don wanna study...

i have soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to study, but i'm just not in the mood...

its a ridiculous statement that 'i'm not in the 'mood'' coz it's not really a matte of choice...but i really dont wanna do it....arhg!

timing

it's been a really long time since i've posted a blog...life's been hectic...and it's become much busier recently with med school...*Sigh*...

right now, i just need to just randomly kinda vent about timing, text messaging, and meaning...

why does someone become so friendly all of a sudden and reply and send you txt messages?  but yet, no actual phone call? anything text related, letters, emails, text messages, are ALL so dependent on how the READER reads the message. and there's also the time lapse between messages.  chatting is a whole other story...

anywho, just a bit confused right now.  the unrealistic korean dramas and the very very unrealistic romance novels are of really no help to someone like me.

i know it when i like a friend. but i dont know how to read myself when it comes to non-just-friends. in korea, the whole big sibling- younger sibling thing makes it even more confusing....

this has got to be a major defect but i donno if there's even a cure...

Life

So, looking back at the last entry, now it brings a little smile to my face.  They say 'no pain, no gain' and I've realized it's so true.  Thankfully after many heartache filled months, things did finally work out.  Not the exact path I had planned, but I've reached a destination for now.  I'm going to med school~ Yay me!  And when I did find out I was a tiney bit bummed coz I felt like I didnt get much of a vacation between the good news and the start of school.  But guess what, life can sometimes be filled with rewards!  I've been given a semester off coz the classes I need to start with are in the fall!  

So, I'm currently in good ol' Jakarta on a real vacation.  Although this so called vacation has become somewhat busy with my tutoring schedule.  Currently my only day off is friday.  I'm even working weekends! But I can't complain.  The money I'm makin will definitely come in handy!

Ok, that's all the update for now.

you know what's annoying?

it's times when you know you should be doing something and defnitely not doing other things. BUT, as much as your ever so slightly more 'intelligent' side knows what you should be doing, the definite dumber side of you chooses to not do what you're supposed to do and do what you're not supposed to do.

for example, should be studying, and should not be having huge mid nite snack.  BUT cravings overrule and studying stops but eatng happens.  very intelligent...NOT!!

other things, you know you want to be something and you also know you need to work for it.  but at the same time, you just want the results without putting in the effort, but you think you deserve it anyway. BULLSHIT!  and as if just your clock has stopped, you keep thinking it's unfair how people who didnt want something as much as you do, already has what you want. AND YET, some of them dont even want it anymore!!  life is so unfair!

HELP PLZ!

Can anyone explain to me the difference between saying 'to my benefit' vs 'for my benefit'??

I can tell by instinct/gut feeling, etc when I should use which when I see it in a sentence, but I need to explain the difference to a kid I'm tutoring.

Please help~!!!