01003sarina says:i'm really kinda bummed, anxious, suicidal, not happy. well, not really suicidal - wrong word. try hopeless? same thing really. too many friends. they ask - i add. i still go to their site and learn abou...

So I woke up late again, and had breakfast at middary. My parents are under the impression that, just because I finished my drawing of Batman at midnight, I had twelve hours sleep. Erm no, Sherlock.In actual fact, I got ...

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[[one.]]  The mascara falls down my cheek             As I grip my pillow will all my strength             && I can't take it anymore...

This is not a contrafactual; not a would, but a did. I handled it terribly; I became angry, depressed, felt as if my entire world had fallen apart. I had naive and idealistic notions of love, notions that had far more ba...

Sometimes these days, I just have a bad mood swing and really need to talk to someone I know.  It's hard being away from everything like this.  But I just don't understand what's going on with Sai.  He's s...

I thought I was doing...better. And I suppose I was. I went three-four-some days, without purging, and amazingly didn't gain an ounce. (I just can't shake the preoccupation with my weight. 140-145 at my height isn't righ...

Garett and Cameron spent the majority of last week with my mom and me, hence my absence from Xanga. Was just too busy playing the boys' entertainment director to spend much time on the computer. In addition to a...

IT ALL MAKES SENSE NOW! I MUST HAVE MISSED THIS ARTICLE, WHICH WAS PUBLISHED BY REUTERS, BACK IN MARCH. FINALLY I KNOW WHY I HAVE UNCONTROLLABLE FITS OF CRYING WHEN SOMEONE MENTIONS THEY'LL BE VOTING FOR "HIM" (HE, WHOSE NAME SHOULD NOT BE MENTIONED)...

Back from San Diego.Nothing has changed.Depressed little girl in a sad little world.I'm starting to explore and think of my world through song lyrics. My current anthem?: Zero-Sum by Nine Inch Nails. Yeah, I'm really an ...