Currently Listening Kid A By Radiohead see related

I really should be banned from watching any cheesy chick flicky movies.  It makes me miss terribly what I shouldn't and look at people in a light that I shouldn't!!  On a lighter note.... Yay for wedding weekends.  These next two weekends I have weddings to go to.  Luckily I will be with many, MANY friends but those kinds of things tend to leave me feeling slightly melancholy.  Unfortunate.  Pray that I make it out without making out. ;) 

That's something to be proud of too!  It's been, oh.... almost four months since the last time I kissed a man.  Don't think I don't want to because hell, if some man made advances towards me right now, I'd probably at least give him a little peck, for curiosity's sake.  I mean I am mildly curious as to whether or not I can still even kiss. 

Why won't certain people just disappear?  I worked really hard to forget and then... BOOP... in he pops again!!  Bastard.  Well, this time you're not getting to me buddy!  We're done.  You pushed my last button!!

Do you ever think, "I could marry them.... it would work itself out somehow!"?  Sometimes I think that and then I get really scared that that's what love and marriage really is.  There's all this bull out there about love at first sight and falling madly in love, but you know what I think it really comes down to?  Enjoying someone so much that you actually think you could spend your life with them.  Small things can mean so much.  Getting me coffee, telling me you enjoyed seeing me sing because you love how much fun I'm having.  I found it particularly difficult to listen to you talk about your crush when, a.) I know she has no feelings like that for you.  b.) You still haven't gotten over your ex.  c.) I will be very sad to lose you like I have others when there's another woman whom you deem far more important to spend time with.  It wouldn't work.  We'd kill each other.  Or would we?

Currently Listening Tonight Not Again/Live at Eagles Ballroom (CD & DVD) By Jason Mraz see related

Returning from Europe was so much harder than I thought it would be.  I feel like now all I'm doing is waiting for the "next big thing".  I hate that feeling!  In reality, you would think the next thing would be a real relationship.  I was thinking the other day that it's been almost 4 years since I have been in a committed relationship.  That seems a bit long.  I feel a lot like I'm wandering aimlessly through days.  I need purpose!  I want to go somewhere and know that's where I'm supposed to be.  This may sound silly, but I want to be able to walk into a coffee shop and feel that.  I've been playing a lot with the idea of moving back to the Leb.  I'm just so tired of duking it out up here.  I don't know.  Sorry there's not something more exciting to read.  If you have any ideas of what the hell I should do, please feel free to let me know!!

I love you and I'll share some Europe stories later! 

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I know my updates are sporadic at best, but ya know.... I do still update at least!

Only 10 days left and they can't go by fast enough.

A story for your reading enjoyment:

Ellen was in the kitchen at work which has floor to ceiling windows looking out to the walkway and atrium of the building.  Wearing her tuquiose blazer for a job interview and making coffe, she didn't really pay much mind to the young man walking outside of the kitchen doors on his cell phone peeking in the windows.  The next day wearing a normal work outfit, Ellen walks out of the bathroom to almost run into the young man from the the walkway.  A casual exvhange of hellos took place and Ellen began to walk away when she heard the young man say, "You are absolutely beautiful!  Do you have a boyfriend?  Can I give you my card?"  Ellen also accepted a part-time job (in addition to her already full-time job) making today an extremely successful day!!

Since I am not sure if I will get on here again before I head out....

MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY 2008!!!!

I love you all! 

Currently Listening We Were Here By Joshua Radin see related

Playing with fire.... that's what I do best!!  Which fire do I want to play with more? 

Only 19 days left until I leave for Europe!!  I honestly can't wait at all.... Barcelona, Poland, Germany... yeah, I hope you're all extremely jealous. ;)

Sorry this update isn't a whole lot more exciting, but I love you and miss you all!