Hey heyz what's up?!  Not too much here just chilling up in class like always.  Well I am going to be trying to get a job and all and I hope I get one.  I have been applying everywhere I can and no one is calling me.  Well I had gave my boyfriend's sister my application to hand in for me at Wendy's.  I need to get a job because Christmas is coming up so yeah.  My mom wants me to get a job so bad and she also wants me to get my permit because she thinks that I need to be driving.  I am sixteen and have been sixteen for six months.  Yesterday I wasn't in school and everyone thinks that I just skipped but I didn't.  Well um.....I had cleaned knowing I was kind of sick.  Alex calls me at 3:27 and was like why were u going to pop pills and all?? I was like all the stress that is put on me is why.  He said you know if you do it one more time him and I are going to be over.  I was telling him on Saturday that I was going to kill myself and I was going to pop and he gave me the dial tone.  Well he had talked to his dad and his dad said he should drive me to a place to get some help but I don't want to because my mom doesn't know about any of this.  He promised me that he wouldn't tell my mom and his parents wouldn't tell my mom.  He asked me what he could do to help me and I said I don't know and I said what can I do to you to make up for making you mad at me?  And he said he doesn't know yet and he will tell me when he thinks of something.  But this whole weekend if I wasn't on the phone with anyone I was watching a tv show on Kenny Chesney.   Well He is going to try and help me through all of this because I need someone to be there for me.  If I knew I could do it on my own I would but I need someone there to tell me no when I go and get into pills.  I can't have my mom tell me no because if I do try and get her to she would be asking questions.  My step dad needs to get out of the house because my mom is divorcing him and she doesn't want him in the house.  He is the main problem of me popping pills and all.  If he wasn't here I probably wouldn't of started poping pills this past summer.  Then yesterday my ex-boyfriend Lucas Toot called me and oh I am mad at him.  He is trying to get me back and he is still with April and the only reason he is doing this is because he wants me to fight April and me to have one of my guy friends to fight him.  He is 18 years old and so imature and she is 21 and she has a kid why would you want to risk loosing your kid.  I am going to go I will talk to you later.

Ashley

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    Hey heyz what's up?!  Not too much here just chilling up in class and all.  I got into an argument with Alex yesterday when he called me lastnight.  I am so sick and tired of getting yelled at and so I am stopping what I am doing.   Alex said If i were you I would stop popping and so I am stopping.  I am going to go I will talk to you later.

    Ashley

Hey heyz I am back now.  I had fun just a couple of minutes ago!  I was printing out pictures of Kenny Chesney.    I said to my friends that if Kenny would come up to me and ask me to date him I would and I would so cheat on my boyfriend Alex.  Well he is suppose to come over today after school and I just can't wait.  He is coming over after he has to stay after for fifteen minutes.  My little sister Katie is coming up also this weekend.  I am going to go I will talk to you later.

ashley

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Hey heyz what's up?!  My name is Ashley Eichelberger and I am a cheerleader at Carlisle High School in Carlisle, PA.  I am so happy that I am in High school and I am a Sophomore. I am dating a junior his name is Alex Cook and he is so sweet to me.  I don't know what I would do without him.  I thought that I wasn't going to be finding a guy who is just the right guy for me.  I am also a softball player and I can't play it right now because of my knee cap.  I had hurt my knee like three years ago and I thought that I wasn't going to have to go through anything.  I um.....had gone to theapy but that didn't work at all.  I didn't think that it would go that far.  I have to have surgery after christmas time.  I can't wait till christmas because i get a cd and it is Kenny Chesney's CD.    He is my favorite singer at of country.  If I was older I would try and date him.  You know not many young kids like country but me and my boyfriend do.  I thought it was funny when I found out that he liked the same singers as I do.  I am going to go so I can make a collage of him.

Ashley