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最後一天 @ Legal Aid Commission

明天開始,

再無返工過份悠閒的故事聽;

再不能 5 pm sharp 放工.  

再沒有 gmail + hotmail access at work.

不過, 最捨不得的還是 colleagues.

雖然並非熟, 但深深感受到他們對我的好,

是和藹可親的一群, 很舒服。

畢竟確定是神賜給我的第一份 proper solicitor role @ dream place DPP

興奮  顫驚  ...  

求能有更多的勇氣面對挑戰 - 工作範圍, 人際關係...

數一數, 原來已經兩個月了:-

離開是為了回來? 

空閒的週末

起床的時候, 又是眼腫腫的 -  預料之內吧。

感謝神為我預備空閒的今天,

讓我有更多空間去安靜去思想,

實在是需要。

出外逛了逛, 吸了口新鮮空氣

心情好像好了點。

一向只會飲最喜愛的 Irish Nut Creme @ Gloria Jeans

今天對自己說, 何不作個新嘗試?

結果選擇了 Chai Latte,

第一啖已經想吐 ....

還是勉強不了。

再到 Coles 買遲了的午餐,

太懶惰, 所以選擇了 "ready to eat" tuna pasta.

得知香港好朋友被 電台邀請 interview,

很為她高興及驕傲.

其實十年前, 已認為你寫作有這 potential =)

歇一會 , 到了 body pump class.

流完一身汗, 心情再好些...

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Being 開始了,

在這邊廂 laptop 前流淚之際,

Advisors 們竟不約而同的在那邊廂主動關心我,

如此的 timing, 相信唯有神知到.

多謝你們, 我也很愛你們,

我不會give up的。

再更深明白這兩年神要我學的功課,

感謝神,

是祢的寬恕包容叫我可以有喜樂。

1 Kings 1- God's plan God's way...

Adonijah (4th son of David) put himself forward and said, "I will be king." (v5) and he went ahead planning and setting everything up for the path of his kingship.

It was a logical choice to succeed him as the king, being the 4th son of David (since the 3 older ones died). In fact, many others also expected that.

BUT God had other plans - it was God's will & plan for Soloman, rather, to be the king.

No matter how Adonijah planned his own way, conspired, conferred with others and hiding his plans from David and David's "ppl", his way did not succeed but God's did.

Thank God for showing me at this timing that Your way and plan may not be the logical or expected way in our  or  other ppl's sight. But You are the sovereign LORD. Your way is righteous, miraculous and the best. You have the highest wisdom.

This gave assurance to my direction in work, and shed some light to my serving direction. I will keep seeking Your way =) Increase my faith and grant me a submissive heart to walk in it. Open my eyes to see things in Your ways...

淚水湧流

淚水從未試過這樣的不斷湧流,

營刊告訴我, 應該長達有一小時多吧...

聖靈在工作... 心深處攪動 - 很激烈的...

有為我們這群憂傷, 有很重罪疚感, 有痛悔, 有自責

我不配 , 我不能 , 我不知 , 我不明...

但神深深的觸動我:

祢的信實, 祢的寬恕,  祢的憐憫

因祢的愛, 祢的話,

所以感動, 釋放...

祢與我同在。

當天的呼召, 是祢的揀選...

所以我有力再努力下去.

原來當我心情未能平服又亂又驚時,

最想找的是 terence.

當他行近站在我身傍時,

差點想抱著他放聲哭.

短短幾分鐘的同在 means so much;

給了我難以形容的安全感.

自己也十分意外.

回家後在琴前唱詩祈禱敬拜,

求繼續察驗我的心思意念 試煉我...

心很火熱: 不單是心裡, 而是 physical 的.

我會繼續尋求... ... ...

Roller-coaster & Drama...

Dramatic & unexpected happenings endlessly arising...

esp in my work direction.

having to make decisions in such a rushed limited time frame is rather crazy...

But God reminded me during prayers just then:

It doesnt matter... whichever way, whatever decision...

becoz what matters the most, what concerns You the most,

is My relationship with You; my reliance on You;

being able to experiencing this and walking with You tog is the most important in Your eyes.

all the rest is secondary.

O' Lord, I seek to dwell in Your presence,

for it is so sweet, rich and fulfilling.

"Be still and know that You are the Lord" and I find rest in Your hands securely.

thanks for the prayers. thanks for Your promise & presence.

Much peaceful and joyful =)