• spring cleaning.

    it's time for...spring cleaning! well, i guess it's more like summer now, since it's mid-may. anyway, i feel like i should "organize my thoughts" as i always say. today, i briefly looked back at my life...and i realized that whereas a few years ago...i was disappointed in myself because i felt like…
  • My belief

    "In my eyes, My hero is not of a person, but is my own belief. Cause of believe, I am willing to face the shortcomings of myself. Cause I believe, that I can." (Unknown) I want to share something which I try to apply in my life now, for the past two years. It is in my opinion only, and is what I be…
  • Reflections. A mask that hides nothing?

    Sometimes I listen to songs that are merely white noise, a distraction to entertain my mind as I work on routine and humdrum tasks that are important but dull. During such a time a few days ago I was broadsided by a song that stopped me in my tracks and had me contemplating it's relevancy to my life…
  • So Far Gone

    This past weekend I went back to Lubbock and it felt a lot better than I would've ever expected. It's so strange how much love I felt from the friends I left. I mean, I know they're my friends and all, but it felt as if it was a lifelong thing. Maybe I was just being a bitch, or maybe since it's the…
  • confessing

    Things are stalling. I thing that about sums it up. I'm treading water. Having trouble thinking of a good next step. Not hanging out with enough people, but not feeling like I'd be okay to hang out with people. I still see myself in the third person like a black hole, necessarily sucking the life an…
  • Self-Reflection: It's a Good Thing

    Very few people are capable of being honest with themselves; the ability to recognize something unpleasant about themselves and to own it as true. Over New Year's Eve, one of my best friends invited me to attend a party at a relative's house and spend the night. The following morning we were hangin…
  • {ShOp tHe hOusE} party style f…

    {ShOp tHe hOusE} party style fourth.edition {or alternative title choice - the party you won't be pinning} ha. When I asked Shayne last week what he wanted for his birthday, he said.. "for you not to spend any money!" now you have to understand two things to know why this is hard for me... o…
  • Reflection

    Jesus certainly created a very tight community among the disciples while we was still on Earth. And all the early churches were ... well ... churches - so they were in community. My impression is that it was a more intense community than I generally see around here. I have little doubt that it makes…
  • Shared memories

    Reflection This morning I came to think, "What memories did I make today or the last days, or the last week, or the past month, or year? With whom did I share it with?" Shared stories with people who play a significant role in our lives, one time or the other, make life and living more fulfilling. B…
  • {from a daughters heart} writ…

    {from a daughters heart} written sunday, april 15th, on my mom's 62nd birthday. dear mom. thinking of you on the day your life began. of all your life has meant. of all the life it has given. and so often. with thoughts of you, follow this thought.. simply. thank you. for allowing me to be me…