS, the tuesday worship time (get to miss class =]), the REAL christians, the TEACHERS, the food, haha~ yeah ... //
what makes it hard is, what may seem like such a christian environment ... it really doesn't feel like it, and it's so hard to find christian friends at an almost 10% christian class. not to mention the competition ... // AND our grade scale is SOOOO high it's HARD to keep up; and; next year, IB SAT ... where am i going God?
my biggest goal in life is to follow the plan that God wants me to follow; my only problem: HOW?!
i have no idea what i want to do in life, idk what intrests me, i find that i am not REALLY good at nething ... // maybe a little of this, and a little of that, i suck at math period; where will that take me? i want to go into the medical field, i need math, but im not good at it ... COMPLAIN COMPLAIN COMPLAIN ...
so basically, im just hanging onto God .. and even if in the end there is no rescue, im still going to hang onto God ... //
i wonder what ya'll are doing in the states, haha i totally miss the food, and the clothes, and the WIDE SPACED GRASS ... i miss WHITE CAPS ^^;;
i hope everyone is doing great*
this entry has gotten too long - -
dont forget that little asian girl all the way in korea :}
she still thinks about you guys ^^ love always,
Joyce |
