it's the sense of touch . in any real city , you walk , you know ? you brush past people , people bump into you . in L.A. , nobody touches you . we're always behind this metal and glass . i think we miss that touch so much , that we crash into each other , just so we can feel something .

why do you keep everybody a certain distance, ? What , you start to feel something and panic ?

i wish i knew how to quit you

what you can't change , you've just got to ride out

if you can't fix it , you gotta stand it

i love you . now i know i said and done a lotta things , that i hurt you , but i promise , i'll never do that again . i only want to take care of you . i will not leave you .

i live in torture , thinking of these moments . with every look she gives you , i get sicker and sicker . there is a burning in me i feel on fire , and there's guilt i can't get rid of either . does it make you happy to know that ?

life is greater than death . and love is greater than either .

why be capable of feelings if we're not to have them ? why long for things if they're not meant to be ours ?

love is made by God . ignore it and you suffer as you cannot imagine .

we both know this can't be , we've known it from the start . that doesn't mean it isn't true , it is , it just cannot be . i want to know that you're alive somewhere thinking of me from time to time . i want to know that there's more to this life and i can't know that if they kill you .

why do we fall ? so we can learn to pick ourselves up .

it's not who i am underneath but what i do that defines me .

so tell me where did i go wrong before you
before you came along
well it seems like i was lost
you showed me how to do things right
now i'm so glad that now you're mine

so use me dont let me screw it up
i believeyou oh and i need your touch
just a little spice of you
could never be too much

nothing can compare
to when you roll the dice and you swear that your love's for me

and i did my time and i said my lines
i was always looking for a little sign
i payed my dues just to get to you
i would never follow all the stupid rules
sun on my head and back to the wall
it was always something that i couldn't ignore
and i took my time and i made you mine

you never meant to stay
you always walk away from everything
and did you stop to see what was going on
you build walls around you every time
you’ve been running round in circles
you’ve been blaming everyone

she hangs around the boulevard
she's a local girl with local scars

it's all she loves , it's all she hates , it's all too much for her to take . she can't be sure just where it ends or where the good life begins .

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cause you can't jump the track , we're like cars on a cable
and life's like an hourglass , glued to the table

but , my God , it's so beautiful when the boy smiles

and these mistakes you've made , you'll just make them again
if you only try turning around

i'm breakin on the balcony
breakin window panes
killing the pain of broken hearts
i'm walkin on clouds
i'm walkin on stars

but someday we'll all be old
and i'll be so damn beautiful

hey can you talk a little louder ,
i don't think my heart is broken enough

you know i gotta keep these cheeks dry today
gotta keep my cheating strategy
and baby i'm gonna have it made

i'd cheat destiny just to be near you

cause love doesnt hurt so i know i'm not falling in love
i'm just falling to pieces

love might be just like me
jaded , waiting , all alone

heading anywhere
until at last i've finally found
a place to lay my anchor down

when you smile
with those eyes
baby it's like
you place a finger on my heart

and your lips next to mine
make me think that maybe heavens where you are

i hear that it was you who died alone
and i offer no sympathy for that
better off i sparkle on my own

and someday love will find me in the rough
someday love will finally be enough

i turned around 3 times and wound up at your door

and i'm driving you away
and i shine a little more lately

and i wonder if truly you are
nearly as beautiful as i believe

you've got all that i need
and this make believe will get me through
another lonely night

i'll take you away in the way that you take me and go where i go

fall away to the sound of my heart to your beat
melancholy and cool , kind of bitter sweet
love on repeat

under the weight of your wings
i make believe you are all that I'll ever need

well , it's been almost a year to the moment
when i finally realized it was over
and i knew that love wasn't good enough
of a reason for me to stay
well , I saw you yesterday ; you were driving
and i tried so hard to forget
you were alive , and as you passed by i began to cry
over things that i did not say

i'm killing the ghost of you , and i'm close to
awakening me

and love's something that i wouldn't wanna live without

cause i am not a force to be reckoned with
and you don't have a clue what you're messing with
and you can't see to the best in me
cause it's more than your heart can take

i'm taking my heart and i'm setting you free
and , baby , now you're just another song to me
and the edge of your sword isn't sharp enough for me
to bleed

i've come to terms with all my insecurities
and purity is no friend of mine

and dreaming doesn't do no good
cause i don't wanna lie
that i'm okay and i'm alright

i'll wait for the day when you find i'm too much for you

when you say love is a simple chemical reaction
can't say i agree
cause my chemical , left me a beautiful disaster
still love is all i see

everybody wants someone to love
somebody they can trust
somebody they can touch
everybody wants to give their heart away
everybody needs a little tenderness
to feel understood
to feel passionate
everybody wants to be in love this way

i want to be somebody's baby
i want to cry and still feel beautiful
maybe i really just wanna be myself

one thousand words are not enough
i need to feel your tender touch
it is the only thing to satisfy my need
one thousand kisses on my lips
won't give me the relationship
i want much more than that
a love that i can keep

how much longer will i have to hold it in ?
i want to give you all of me
i am waiting for the moment to arrive
when my soul will be set free

i will love you all my life 
i  will always be by your side
with you nothing is missing
you are my fortune

wanna know you better
wanna push you baby , but never to far
wanna show you heaven
wanna be like you , just as strong as you are

with you i'm complete
feels so right don't ask me why
no one can change me , you're the one that takes me higher

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making out with people
i hardly know or like
i can't believe what i do
late at night

i wanna know what it's like
on the inside of love
i'm standing at the gates
i see the beauty above

i can't find my way in
i try again and again
i'm on the outside of love
always under or above
must be a different view
to be a me with a you
of course i'll be alright
i just had a bad night

now the signals
still getting all mixed up
we're always doing damage control

don't push me cause i'll fall in love
with whatever you just said
don't push me cause i'll fall in love
with the way you wear your head

i want to want you
i need to need you
i'd love to love you

i'd like to say good-bye
to a complicated mind

oh no you make your own mistakes
i cannot bring them back to you
oh no you make your own mistakes
i cannot measure up to you

do you ever feel like what we call real life
is not so real ?
tripping up on the same old problems
you had last year

where are we going ?
i don't care
our friends all left
let's go anywhere
it's getting late
i don't care
it's just you and me
let's go anywhere

when you're away , i sleep all day
nothing works and thinking hurts
you belong to me
in my dreams

we'll go on vacation tonight
under a sun of neon light
and i almost love this town
when i'm by your side

there'll be no more crying
you're gonna make it all better instead

i gotta laugh and then i'm asleep
and then i walk around and wanna cry

try another me and i will try another you
or put my arms around you
like i think you want me to

and as we pass by each other
our heads all full of bother
we can't look , we can't stop
we can't think , we can't stop
because we're stuck in our own paths
and it's the way it always lasts
but i need something more from you

you made me feel like i'm ok , i could be happy
now i can sit , not run away stupidly laughing
wipe out all self-pity , it's slowing me down
turn off feeling pretty , dressing up dressing down.
i walk around the city out of my way , looking for something

i feel far away from you . so what else is new ?
the moon is closer to the sun than i am to anyone

what do you see when you look at a girl ?
is she a game you wanna win ?
if no one was looking
what would you do to get in ?
do you have friends who would be proud
if you went in for the kill ?
do you have friends who would do it
even against her will ?

everybody's been laughed at
and everybody's been left out but ,
that's no excuse to turn it around
no boy has the right to hold a girl down

broken roses on the steps ,
like promises i never kept .
promises i never made
but could have honored anyway .

every day i choose to spend the rest of my life with him
and every day i break the molds of lives and worlds . 
i already miss the things that i will never know .
i will never know the things that i've already missed .

i'm just like you , peel away the layers two by two .
you're just like me , piling on the pressure three by three .
we're almost done shutting out the voices one by one .

and if this letter finds you lost and out of touch - lonely ,
i hope you know by now you mean so very much to me .

being attractive is the most important thing there is
if you wanna catch the biggest fish in your pond
you have to be as attractive as possible
make sure to keep your hair spotless and clean
wash it at least every two weeks

every afternoon i wasted being mad at You
the things i never said
the things i can't say tomorrow
bury me in sorrow
cover me in joy

i've been distracted from the things that i wanna do
i've been distracted from the way i wanna be for you

i found that box of letters
lying on the ground
the ones you used to write me before it all went down
i even got a papercut trying to figure out
what to do with all those memories

what happened to the good times ?
what happened to the moments where we had so much ?
where's the love ?

remember all those hours laughing on the floor
those days of doing nothing felt like nothing did before

shine up my high heel shoes
put on a brand new shirt
get home early from work
if you say that you love me

you took my innoncence away but the best of me stayed

you say you gotta go but what does that mean
do you wanna be together or is it just me
sometimes i think your in until i think your out

you turned something so good so bad
threw out all the things we had
put yourself in my shoes its so sad
i believed all the things you said I believed in you

so don't wish upon a star
cause a star can only get you so far
and it doesn't matter who you are
cause the sky looks better from the ground anyways

so i drive around the superficial town
with a smile on my face
no one really knows how i feel inside
and i'm keeping it that way

well he seemed broked-hearted something within him
but the moment that i first laid eyes on him
all alone on the edge of seventeen

i can tell you things nobody knows
i've been everywhere nobody goes
nothing gets me off the way that you do
you drive me crazy when you step in the room

something bout your lips something about your kiss
something bout your eyes keeps you on my mind
thought it was nothing
turns out it is something
your the one that keeps me up every night

you've crawled under my skin and i feel you there
you're with me all the time you come everywhere
when i needed space i pushed you away
but then i want you back , you're hard to erase

and this is my beautiful life
the only thing certain is everything changes
lows and the highs
and all those goodbyes
as hard as it gets i know it's still amazing
to be alive
it's a beautiful life

* sorry its been so long yall , starting back at school with 2 AP classes , and all my other stuff is hard to keep up with . and i finally got my computer to allow me to put icons on here , so from time to time , i will include icons with entries . hope yall enjoy <333 *