So, once my sister was here I lost all motivation to keep up with my walks.  This means I'm back to 192, BUT, it means I am at the same weight I started the summer...better than gaining!  Today I went (with Steve) and signed up for 24-hour fitness....

This is my new journal. It's not about my life as much as a food journal. I'm using this to get HEALTHY! My plan is simple, eat lots and lots of healthy food and try to stay away from the bad stuff. I realized that when ...

07-18-08Two (2) Lipton PureLeaf Sweetened Iced Tea - Cals: 240Barbecue Falvor Chicken Pizza - Cals: 680Total Caloric Intake: 920

you know what i just realized?everyone thinks i weigh less than i actually do.i don't remember what we were talking about, but i mentioned once recently that i had 50 pounds on kelsey (best friend, who maybe weighs 108 s...

We've been invited to dinner tonight, at the house where I broke down last week.  I suspect that I stir motherly instincts in the woman, who I'll call L (the one from Norway).  It breaks my heart that she's learned not to hug me....

I've started with the obssesive food thing again, and checking my weight obsessively. I don't really know where I'm going with this, what the end goal is. I eat healthy, all vegtables and fruit and oatmeal for low chol...

It's been a while, eh?Hmm..I was doing really good.. like really really good. Lost some weight.But..I think i've fucked it up.I've seriously eaten like a pig.. AHHHHH, i feel so guilty!And really disapointed in myself.I'...

So, my plans for the weekend were to go camping with a friend of mine.  Well, thanks to my agoraphobia, and Daddy's stupid little stunt during the divorce, I've developed a very strong attachment to my Mother.  I chickened out, I'm not going camping....

well... so the thing is that i ate yesterday, why!? cuz my father was out of the country and he came back and hetold my sister and me he wanted to see us, but we wereobviously going to a restaurant, so we went to a nicet...

07-17-08Shrimp Flavor Ramen - Cals: 380Hambuger Helper Potato Stroganoff - Cals: 460Green Beans - Cals: 31Chocolate Chip Cookie - Cals: 74Hot Tea w/ Milk & Sugar - Cals: 0 + 30 + 64 = 94Lipton PureLeaf Sweetened Iced...