Having scratchy throat, running nose, and possibly slight fever, I'm awake at 4:15 AM...I miss New York City, especially the subway.  I miss how the machines says "GO" everytime I swipe the card.

Nothing else.  Just "GO".

The last part of my Two Years Plan for Senior Review goes as follows: 

Other than my artistic practices, I’d also like to pursuit pleasure.  I will enjoy all substances in life such as food, wine, music, travel, and exercise.  Then, I will try to find the balance between devotion and pleasure as I continue to love and find new love.

Seriously, I need to stop having days when I completely indulge myself in fun followed by days when I only allow painting and working out.  Balance.  A Happy Balance is always a tricky thing.

I haven't updated my log for almost a year and almost forget how to.  It has been quite a year.  Many things have happened, and I don't think I want to list them out and be reminiscent.  Maybe someday I will be able to make arts about them or casually share them with my friends as jokes or anecdotes.  For now, I just want to keep my head up and move on.

Here are some quotes that I encountered lately and felt related to:

"The more we are aware of perfection the more we realize how very far away from us it is.  That is why art work is so very hard.  It is working through disappointments and growing recognition of failure to the point of defeat.  But still one wakes in the morning and there is the inspiration and one goes on...Being an artist is a very solitary business.  It is not artists that get together to do this or that.  Artists just go into their studios everyday and shut the door and remain there.  Usually when they come out they go to a park or somewhere where they will not meet anyone."- Agnes Martin, who put my feelings as an artist into words even though my fellow artists can't seem to agree.

"A really bad figurative painting is lik a finger in your eyes." - Chuck Close...Doesn't that apply to any really bad paintings?  (so I'm poking my own eyes? haha!)

"Behandelt die Fauen mit Nachsicht" - Goethe (Be lenient when handling womankind.)

"Sie Lachelte einmal.  Es tat fast weh." - Rilke.  (She smiled once.  It was almost painful.)

and hopefully, in the near future, I'll be able to say, "Nihil facimus sed id bene facimus."  (We do nothitng but we do it well.)

PEACE.  Happy New Year.  Happy New Semester.  Happy New Life.

I am 53% Asshole/Bitch.

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Like a long lonely stream

I keep runing towards a dream

Moving on, moving on

Like a branch on the tree

I keep reaching to be free

Moving on, Moving on

'Cause there's a place in the sun

Where there's hope for everyone

Where my poor restless heart's gotta run

There's a place in the sun

And before my life is done

Got to find me a place in the sun

Like an old dusty road

I get weary from the load

Like this tired troubled earth

I've been rolling since my birth

Moving on, moving on

There's a place in the sun

Where there's hope for everyone

Where my poor restless heart's gotta run

There's a place in the sun

And before my life is done

Got to find me a place in the sun

You know when times are bad

And you're feeling sad

I want you to always remember

Yes, there's a place in the sun

Where there's hope for everyone

Where my poor restless heart's gotta run

There's a place in the sun

Where there's hope for everyone

Where my poor restless heart's gotta run

There's a place in the sun

Where there's hope for everyone

..."A Place In The Sun" by Stevie Wonder...this song kept me through my exhausting days and doubtful times.