| while reading my own entry i realized that rambling on and on might be one of my favorite past times. |
| |
|  woah summer break is gone. did i even have a break or was it more like a 5 minute dream? oh well it was an awesome time being with friends and Mr. Boy Toy and trying to cram everything into my somehow busy schedule. i worked all the time but somehow i have no money to prove it. ok i have some money.
i worked for parks and recreation of topeka doing concessions at all the little and big pools and rueger baseball park. and it was hot hot hot. only now my hours have been taken away by the rain. bye bye big pay check.
so college huh?
i'm in my third semester at KATS ( Kaw Area Technical School).
the course is interior design and it is every day for 3 hours. i'm excited to soon redo my room.
at washburn i am only enrolled in english 101 and aerobics and pilates Monday Wednesday and Fridays.
though this doesn't sound like much, i am in school or doing homework all the time.
throughout my senior year at topeka high i forgot what homework is.
and this time i really want to make it substancial.
next semester i'll be doing a lot more at washburn and will technically be a sophomore with the number of credits i recieve from Kats.
yay ---i don't want to talk about school anymore.
lets talk about mr. boy toy.
chris is my boyfriend of about 2 years which seems like a long time. when times were rough it was hard to finish one week at a time but now it flies by.
of course he's the fun type of considerate guy to have in the same room with you but no one sees the way he is when we are alone except for me. we have referred to our relationship as perfect lately. thats a pretty scary thing to say 'cause i don't want to ginx anything. i also don't know how to spell ginx.
but the way our relationship goes day by day i don't want anything to change.
it seems like i do want everything else in my life to take change though.
most of my best friends have moved to other colleges and i will miss them. but it feels as though i'm missing out on something else. my life besides starting at washburn (which is just another school anyway) is the exact same while everyone else's is completely different.
i like staying at home and saving money, it's exactly what i want to do right now. i'm not ready to leave home or my parents or all the benefits.
but i crave change.
i am soon to redecorate my room. new carpeting, new paint, new ceiling color, new bed accessories.
also after i meet a few people to become friends with i want to dye my hair a light brown.
i want a refreshed personality. i don't want to be the theatrical type that is always loud and talks no matter who does or does not want to listen.
i don't consider myself shy but i want good comebacks and confidence to just throw out my opinion.
i've been so used to other people responding for me or not caring if i talk or not that i don't even think when other people are talking. mostly i just listen.
where is my personality.
i'm funny, cute, smart, and other things but i dunno.
i'm on the phone now with my hubby.
|
| |
