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Friday, October 12, 2007

  • Oh fuck.

     What to type? Everything made better sense in my head. But when it comes to actually forming the thoughts into words... um yeah. I'll get back to you on that.  I just got done watching possibly the most uncomfortable movie...ever. Knocked Up. Maybe you thought it was hilarious, or moving, or I don't know. Made it so "you can't wait for that day to happen to you." But I found it extremely uncomfortable. Maybe it wasn't the movie itself.. but the person I was watching it with... But that's another blog entirely. I find that I am getting less and less comfortable with people. I would just like to find someone I can be comfortable with.  Quoting fight club I would like to find someone who "actually listens instead of waiting for their turn to talk." I would also like to find someone who gives a shit. Someone who can look me in the eye and say "I understand. I know what you're going through. My parents were on again, off again too.  I watched my sister starting to get into things that I barely survived and just hoped that she is as strong as I am, because I feel the inside of my stomach rotting too knowing there ain't a damn thing I can do about. I've lost a friend and held on to them too long. My heart has been completely torn apart SO bad that I really don't think I can feel anything at all." And if someone said this to me... I would make them as comfortable around me as possible, cause I give a shit. I understand, I want to listen to them, I want to know how they cope with things. ... but I don't think I'll ever meet that person. I'm confused and uncomfortable... and maybe this will all make sense after a nice nap. Goodbye!
    Currently Listening
    Songs to Love and Die by...
    By 8mm
    Liar
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Thursday, September 06, 2007

  • Who loves the kitty?

    Tonight I went to Wal*Mart with Jason and there was black cat meowing, it was long haired and very friendly, as soon as I heard it meowing I started calling for it and it walked up to me. It was such a pretty kitty, I wanted to take it home and I told Jason that if it was still out there when we came out I was going to. When we came out of Wal*Mart at first it seemed like it was gone but then I called for it and it came out of the carts. It meowed and rubbed against my legs.  I noticed that it walked funny with its hind legs like someone had kicked it in the butt and messed up its back. Its front claws were gone and it was still well groomed, we guessed that it had recently been left there, or it was shop cat, but it was very eager for attention.  We were going to take it home even though we are not allowed to have another cat... but as soon as we put her in the car she began freaking out so we opened the door and she jumped out, but still looked at us and continued to meow then she walked into some tall grass.  I watched until I lost track of her then I got out of the car and started calling for her... when I was calling for her.. .ANOTHER CAT CAME!  This was very beautiful as well, a long haired siamese, she immediately started rubbing my legs and following me around. Jason said she liked me... but she followed him too so I think she just likes friendly humans in general... she was so soft when I petted her. I sat in the middle of the two cats and looked at Jason and pouted. He looked really sad too.... we're not even allowed to have two cats. There is no way that we could have three.   Jason said he was going to go inside and buy them some food... but I picked up the siamese one and put her in the car and told him to take me home. I had already started calling her ivy... after the poison ivy I sat beside in the tall grass by Wal*Mart. When we brought Ivy home she walked into the house and smelt Sabre and realized it was another cat's territory. Sabre didn't react at first but as soon as she realized there was another cat she went up and tried to sniff Ivy and Ivy walked away Sabre then ran in front of her and started attacking her. Jason came in the house about that time carrying in groceries and picked Ivy up and I picked Sabre up. He looked at me and said "I'm sorry hunny, we have to take her back. There's no way."  I thought I felt my heart break into pieces... I wanted to help her so bad. "But Charley and Calvin acted like this at first," I said. "We could keep them in separate rooms."  Jason suggested the basement ... so after we put a place for her to sleep, a radio to keep her company, food and water of course and a litter box we put her in the basement and closed the door. I go down to check on her once in awhile an I hope that her and Sabre will be able to get used to each other's smell through the basement door, so that someday they can get along if not I will have to take her back to where we found her.  I'm going to run an add in the paper and see if I can find her a good home. After I got the cat's situated I took some food up to the other black cat, the one that had the bad hips and freaked out about being in the car, she wasn't as friendly either. I wish I could have taken her home too but there's no way I could have three cats, I'm pushing it with having one and taking care of one until I find a home for her. Its a good thing she freaked out about being in the car otherwise I would have taken her home too.  I feel so bad, there are so many animals and people in this world who don't get the love they need. ... and I don't even want to think about the sickos who are at fault for it.

Friday, January 05, 2007

  • Meet me in outerspace, I will hold you close if you're afraid to fly

    Just an update cuz I haven't posted in over a month, I apologize to those of you who read this.  So here's whats new.  I am now the owner of a 2006 Chevey Malibu...I'm going to look at a 2bedroom house for and my baby to move into tonight, speaking of baby...We've been going out 6 fucking incredible months.  I've never been this in love and ... yep well that's pretty much it.  I haven't gotten a new phone yet but I'm working on it! Love ya all. <333 Ciao But I suppose I should get back to work.

    Currently Listening
    Make Yourself
    By Incubus
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Friday, December 01, 2006

  • at work on my last break

    I've been doing much better since I got that last post off my chest sorry, I don't get to go on the computer anymore cuz my dad is depressed and wants to be on his writing site all the time and away from my mom. MARIISSA... I'M SORRY....I CHANGED THE RATING SO YOU CAN COMMENT ME =) P.S. I can't call you...my cellphone is broken...remember? hehe  Today I went to country kitchen with some of my coworkers for lunch we all rode together and I heard beyonce' something I would never expect to hear in a guys car. [URL="http://www.explosm.net/comics/735/"]
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