hey everyone.. i tried writing in here last night but my computer froze!!! but yeah well yesterday i stayed home from school which sucked! it didnt suck cuz i got to sleep in but it sucked cuz when im home alone i think about things 2 much! i thought lotz about me and Jarrett.... and i realized that i still really love him but then again i always will.. but i dont know if i wanna be with him anymore cause all he seems to do is play with my head and shit and im just sick of getting hurt by him? but yeah well i still wanna be friends with him but idk if i can do that right now? i still really fucking care about him alot tho and wanna be with him soooo bad but its just not going the right way? idk and i thought alot about Monk.. god i've been doing that lotz lately! i just really fuckin miss him sooo much and i want him here soooo bad but i've been praying for that since he went away and it just doesnt seem like its ever gonna be reality? god reality sucks fucking ass!!! god and theres something else wrong but i dont really want people knowing about it? the important people know about it!! but yeah well today fucking sucked!! bryce kept on fucking saying shit to me but thats alright now.. and yeah.. well im gonna go now cause theres like nothing to say??? love yah lotz!! **Monk i really miss you and i love you sooo much god why the fuck did you have to leave me?!**

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            *i thought i knew but i guess i just dont know anymore?*