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Name: Em
Country: United States
State: Please select...
Gender: Female
Interests: i like to write, and i used to like to read, but i like to dance, go shopping with my friends, and i love listening to music and i listen to all. i think that's bout it for now...
Expertise: ok, im a student, i don't have any expertise at all watsoever, i'm just a grl chilling my way along.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  skybling04
MSN: aznbabygrl247@hotmail.com
Member Since:
8/12/2004
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| re: giving upi want to die. i'm a failure in life and at everything. i've alway been a good student but my studies are horrible now. without my studies, i have no idea where my life is leading. i never had the luxury of life for anything, so i always focused my life on my studies. now i am a junior college and ready to drop out. if i drop out now, i have no idea where life is leading me then. i feel like a complete failure. i totally regret my major and regret my life. am i cursed or what?? | | |
| aaaghhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!alrite, i know i haven't been on in awhile but ive also been stresssed. way too much stuff going on. got six papers and two finals left to go. wrote one paper last nite but it got deleted on the computer so gotta write that one again. i fell yesterday, and my toe is killing mi but im cool and alive. and God bless Amirah, our beautiful friend that just died. that really hit mi down and just like hit the rocks. i can only say that now her beautiful voice will be singing out to God to hear everyday. just plain stressed about everything, way too much stuff going on....i just wanna break!!! aite, peace out~much luv em:) | | |
| hello, ok well ive been a bit tired and stressed bout school. besides that, ive been cool. just real busy, that's all. i almost used my facewash as my toothpaste last nite, but i caught myself in time. umm, just two papers and test this week. yeah, just. school really is a big pain, i haven't even been out much yet. actually none at all, but im always busy. i dunno, but watever. keeping myself busy and productive is what i like to be, just that it becomes a lil overwhelming at times. im cool tho, so how is everybody doing? i hope all of u guys is doing G-R-E-A-T! thanx for your time, peace | | |
| love, l-o-v-e.
a four letter word,
but does it mean more?
it love for real?
or is it just lust?
does love exist?
as he grabs me
with the shades
pulled down,
so close to him
i can feel his
hot air on me.
he squeezes my sides,
strokes my hair,
caresses my body.
his hands move
slowly up and down me.
he says, "i love you"
and that i am the only
girl on his mind.
he says he will always be there.
daylight comes,
we disperse.
i don't see him for a day
or two
then he comes at night again.
when i am in need
of someone,
i go to my other friends
for support
because he is never there,
invisible, gone from my life.
he vanishes.
i'm hurt from the bottom
of my heart.
i bite my lip,
i tell myself:
i'm not going to cry for this man.
anything but this.
he is not worth my tears.
he won't be.
i bring myself up,
i have my friends
who are there
for me.
i have a life,
i look ahead to brightness.
then he comes at night
and asks,
"how was your day?"
i tell him,
and he says sorry
once again.
i tell him,
i am sick of his sorries
but he doesn't get it.
i try everything,
but i think to myself
maybe i should just stop trying.
maybe love is not worth
my heart.
i am young,
i am in college,
i have a long life ahead
of me and a
bright future.
i tell myself to not
let love slide me down.
everytime though,
i find myself
slipping back into this hole
of love.
i give in
and take his sorry
for a next time.
i try to speak up,
i will
and i will say,
"no more is no more."
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| life hurts itself and only the people close to me can hurt me? is it possible that they're really not close to me and everything is just an illusion?? sometimes i feel like pointing at the sky and laughing and shouting at anger to let myself free, to unfold myself. i have stress from seven different angles as i try to look up and see above smiling, feeling free and happy. so easy to be said, but difficult to do. maybe i should just hold on and stop searching cuz it's not over... | | |
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