Currently Reading The Bell Jar By Sylvia PLath see related

In lue of looking for a card from my mother, I found a letter from my church in my school mailbox today.

As you all know, (well actually most people probably don't know haha) the General Synod of the United Church of Christ voted July 4, 2005 to approve a resolution called "Equal Marriage Rights for All People".....

I say, rock on UCC!!! It's about time we prove to people that even though our government feels it necessary to supress people, we as a congregation on whole will not put up with it!

My fellow Buckland, UCC'ers however feel differently.  Now true, they come from a village of like 100 people and are part of a completely different generation than me...but that doesn't make up for the level of dissatisfaction I have with them right now.  My church is voting soon to either 1.) continue in the UCC denomination but voice our opinions and work towards change or 2.) leave the UCC denomination. WHAT! Is it not our job as Christians to love one another and not to judge?  Is it not our job as a church to further our relationship with Christ...not to riducule the lives of those here on Earth with us. 

I'm awefully upset about this, and really do not know what I would do if we left the denomination.  Oh boy.

Currently Listening Michael Jackson: The Ultimate Collection By Michael Jackson see related

I love Dr. Collar - his class always leaves me thinking.  Today I came to two conclusions.

#1. No matter how much I love these people at college and no matter how close we become, they will never fully understand WHY I am me.  Yes, we will grow together for these four years and hopefully some beyond that as well...and they may know and love me- but it doesn't matter how many stories I tell of home, my experieinces growing up, best friends, etc.- they will never really get it. Where we come from. OUR HOMES. are a bigger part of us than we admit, and we will take that history with us for the rest of our lives.

 Take for instance when I tell people about Amber...a few of my friends here really get it and for that I cherish them, but other people are just like "neat, swell, that's good" NO it's not just neat or swell or good it is a life altering, moving experience that will never happen again.  How many of us just move through life without actually appreciating and paying attention to it?

#2. My parents have worked their asses off to give me a smooth, simple life.  Will I ever really have the gratitude that is due? I need to appreciate what they have provided me with a ton more. 

Another anecdote: This summer I taught pre-K and K for Bible School, and was talking with a girl in my class.  I had noticed that her and her two sisters looked far from being well off, but noticed that they had the tightest bond and always seemed so happy.  Well I said to her "Are you coming to the picnic before the program on Friday?" She responded, "I don't know.....how much does it cost?" Shocked that a four-year-old was concerned about money I replied, "Well it's free!" - and you should have seen her face light up. "Oh really, we can all come and eat then!?!?"  My heart ached for her.  I guess my point is that I need to realize how good I have it, and look oustide my sheltered views of what is around me. 

Currently Reading Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Sisterhood of Traveling Pants) By Ann Brashares see related

I have been neglecting my xanga these days, along with the rest of any social living outside of school work.  Surprisingly, I actually feel caught up right now!

So definitely the news of the century is that Amber got her double lung transplant. What a miralce.  There are no words that can explain the feelings I am feeling right now, but it is amazing.

Bree gets married next weekend and quite frankly I'm pretty pumped...it's gonna be SUCH a fun wedding. I love my family!

i.miss.you.

Heidelberg is finally on facebook...and I feel myeslf becomming addicted even as I sit writing this wonderful blog.

The folks met Joel n I in Findlay last night for din. It was quite enjoyable.  My daddy got a new truck and they failed to inform me of this until we were leaving the restuarant...that is two new cars in a row they haven't told me about.  Apparently when I am at school minor details like new vehicles slip their minds?  Also, my cousin Bree is getting married October 8th and I didn't even realize the wedding was like this year.  Oh boy am I behind the times!

Goin home this Friday! WOOO gonna check out the Wapak vs. St Mary's game which is always a good time. I'm actually super excited to go home.

LETTER IN YOUR MAILBOX

There’s a letter in your mailbox
Shred it up, throw it away
I might have said a bit much
I dropped a couple dead giveaways

Like you could never want somebody like I want you
I just said half the things that I wanted to
I could lose my calm, I could lose my cool
I could shout the truth
I care about you
You are not just a one night stand like I wish I could pretend you were

I kissed you with my eyes closed
Even then imagining your face
I denied saying anything
But really I was whispering your name

Cause you could never want somebody like I want you
I just said half the things that I wanted to
I could lose my calm, I could lose my cool
I could shout the truth
I care about you
You are not just a one night stand like I wish I could pretend you were

We could cut it off so clean, indifferent and friendly
But that’s not enough for me, so I am gambling our perfect ending
Could this be a new beginning? Do you feel like me?

Tell me do you want me, honey, like I want you?
Did you say half the things that you wanted to?
Would you lose your calm, go on lose your cool,
Go on shout the truth:
Do you care about me too?
You are not just a one night stand
You are not just a one night stand
You are not just a one night stand like I wish I could pretend you were

So tell me it meant something
I saw it in the glow of your face
And a touch so delicate
Anything but meaningless

Tell me do you want me, honey, like I want you?
Did you say half the things that you wanted to?
Would you lose your calm, go on lose your cool,
Go on shout the truth:
Do you care about me too?
You are not just a one night stand
You are not just a one night stand
You are not just a one night stand like I wish I could pretend you were.