so i've been feeling OLD. yes i know many think i'm quite little, and i know i act like a little kid at times. but doesnt it scare you sometimes? when you suddenly realize everyone is talking about what they want to do when the graduate? it seriously depresses me. well, sorta. guess my point is, i dont want to grow up, i feel very unready in many ways, and i just like college and i'm soo afraid i'm going to lose touch with all my friends here.. i realize i dont really like changes (cept good ones haha). but yeahh we're all old men and old ladies soon. doesnt that SUCK?
GOSH i will turn 20 on my next birthday! NOT GOOD! *unhappy!*
andd i miss home. i feel like i'll never live at home again.
On a brighter note: look at this angry little dog!! :)
it is currently 3:23 am right
now.. and i have a final and a quiz and a lab report due in less that 6
hours that i'm not even close to finishing. but i'd just like to give
praise to God.. that in my most stressed day ever, i could have amazing
conversations with my friends. :) and just truly be reminded of the ABUNDANT blessings that i possess.
a random thought.. i have been debating about graduating early, and at
this moment i am SO sad that if i graduate early, i will only have 1.5
years left with the amazing ppl i've met down here in uc san diego.
that thought breaks my heart. foreals.. sometimes with the overwhelming things happening in the world around me and my unlimited
selfishness i've forgotten how to appreciate. but this moment.. i
realize that... WOW i'm really blessed. i truly am so happy with all
the things i have that i didnt deserve.. thanks to God and
everyone. i love you guys.
P.S. good luck with finals because i know a lot us need it this quarter =P
