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Thursday, October 18, 2007

  • Wow. Today went more than amazing. I did even better than I had planned.

    3 light'n'fit yogurts -- 180 calories
    a few licks of a ringpop before throwing it out -- 10 cal?
    enough skim milk for two teas and two coffees -- 90 cal

    I didn't even hit the 300 calorie mark! I almost gave in while running on the treadmill to go and get some ice cream from the dining hall, but held strong. Then I had my focalin and all went well--got buzzed, focused, and totally not hungry. Splendid.

    So.. intake < 300, outtake = about 200... total damage = 100 calories!!!
    The scale in the gym said that I weight 110.4, but because of liquids in your system and what not I'd say I lost a pound overnight. Hopefully I'll keep the momentum up.

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

  • So today I finally started my plan.... although I didn't do the best of jobs.

    I had:

    1 light'n'fit yogurt -- 60 calories
    2 energy drinks -- 10 calories
    A sip of my dad's coffee and a bite of banana bread -- 15 calories
    An ahi-tuna salad -- 300 calories?
    WAY too much kashi go lean cereal -- 300 calories

    So yeah, the total comes out to about 700 calories. I worked out for 20 min per schedule though. It was just that darn cereal, otherwise I would have made it! Oh well, I didn't have any junk food and got some exercise in. I'll do better tomorrow. The scale in the gym says I weight 112. I better be down to 107 in a week.

    My dad visited me at school today and gave me some Focalin to try. It's kind of like Ritalin, but weaker. It felt nice, I was calm and focused. I guess that's what speed does to you, haha. He only gave me a few pills, though, so I gotta make 'em last until I can get a prescription filled.

    It was the most beautiful day today. The air was cool, the sun was shining, and the New Hampshire trees were simply glorious. People actually come here just to look at all the pretty leaves in the fall. They're call "leaf peepers." 'Nuff said.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

  • OK, so starting tomorrow I have a new plan... because I really need to get into shape for my boyfriend's visit.

    Here is le plan-->

    1) eat 400 calories a day or fewer. 400 calories is not so bad, considering I can have 4 light'n'fit yogurts (240 calories), an apple (90 calories), and an egg white or two.

    2) exercise every day. I like to do 20 minutes on the treadmill (-200 calories) and then some sit-ups and push-ups.

    3) get enough sleep! that way I'll get my work done and feel better in general.

    4) i'm going to try taking some ritalin or adderall to help me focus--but it also apparently makes you lose weight! so that's like hitting two birds with one stone!

    Because of my TERRIBLE eating the past three days (that's all I'm gonna say because it makes me sad to think about it), here are the stats and my goal:

    CW: 113
    GW after week 1: 107
    GW after week 2: 103
    GW after week 3: 98

    If I find that I don't hit my goal weight for the first week after actually following my plan, I'll adjust the caloric intake, maybe introduce a fast day or two. I'll chart my progress on here, so keep posted!


  • Oh God. I did it again.

    Tomorrow is a new day, I suppose.

Friday, October 12, 2007

  • Ugh. Today was the Worst. Day. Ever.

    It started out well, with a light'n'fit, a tab, a cup of coffee.

    And then I saw that brownie. And that was the beginning of "The Binge." I don't even want to enumerate all of the nasty things I ate, most of which I didn't purge out. I probably had about 3000 calories if not way more. I'm so afraid to step on the scale tomorrow morning. But I realized that the food really didn't make me feel good or anything. It just made me unhappy. So I guess that'll give me more incentive to stay on course. Every time I look at a cookie and think about how good it would be, I can think about how gross and annoyed I felt with myself this time.

    And I'm so behind on my work. Terrible.

    26 days until my boyfriend comes. 12lb to lose (but by morning it could be more like 15). So I should aim for losing a pound every two days. Should be a breeze, as long as I keep up the motivation.

    More to come later. Enjoy the thinspo!