Life is looking so much better these days, im back where i belong, in the arms of the man i love, who now admits he learned his lesson. we hurt each other so bad at first, we couldnt see straight, now were seeing things just the way they were meant to be, lifes a journey and a lesson just waiting to be learned. what doesnt kill us makes us stronger, i never want to go through that again though. Been there too many times when i was younger. I want to stay in love with this man forever  peace my friends

Why does everything get so complicated? I dont understand alot of things but i cannot understand men in general, then when its too late they always want to make it right. Im scared thats going to happen here in my own situation, i have forgiven my man for his indescretion but he doesnt think he can be true to me, after all the love and devotion i have given that man. It seems so simple, but its confusing........It also hurts alot, do i try and stay by him? or do i move on to bigger and bettet things? Only the almighty knows whats best for me and i will once again let him try to guide my stubborn personality. I hope my angels stay with me, they've been pretty good to me so far, but the powerful ones have been sent down to try and help me. I just wished they could talk.

Is there anyone out there that can tell me thier stories ? Maybe it will help me to make my decision, i know that im a good person that deserves alot but i also know that i love this man

 ok its getting closer and im getting more excited, see the little hook right before Long Branch thats where i'll be staying, right on the Jersey Shore. Even though i was raised in Jersey City, we always had a summer home there and thats where my cousin lives, where im so very excited to be saying i will be there soon, Gawd i just can't wait. One more lousy week-end of work and soon as i get off Tuesday morn i'll be on that friggin plane to New Jersey. I just got off the phone with my cousin, she's so excited too and so's my little brother, Gene and i cant wait to get out of Florida, even if its only for eight days, we'll take it............Cousin says its near 100 today, great more heat , just what we wanted to hear but like Gene says it summertime !!! At least the nights cool down pretty nice and i cant wait to sleep out on the porch like the good ol days. Smelling the ocean air and just having plain ol jersey fun again.........yeah baby, hey now..........sweetjerseypeace everyone

 Ok so were leaving on a jet plane for New Jersey in three weeks and im so excited. I cant wait to see my friends and family again.........My little brother and cousin both going to be on vacation most of the time while Gene and I are up there and we three are really close, its going to be a blast. We are also attending a family wedding, so i'll get to see the rest of the family, wished my mom was here though, this will be the first time, im making a family appearance without her. I know they say life goes on but im still miss her so terribly, anyways back to the happy part, my girlfriends are so excited though i know i will not to get to spend alot of time with them, just seeing them is going to be great, omg, did i mention im so excited............and iv got Bon Jovi on the brain, he doesnt live far from my cousin, where i'll be staying and used to live, so i'll have to cruise on by his mantion, cant help but feeling happy the boy made it, Another Jersey boy, you go baby, i love him and think he's so adorable,  i know im babbeling again.        Gawd, i could just do  him ....I'll be there for you , yeah baby !!!!

I better be 100 % better when its time to leave, not feeling so bad today, i broke out in a really bad sweat this morning so im hoping i sweat out most of whats affecting me soon...............and i have to go to work tonight and smell glue all night, they are putting a new rug in, i can feel the headache already, it sucks, oh well no sense bitching about it already but i am dreading it......................sweetjerseypeace as always