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Friday, September 21, 2007

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 02:00:39 GMT

I just found out that a guy who went to hopkins with me and that went to church with me is on Beauty and the Geek.

http://www.cwtv.com/shows/beauty-and-the-geek-4/cast/tony

Go Tony!!

Friday, August 24, 2007

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 18:16:25 GMT

Check out this article about mother teresa, if you have time, read it, but read it to the end
http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,1655415-1,00.html

Mother Teresa had always been one of my greatest heroines, and this article gave me a new insight on just how much faith she had. And it's amazing how much she can keep on loving the people around her, and Jesus when she was plagued by neverending doubts and darkness. It's indeed true that God never lets us be tempted beyond what we can bear, and mother teresa stood the tests to the end. But moreover, becasue of her desire for Jesus and her desire to share in his "cup" allowed her to taste the suffering of Christ possibly more than anybody else => the darkness and loneliness when God turned His face from Him.
This just reminds me how selfish i am sometimes -that I love God only when I feel his presence, and many times I go to church and pray.. etc, so that I can feel close with God. But Mother Teresa, she served because she loved Jesus - even when she did not feel his presence and served to make Him happy regardless of the cost.

Sunday, July 01, 2007

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 22:27:42 GMT

I'll be in Bmore this coming weeknd. Comin in friday nite, lemme know if your wanna hang out sat. Current plan is just to do some ballen at the AC

Saturday, June 16, 2007

Sat, 16 Jun 2007 04:45:03 GMT

Taking my Step 1 boards on monday... Please pray for me!!!

Saturday, May 05, 2007

Sat, 05 May 2007 13:35:07 GMT

Hi peeps .... i haven't been updating not cuz i don't have time, cuz i have plenty of free time - but cuz my schedule is the same everyday..... class and study 9-7, dinner and hang out time with Hyon Ju 8-12 and the cycle restarts. It's a good cycle, but cycles annoy me now cuz i'm relearning biochem - kreb cycle, urea cycle...etc. Actually i'm so bad at biochem that i thought glycogenlysis was the same as gluconeogenesis. And these are things I should have learned in grade school =/

Significant things are
Me and Hyon Ju celebrated 6 month anniversary. (This is the only photo I have of us....the rest of the photos are on her computer, including the anniversary one)

Our class bball team loss by 7 in the semifinals of the playoffs. Our class came out for that and it was loud!.. The other team got rattled aftaer they were up 18 at half time - we cut it to 2, but couldn't close the deal =/

Evan called me more times this week than the past 2 years combined.. thanks to the mavs =(

I have a condom sitting on my desk that I dunno wat to do with.

My friend gave it to me for attending her bday party and I didn't want to throw it away - cuz I feel bad when I do stuff like that. So it's just sitting on my desk and every day it would stare at me and I would stare back. And then would squish it while wondering wat I should do with this thing. Do any of u guys need it?

Anyways..... I'll be going home to study for mah boards and be a hermit for a month. Pray for me cuz it's the most important exam of my life.

Things to look forward to...
My little stace is getting married!!!.. She's finally grown up and it's so hard... so hard to let her go...

Monday, January 15, 2007

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 03:36:06 GMT

Always wanted to do this but didn't get around to it...

Disney Princess Hotness Tournament: Vote on who's hotter..

Pre-season rankings
East                            West
1) Little Mermaid        1) Snow White
2) Jasmine                   2) Belle
3) Mulan                     3) Cinderella
4) Pocahontas               4) Aurora (Sleeping Beauty)

You'll decide who moves on to win the crown and a date with Prince Charming, Just email or comment with your picks for each match, and at the end of the week, the scores will be tallied.
For pics http://disney.go.com/princess/html/main_iframe.html

Eastern Conference Semifinals
Doubleheader on FOX
#4 Pocahontas at Little Mermaid
#3 Mulan at #2 Jasmine

Western Conference Semifinals
Doubleheader on CBS
#4 Aurora at #1 Snow White
#3 Cinderella at #2 Belle

Monday, November 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 16:32:34 GMT

Saw this from a friend's xanga entry.
It says Brody gave this speech to the graduating class of 05..That's us.. does nebody remember this?
something's off with teh formattin, so you have to highlight the essay to read it.

Doing Well By Doing Good
William R. Brody

Excerpted from a speech delivered by Mr. Brody to the graduating class of John Hopkins University on May 26, 2005.

There is a man who I'd like to tell you about. His name is Sandy Greenberg. In his youth, Sandy was a very good student, but he came from a poor family. And so he went to Columbia University on a scholarship and there he met his roommate who also was receiving financial aid.

Now while he was a sophomore at Columbia University, Sandy contracted an eye disease that eventually proved to be glaucoma. But the trouble was, it wasn't detected early enough, and as a result he became legally blind. I ask you all to imagine for a moment having been sighted all your life, and then all of a sudden being faced, in a very competitive school, with losing so much sight you could no longer read. This is what happened to Sandy Greenberg.

But something else happened to Sandy that may surprise you. Sandy said that when he lost his sight, his roommate would read his textbooks to him, every night.

So I'm going to put you in that position, in a competitive school like Columbia, or Johns Hopkins. If your roommate had a serious disability, would you take the time to read textbooks to him every night, knowing the more you spend time reading textbooks to your roommate, perhaps the less well you might do with your other activities? That's not as easy a question as it first appears.

But luckily for Sandy, his roommate did. And as a result, Sandy went on to graduate with honors. He got a Fulbright Scholarship, and he went off to study at Oxford. He was still quite poor, but he said he had managed to save about five hundred dollars as he went along.

His roommate, meanwhile, also went on to graduate school. One day, Sandy got a call from him at Oxford. And his former roommate said, "Sandy I'm really unhappy. I really don't like being in graduate school, and I don't want to do this."

So Sandy asked, "Well what do you want to do?"

And his roommate told him, "Sandy, I really love to sing. I have a high school friend who plays the guitar. And we would really like to try our hand in the music business. But we need to make a promo record, and in order to do that I need $500."

So Sandy Greenberg told me he took all his life savings and sent it to his roommate. He told me, "You know, what else could I do? He made my life; I needed to help make his life."

So, I hope you'll remember the power of doing well by doing good. Each of you, in your own lives, will be faced with challenges, with roadblocks, with problems that you didn't anticipate or expect. How you are able to deal with adversity will be influenced, to no small extent, by how you deal with others along the way. What you get will depend a lot on what you give. And that's the end of the story of doing well, by doing good.

Ah! I almost forgot. You probably are wanting to know who Sandy's roommate was. I think you've heard of him. Sandy's roommate was a fellow by the name of Art Garfunkel, and he teamed up with another musician by the name of Paul Simon. That $500 helped them cut a record that eventually became "The Sounds of Silence." Recently, we had the pleasure of going to Sandy's daughter's wedding, and it was Art Garfunkel who sang as Sandy walked his daughter down the aisle.

When you get to be my age (which, for some of you, is really old, (though it doesn't seem so old to me anymore), you will find yourself beginning to ask, did my life make a difference?

That's the day of personal reckoning. And I think the only way to face it is to consider, every day of your life: How can I do something for somebody else? How can I give back to others? It may be teaching, it may be becoming a doctor, you may be successful in business - no matter what your career path, there will always be the opportunity to give back. The chance will present itself to be giving of your time, giving of your money, but mostly, to be giving of yourselves, of your own heart and soul.

My hope today, as you commence to new beginnings, is you will always keep your eyes open for those opportunities to give and embrace them as your best sure way of doing well.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 18:16:53 GMT

It's been a while - med school def turns it up a notch for 2nd year, so things have been super hectic.

Things that have changed -
I quit wushu, cuz i felt i wasn't able to practice at the level I wanted to anymore
I changed churches, and am going to a church called Overseas Chinese Missions, and is gonna play on the worship team
Joined a local basketball league, Sinai has a a 2nd year team. We're 2-0 rite now, so good stuff

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And to finish off my heroes list
#1) Jesus Christ

As I look back at my life, I can really see how God has shaped my life as to bring me closer to him. Moreover as I look back in the darkest times of my life, I am amazed at how real Jesus Christ was during those times. Something that's fake would not be able to comfort me even if I had desperately wanted it to comfort me. During those times of pain, God would speak to me through verses and visions of promises in store for me. But wat's awestriking is when you really see it come to past, because I'm a person who doubts and questions everything - and often I wonder whether it was really God. But when I look back and compare the promises and the answers- I realize it would take much more faith to believe it wasn't God. As a result, I def believe that having a relationship with Christ enriches my life in every way, and has the ability to enrich every person's life in the same way.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 21:25:49 GMT

Edit: One of my friends is making a new video game. Check out the game here - it's pretty cool
www.harmotion.com

Video games are the way to go... Cuz i just realized that when you have a lot of free time and do nothing, you get really bored and you feel like your wasting your free time and it becomes very unenjoyable. And yet, if you do something productive - then it's tiring and stressful and u also feel like you're wasting your free time. But after playing video games, you just feel so good - cuz ur mentally and physically stimulated. It's actually more social also, then just stayin home and reading a book.

In fact there's people who hook up and get married over online RPG games. It's so romantic. Think about it in the world of fantasy you can have your wedding and honeymoon in dwarven ice caverns, or elvish gardens or on volcanoes looking out at the sunset. Also your husband (or wife) may have to fight through dozens of bandits and orcs just to get to your side, and you aren't just limited to a golden band or diamond ring for a wedding ring - but rings of magic powers and other magical gifts. I think that your imagination can take a romance to a whole new level and the love people can feel for each other at the video game level may be no less than people in real life. Take a wedding ring for example. It's the meaning of the ring that matters, so what then is the difference between a diamond ring that your husband gives u in real life from using money he worked for, and "the ring of the eleven lady gwenythel" that your husband spent a week fighting through wild beasts of the forest, bargaining with the guardians of the forests, then sneaking into the elvish castle solving mysteries and labrynths, and finally reaching lady gwenythel who then sends your husband to complete various impossible tasks before gaining the ring. In fact i think the latter is more difficult and requires much more of him than just him pulling out a wad of cash for your ring.

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Heroes
#2) Michael Chang

Michael Chang has a been a childhood hero of mine - mainly because first of all he's an athlete whom I admire, but more importantly, his steadfast witness for God. It's so difficult to remain faithful and humble in the midst of success - in fact i think it's harder to be close to God when you're famous and successful than when you're in trial. Yet Mike, regardless of what position he was in - whether winning or losing, he talked about God to whoever is around him - signing autographs, talking to the press.. etc. In fact they called him preacher man in the pro-tennis circles. In his autobiography, he mentioned still living with his parents when he won the French Open and beyond. it's this type of athletes that we need cuz imagine what kinda mountains can be moved if Christian athletes, movie stars, and celebrities were faithful and passionate for God.

Friday, August 25, 2006

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 18:22:46 GMT

I just finished my hematology/oncology elective - I must say I was very impressed with the two fellows I shadowed. As much as there are bad doctors out there, there are also amazing ones and I could see even from the brief 2 weeks I had with them that they truely cared about their patients. The 1st would apologize for every little thing and make sure every small thing the patient needed was taken care of, and the 2nd would get very frustrated about patients when they're non-compliant or mistook their medication. But I realized that the only reason she gets so worked up is because she really worries about their outcome.

So I decided to start wearing a cross on my white coat. I think God really put it in my heart at SMI, but he reinforced it the 1st day of my elective. I was in the room with a spanish only speaking patient and the doctor was talking to the patient via a translator. The patient became very worried about her condition and started crying, but she kept on saying that she had a strong faith in God. The doctor, as nice as he was - did not know wat to say to that, so he brushed it off - and then the spanish translator had to leave, so I couldn't talk to the patient either. This was when I really wish I had a cross on my coat, cuz at least the patient can see that there's a fellow Christian in the clinic who understood her faith. Admittingly I was really scared the 1st day I walked into clinic with it on, and wonderin what i should do if they told me to take it off. But everything was fine - I think the staff noticed it but didn't really care. Regardless of the outcome I think we need to be bold about our faith, and many times our fears are unfounded. Yet we have to still be prepared to sacrifice and even suffer for Christ

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Heroes
#3)

As I become more exposed to medicine, and people's sickness, my admiration for mother Teresa grew. I started to understand how much of Christ's heart you need to love the people she encountered. Because to my shame, I cannot look at such scarred and deformed patients or malformed children without being repulsed. And yet Mother Teresa sees Jesus Christ in them. I used to believe that I just need to see more graphic images so that I won't flinch when I see such patients, but i have since realized that it does not allow you to love them more, only get desensitized. My heart needs to be changed and I need to see the patients though God's eyes.

One testimony about Mother Teresa's order
This person was speaking about her meeting with a nun of Mother Teresa's order. This person was visiting a nun at an orphanage full of malformed and grotesquely formed children which people had left behind. The person was telling the nun, "you guys do so much - you guys will have such treasures in heaven." The nun then started protesting, "we don't want treasures, All we want is to see Jesus." Then she paused and said, "But then again we see him in each of the children here"