battlecalli do realise that i've been missing in action for quite a while on my blog.been too busy. US for two weeks. catching up with friends for a week or so.and church camp for another week.which accounts for the time i havent been here. SO, i'll talk about the most recent, church camp. the US post(no, not the friendly men who always get chased by your neighbour's dog) and pictures will be up maybe tomorrow. but for now.church camp recount. and last night's RJ crosscountry j2 farewell pictures, and ruiyong's dance.NOT TO BE MISSED. name of this camp was battlecall.and i really didnt want to go for camp at all. i was really tired,physically(took a while to recover from the jetlag) and spiritually. i've been running away from God from sometime.when everything was going wrong i just refused to talk to God, i'd block him out.numb myself.and i was sorta angry with God for what was happenin in my life.and with people around me starting to give up on me, it just fuelled by spiral down, and i just felt my calling and place in God was maybe not really so. so camp started.i was totally annoyed.the rooms had no airconditioning.which meant i'd be sticky in the morning(i still dont get how people can live without aircon) and there was barely any vegetables in the PACKET food.which was also fairly tasteless and fried. not my kind of supposed balanced diet is it.was totally negative and very grumpy on the second and the third day.especially with little sleep, it justified by testiness.and during services i couldnt bring myself to sing or lift my hands.i couldnt sing words i didnt mean, it would only cheapen the words if i did.so as people jumped and worshipped i'll stand watching them asking myself "what has become of me".what happened to my visions.my calling.my first love. THEN.(okay.read ahead.exciting part now) during third day's morning, during the sermon, titled "reflection of love" i just realised that i really have been a very bad reflection of God's love in my life. i've been doing so much rubbish.we all make mistakes.christians too.that's why we need God's forgiveness aint it.and with that, i just felt such a renewing of my call. which was way amazing. it's like unexplainable joy. a bouyancy in the spirit. something higher and greater than when i thought i was feeling good when i was doing things i wasnt allowed to do.it's like what i'd term as "real freedom", for lack of better words. that night, when sister yinting prayed for me, it was like a confirmation. i had written in my diary something about the renewed calling. and when she prayed, she used the specific words "renewing your calling" and what's more, i had yet to share about it yet.what an encouragement. :D and even on the last day, when i heard news that shook me up, i still had like a sense of peace. and i could lift my hands and worship and sing with the same conviction and passion i once had. AMAZING STUFF AINNIT camp had great games though. group was "isaac" which was a pretty cool group.did army drills together.screamed together.won together.only managed to get one picture of camp though.but more will be up soon. 
jackie in camou cream before passing off parade went for rj cross j2 farewell after.for the first time in my life, the catered food, the vegetables were finished and the rest of the food was in excess.especially the fried stuff. played crazy games.charades.blowwindblow.(which ruiyong got left out 3 times and had to do a forfeit of a dance) after which there was the eulogies for the j2s.and melvin, in response to the heartfelt eulogies, gave a little speech with a mindmap prepared. finally, after everything, they threw him into the pool. XD
ruiyong's supposed poledance(with huaqun being the pole) and when you hear the "who said that" you might have caught a "at least grind him a little" highly distubing. 
weiwen.audrey.tiff.tried to cut weiwen out on ruiyong's instruction but failed. US post and pictures coming up soon.. | 
