Oh I am so busy. I am going to school Mon through Thursday in the mornings. I work on Tues and Thursday afternoons, 16 hours on Friday and 12 hours on Saturday. I go to church on Sunday mornings and Wednesday evenings. During the in between times, I spend time with Danyale, work on my homework, study, do my chores and get about 4 to 5 hours of sleep a night.

So is it any surprise that about 2 weeks ago I came down with the flu. I am still having some breathing problems but it is getting better with practice. I am almost back up to full speed. I am looking forward to Spring break even though I still have to work and will have to do 3 papers over spring break. Over Easter weekend Danyale and I have some very relaxing easter egg hunting and church service plans and then a day of rest afterward.

Well I dropped Intro to Chem after that last post and switched to accounting because I found out that Chem wasn't needed for my major but accounting was. So far I am struggling in all my classes but it is more of a just needing to get back into the groove of going to school after the last big failure. I still have confidence issues but I am slowly building up thanks to some of my teachers.

Danyale on the other hand is doing great in school. She is doing all the basic math and spelling all by herself I am so proud. On top of that she has been coming home with almost all blues all week long. This means she has actually been good and listened in class. No more calls from school in the middle of the day (knock on wood.) I can't tell her enough how proud I am.

Thank you all for all of your support and prayers!!! I was very lost and in a dark place in the past couple of years until very recently. I feel as though I am coming back into the light and the sun is shining on my face for the first time in years. I still don't have much time to get on but I will try and again thanks too all of you. There are some of you who positively feels like family.

M/W  Eng 2 and Music Appreciation

T/Th Philosophy

Friday Chemistry (Ok this is the one that scares the hell out of me. I failed it in high school as in I got a zero big fat 0 but then again could be because I went to all of 2 classes but I swear it was like trying to read a different language. I will be studying real hard and praying even harder.)

Ok so I am a student now. I am scared out of my mind. I am thinking maybe mom is right I need to be quitting work, but I need so much still glasses, contacts, school supplies, brakes, tires, not to mention health insurance I mean kidney stones and Topamax hello I am a walking bill. But how in the hell am I going to study for all I have taken on. I know I know I have promised to put it in God's hands so here again. I am struggling to let it go and breathe. I just am so scared of failing. I have so many people counting on me to get through this and survive on my own. And one little girl in particular looking to me to do what's right and swim in the pool with the sharks and protect her from the world that is just waiting to eat us whole. But I am going to pray. And again breathe and think there is nothing I can do tonight. I can not even study. I don't even have my books yet. So good night to all.