hey whats happenin!....damn i havent written ne thing in here for a long ass time lol....well...i graduated already.....just been going to the lake alot and working....and trying to stay out of trouble...i mean....nothing really that bad....i mean....me and my dad got into a fight i was supposed to go with him so that ain't happenin'...so i'm still stuck here till august.....my family thinks i'm a really bad alcoholic....i don't know....the only thing that i'm afraid of are my plans not coming through....i hope i don't end up like most in this town....if ne one wants to get a hold of me....just holla....

life can do a complete 180 on you just out of no where....its weird.....*sigh* i feel....gloopy....mentally and like....burned out physically....i mean....with all the stress build up and puttng up with stupid people at work.....it sucks.....i'm just ready to go on vacation....just one more week.....i can't wait.....but i think i'll make it....i don't know what it is....i think its all the stress....i mean with school, college, and work....its a bummer....lol i don't know....like....i mean...alot of people have been telling me that i've changed....like....i don't talk to them as much...i seem more crabby....or more like something is bothering me....its just everything....i guess....life....just....i guess its like all my problems and all the shit in the past is just now catching up to me at the most crucial time of my life.....which...seniors you know what i'm talking bout....i'm still trying to figure out exactly what i want to do....i'm still....confused about alot of things that i know will effect me in my future life and right now its like....i don't give a shit.....i don't....i just don't care bout ne thing ne more....all i want is to have a better life....without the people here in sidney...or e thing that deals with my past in Sidney....i want a new life...a fresh start....idk....

well everybody...thats the update...not too exciting....peace out!

So...*sigh* todays been some day....today was one of those days where i was there but then i didn't feel i was there....so it was just really weird...lol. I managed to get alot done today...well...not realy....at least i felt like i did.....i don' know....so....i quite the dance team last night.....*sigh* i don't know...for some reason its not phasin' me...at least not yet....lol but i guess i'll start out by doing what i'm supposed to do for counceling.....so.....*clears throat* here we go...first question.....What is one thing I did today i'm proud of.....i guess starting on my brit lit assignment lol.....i was proud of myself for quitting last night.....um....lets see...what is the one thing i like about myself today....that i was somewhat modivated today...just a lil' bit....what is one thing I'm looking forward to doing tomorrow....i think that one would have to be going in and talking to Mr. Scott....i just want to see the look on his face when i tell him that i'm not changing my mind....and i'm lookign forward to seeing somebody tomorrow i guess you can say....*giggles* ne ways.....

hmmm lets see what else....i'm not doing much now that i'm not on the team ne more....i guess i'll just go back to the daycare....that should be fun...ne ways imma bounce cuz the twins are going psycho...peace

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Hey whats up everybody.....i'm back....i kind of dissappeared there for a while....um....nothin much has happened....well i take that back...alot has happened.....I'm still doing danz team and that is taking up most of my time....We don't have another performance till around January 6th so.....its gonna be a while....but in the mean time we're working our asses off through Christmas vacation. I think our dance team is fuck'n awesome this year! I feel alot more relaxed leaving a bad ass team.....

um...schools going aight.....i ain't really complaining...i guess just the people that go to this fuck'n school.....you know what i'm sayin'? i don't know...*sigh* i'm just ridin' out till i graduate.....

I don't think i'm gonna see my dad like we were supposed on christmas.....we were supposed to spend it with him but then he sent us our gifts through the mail and we got them the other night and it made me think well...why couldn't he have just broughten them when we were supposed to see him on Christmas day....you know what i'm sayin'? i don't know......that shit just pisses me off...but then the last time we had our visitation me and my dad fought and we both left crying and pissed.....haven't talked to him since.....My tia Nelly told me that he was so heart broken and was just fuck'n ballin' his eyes out..... i don't know.......we'll see.......*takes deep breath*

um....lets see.....me and andrew are back together.....i'm glad.....i feel horrible because i broke up with Evan for him......see....Evan was the sweetest guy lol....shit....he bought me a dozen roses and brought them over at my house.....he wrote me songs, poems, took me out to eat, open and closed the doors for me lol.....we could just talk.......but....i told him that i wasn't over Andrew yet....and.....truely i wasn't......it just didn't feel right being with him when i still had feelings for Andrew....so....me and Andrew are going to ditch school tomorrow and go to Sterling for the day before i have dance practice tomorrow night and go to work....we already cleared it with the rents so....its aight.....*sigh* shit.....

hmmmmmmmmmmm.......i don't know but i guess thats all thats happenin'

holla at this brown chick!

~*ThE mEx*~

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Hey whats up everybody

Well you know me just chillin....*sigh* i just got out of "jail" lol shit...its been a long weekend. This past weekend was the first official visitation with my dad....it went okay Saturday and for the most part of Sunday right up to where we had to leave....then me and my dad got into this big arguement and....we both left crying and pissed.....That was the first that me and him ever got into....and he was just saying this shit about what if he dies tomorrow and shit and that i'm gonna feel guilty for leaving like that and shit....idk....i want to know if he got back home aight though....I couldn't sleep last night....so i'm dead ass tired right now.....barely stayed awake in any of my classes, but somehow i managed to get alot of shit done

Dance team is going aight. Season started full time last Tuesday. So...i had to stop working at the Daycare until season is over but i need to find a weekend job because i need money for my trips and shit to Egypt. But anways...me and Jasmine are choreographing right now and i think our dance is going to turn out pretty aight. The song that we picked goes good for the ones like they use in our competitions and shit so that will be good. We got new coaches this year...three in fact....they're aight i guess....We're gonna be pretty raw this year, no fuck'n joke. I can't wait to get on that gym floor and hear the sound that my danz shoes make while i'm dancing. Oh i'm getting the butterflies just thinking about it. I talked to Hastings College and i'm supposed to call the Dance coach and talk about try outs and shit so hopefully that goes good and shit. I'm trying to forget that i'm going to have that last dance coming up soon....Its going to kill me.....

Graduation is coming up fast even though the first semester isn't over yet. Tomorrow we have to bring $50 bucks for our graduation gown and cap. Theres alot of shit that we have to order and prepare for graduation. And this year is going by fast already....I remember my first day of school. Its fuck'n nuts. I just ordered my Senior pictures. They came out pretty good. Alot of people asked me if I was going to Modeling school because they said that I look like one...I guess they were that good lol. I got my family all the way from Mexico and Texas and shit coming to my graduation i think....i'm not sure....and my brothers coming here in February so that'll be tight.....

But i think thats it to keep you gangstas updated so holla back at this brown chick.

*MeXiCaN cHiCk*