• Undiagnosed

    I am worried i have an undiagnosed mental health condition. I go through periods of depression. This causes me to have periods where i have a problem with self harming. My body covered in red cuts and burns gives me the ultimate feeling of satisfaction, safety and well being. I become totaly disench…
  • Weight of the World (in progress) painting

    so i have been painting a bit more and its good and something that is needed. i am posting these pictures that i took with my iPad and i hope it'll work ok. i am using the Xanga application from iTunes, and it is ok. the thing i don't like about this app is that i can't access my other photos that…
  • Questioning the Foundation

    When me and my wife got together, there was something personal we both had in common. It was one of the reasons I felt so close to her. However,a few months afterwards, it turned out that the one thing that we had in common wasn't true. She would refer to the time as a time when she was 'confused' o…
  • Hello, motherfucker. Hi, how you durin?

    I can't believe I've let this go for so long. I guess I just focused on other things (both wordly and digital) that I've lost track of time. I'm only a year older and will be turning 20 in a little over a month,but, there is much to discuss. Organized lists as always, Xanga whores. I wonder how many…
  • Hello and F-A-T No Way

    Hello, I am new here When I joined here I noticed a lot of folk who had issues with their weight. I wish I could let you live my past for a moment then you would know weight and outward appearances do not mean diddley squat! I have beaten anorexia, I have mental health issues still as I have…
  • Sometimes the only inspiration…

    Sometimes the only inspiration is when I look at my art and when I look at others artwork. I don't see hope except in art, which is sad. I see some of my art as my unconscious is telling the world what I am REALLY thinking. Take a look at this painting... Confusion Around Mental Health - acryli…
  • So I'm struggling right now. M…

    So I'm struggling right now. Mostly it has to do with me eating too much... It feels that way anyways. I feel fat and gross but the only way I can quieten the demon in there is through food. G, why does there have to be food to exist on this planet??? It feels likei do nothing at all, but I do a lot…
  • Speaking through Art

    I want to curl up and not see another day, but I know deep down that doesn't satisfy the real issue of my depression. I have been posting, plus journalling, getting out in the community, reading, working at SCYAP, but I still don't feel that hunky-dory. If anyone every says that depression is nothin…
  • Sexray...NSFW

    This clip is not for those under the age of 18... -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- WOW! I guess the point of this clip is to address the insanity s…
  • Dirty Ditch of Depression

    The slope of depression is oh so tempting, but having my good supports and drs have helped so much. I am fighting the slope as well as I can right now. I keep reminding myself that I am not alone, but I sure feel like I am alone. My support from work has been huge, as it is the only thing that has g…