i haven't felt much like updating . . life's been busy with school and lacrosse and everything . . and i still don't feel much like updating because there's nothing to say to update you on. but maybe if you actually read this . . i'll update soon. =]

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hmm . . it's been a while since i've updated, mainly cuz i've been freakin busy. on wednesday i left for ocean city for an SGA convention, and it was SOOOO much fun i loved it, there was this motivational speaker, and he was amazing. he was so funny, but he dfinitely proved a point about how we shouldn't judge others by appearance, we have to "connect the dots" to make things work. it was awesome. and it was nice just to be at the beach, it was relaxing, except for the fact that we had no free time, but it's all good.

so anywayyyy . . life is pretty good. school is decent, i have a lot of B's, and it sucks . . i have a C in french i think, but that's because ms. pavlik can't teach lol, we read novels and take tests on them, and after 3 months of not doing anything with verbs she expects us to ace the tests . . haha not happening with me, i need to go over things atleast twice a month to remember . . especially in another language. but oh well, i'll still be on honor roll and my GPA shouldn't change, cuz i'm evening everything out. so i'm pretty happy with that, and staying on the topic of school . . i'm so excited for april 24th. i have a college visit at Mount Saint Mary's and the campus is beautiful, and i'm really excited to see what it's all about. the only thing that sucks about it  . . iisss the fact that it's $30,000 a year . . buuuuut hopefully i can get a scholarship of some sort, i'm hoping. but that's just one choice, i'm also really interested in Wesley University, it's about $24,000 a year . . and once again hopefully i could get some kind of scholarship. i dunno, i'm praying for some. i sent out about 5 more feedbacks to some colleges this morning, it makes me happy lol . . i'm a nerd but oh well.

welll . . i'm done . .

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hmm . . sometimes i REALLY hate people who think they're cool . . i swear. people can be such assholes . . i HATE it

anyway . . school was decent, didn't do too much. we're singing this song in chorus, and we actually sounded good our first time through it entirely . . we've sung a little part of it before so we kind of knew it. and then we watched this video of a song we'll be singing, and the song is beautiful, i cna't wait to sing it. i just hope we don't screw it up, which we probably will . . but you never know. and speaking of chorus . . we have a one-song "concert" on sunday which we were just reminded about . . i know i didn't remember. hmm . . oh well. i have to go cuz i'm graded for it, not like i had anything better to do anyway. so thennn . . yeah, the rest of my day was good. during english, diana marshall was giving her term paper presentation and i was so close to crying. she did hers on columbine, and we watched a part of "Bowling for Columbine" which was actual footage from the schools security cameras . . and wow. it was crazy seeing all of those kids run for their lives, and it just made me think. some people in the world are so creul, and things they say really can make people feel like they should just kill everyone who has ever been mean to them. it's so sad because it's true . . and i know i'm not part of that crowd because i'm nice to everyone i think . . and if i'm not then i'm sorry, but i try to be. but even then . . i might have been mean to some people, and it just made me think, i'll definitely be thinking way harder before i speak.

thennn we had lacrosse practice . . and i came home from that and then drove around with timothy cuz he had his top off, cuz it was beautiful outside . . oh my. i loved it . . and we stopped at a few car places, and met up with matt . . then i came home to do homework. gay . . jackie came over and we did chem together . . except we couldn't figure out one question, hmm . . i'll ask about it tomorrow. lol . . but of course mr. morgan has to be difficult, the one thing he collects is the one thing i don't undertsand. eh . . oh well. and now i'm here . .

the rest of my weekend was good. my daddy's party went well . . he was really surprised, so that made me happy. lol and there was a stripper there . . and i'm glad i wasn't allowed to watch, because from the stoires, i probably would have thrown up . . ugh. gross, lol . . and i wonder sometimes why girls choose to get naked for a living, because to me . . that's not the way i wanna grow up to live my life. but hey, if it makes them happy . . then go for it.

hm . . SGA convention is this weekend, i'm kind of excited. we're just not gonna have any free time, and i'm so mad that i have to miss the OC. ugh . . it depresses me lol, i'm obsessed with that show. the only reason i'm really excited about this weekend, is because i'll be in ocean city . . so that makes me happy . . buuuuut like i already said, there will be no free time to go out and do something. i wanna buy tim something lol, i love spending money on him.

welll i feel like i've written enough, i don't feel like rambling anymore, sooo i'm done . .

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hmmm . . it's saturday yayy

anyway . . yesterday was a longggg day. i just wanted school to be done and over with . . then we had practice and it was so much fun. lol . . i love my team. thennn we got out of practice at 4:30 YESS!!! and then aysha and i made a guest appearance at the baseball game . . because we used to manage, and it was fun. so we stopped by there . . but we were losing pretty bad . . and then we left to go up and watch the lacrosse game. that was fun . . but it was SOOOOO cold, yikes. but the people i were sitting with make me laugh . . hait was good times. we were all trying to huddle together to keep warm, lol and i got to be in the middle of the beautiful aysha and the beautiful kristen. and ginny and roseanna were in front of us and they're sooo funny!! lol ah good times. then after the game . . i went home. and thennnn timothy picked me up and we went out to the olive garden with his friends. they're all really funny . . it was my first time meeting them. and i didn't feel "out" or anything being the youngest . . lol it was fun.

aWp . . tonight is my daddy's surprise birthday party << that's probably what he's gonna look like. lol . . those are my plans for the ngiht, today . . i dunno what i'm doing. maybe my ma and i will go shopping . . because if i go with her she'll buy me something lol, if not . . i have no money. i wanna get a new bathing suit. and some capris . . so yeah. who knows ??

okay i don't really have too much else to say . . so i'm done . .

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okay so now i feel like updating.

yesterday and today have been awesome . . i've been in such good moods!! i think it's because of the weather, it's so sunny and springy, and ughhhh it makes me so happy. i can't wait for spring to be in *full bloom* and then comes summer . . ha . . can't even stress how excited i am for that.

hmm . . and school is going good, not too stressful, but not easy. lol . . i love challenges . . call me weird, but i do. i love succeeding in them and feeling good about myself. ha . . i sound like a nerd. besides school, lacrosse is going well . . we did a 20 minute run today, lol . . it was fun. at first, we were kicking around a sprite bottle . . then we just took a tour. lol . . i love my princesses. and today i got my parking permit . . lol i'm #99 . . it's kind of far away . . oh well, i need the exercise . .

i think another reason why i'm in such a good mood lately is because i've been able to relax. like . . tonight i took a nice bath for the first time in MONTHS . . and i almost fell asleep. it's so nice to just be able to sit and relax . . and i've kind of been cleaning my room up slowly, we're gonna paint it soon. i think i wanna make it prink and green . . my two favorite colors

hmm . . oh yeah !! prom is another reason i'm in a good mood. i'm so excited i get to go this year . . and that i already have my dress. everything is wonderful !! lol. i don't think tim is too excited about having to wear pink again though . . oh well. he'll just have to deal with it

oy . . i'm done, i don't feel like talking anymore, i'm just rambling . .

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