now that i actually have time ... i will update

the past few weeks have been hectic. teaching has been going well. i've been trying to balance teaching with my social life. its hard to say no to people just because you have stupid lesson plans to do or because you know you have a rough week coming up with meetings and such and you want to get ahead on your work. i hate that i'm so anal retentive about my work but i guess its a good thing that i'm organized and 'on the ball.'

this past saturday night i had one of the most craziest drinking nightsof my life lately i've been dd because of my stomach problems. so i would go out and have a few beers and that would be my night. but last sat night a bunch of us got together for a 'reunion' type night and of course i had to 'live it up and drink it down.' we took things to the extreme. i got so wasted that i actually got kicked out of the bar for causing too much attention ... lol. although i really don't remember them throwing me out i had to find out two days later that i got kicked out. oh well ... if you don't remember it never happened. but seriously such a crazy night i can't even begin to explain the shit that went down ... good times! 'no harm no foul'

last night i went to the flyers game. sat in row 1 ... very exciting. philly fans are crazy. one minute they are booing, the next cheering, then calling the refs a**holes, then cheering again! so funny. on sunday i'm going to the eagles game with a few of my friends. i know they suck but i'm excited to go talgating and drink at the game. i finally get to show off my green and white boa hat! its very festive for the game. so watch out! ... i love free tix

to just verify my last entry: i've been better about looking into the past and judging myself and others. its just hard because of all thats happened and how far i've come from it. i can't help but look back and re-evaluate my decisions and actions. i'm accepting it more and more because i can't change it. i can only make things better now. so that is something i will always be working on. thanks for the advice!

anyways thats all i can think about to fill you in on. my life is going well. things are working out just fine. i'm actually happy and content with my life right now

i need to stop looking in the past

only one problem ... i don't know how to let go

time for an update

okay since its been a while i'll go backwards and see how much i can remember.

yesterday i was at school from 7am til 10pm. there was the annual variety show that my school puts on so i decided to stay and see it. since i live pretty far i decided that it wasn't worth driving back and forth so i stayed and got some work done, went to dinner and did some shopping. of course my goal was to start my christmas shopping but winded up buying myself presents ... oops! then today i went to the king of prussia mall with my momma. i picked out a cute tiffany's bracelet that i absolutely love. of course since i'm a brat my mom got it for me and will give it to me for christmas. i also got some really cute clothes at new york and company. saved a lot of money with their sale and my coupons. then i bought my brother a christmas gift and part of my mom's. so there ... i wasn't stingy with my purchases today.

these past few weeks at school have been crazy. i'm definitely looking forward to my 4 day weekend. on wed night a bunch of us are going out to see mr. greengenes. i'm very excited for that then for thanksgiving i'm going to my g-mom's and friday we are all going out to a nice dinner to celebrate my parents 25th aniversary. then hopefully sat i will make plans with wes and then sunday i will meet up with caren and bret for lunch.

last weekend was crazy. amy, laura, stacy, bj, pistine and myself all went out in west chester. i tried to get amy, laura and stacy to talk and flirt with guys. its was funny to see them in action once they got drunk. we all had a good night despite the random guy throwing up in the west chester diner when we were all done eating. lol ... only this would happen to us. then sat i spent the day with wes. we went to the cheap movie theatre and saw the 40 year old virgin. sat evening ... def awesome! (a million bizzilion) then sat night i drove home to go out to old city with pistine. i was her wingman that night but i was glad i went out. i love hangin out with the guys we met up with. two of their friends had penthouses in philly so it was awesome to actually see the view of the entire city 18 stories high. i got offered flyers and eagles tickets from kevin. so i am definitely taking him up on that offer. i'm excited to keep trying new things.

other than that i guess nothing too exciting. i'm happy right now. so yeah!

okay, so i know everyone is entitled to their own opinion but it bugs me when people give their opinion with a bad attitude. i mean i know sometimes you can feel strongly about a certain topic, but when you're an adult you need to learn how to voice your opinion in a respectful manner.

so today we had an inservice day and we talked a lot about our math curriculum at the middle school and high school and the leveling of our students. i just felt as though we were all attacking each others opinions and not making any progress. i thought the point of the meeting was to come to an understanding of what the students are taught at the middle school in comparision to what they need to know by the time they get to high school. but i don't feel as though we accomplished that. the big argument was leveling students into different math classes and deciding on the math concepts that are important to know before a student enters high school. after leaving the meeting i felt frustrated because of course everyone is going to have their "perfect solution" to the problems and point out all of the negative things is someone elses "perfect solution."

all in all, it just annoyed me how a group of adults acted and couldn't compremise. i felt as though  the older teachers would always shut down the new teachers suggestions without even hearing them out all the way. i got the feeling that they felt as though their way was the best because they've experienced more and they know more because they've taught longer. ... well big deal!!! i think its always good to try something new. so what if it doesn't work . stop going around in circles and coming across the same problems year after year after year.

... UGHHHHH!!!!

i just had to get my frustrations out!!! sorry if you actually read all of this. this entry was really just for me to vent since not a lot of people actually understand what goes on during inservice days. as a students you just have off ... but as a teacher there is a lot more to it.

ughhhh!!! so this is now my sixth day being all sickly. it sucks big time. i have absolutely NO energy to do anything! for example, on friday i cleaned my room and washed the sheets on my bed to get rid of germs. well as soon as i was done i took a two hour nap. then yesterday i finally got out of the house and went into town for a walk since it was such a nice day. me and the sis picked out some cute body jewelry and got some ice cream. but as soon as i got home, again i took a two hour nap. what is wrong with me? i can't do anything without being extremely exhausted when i am done.

on the plus side i learned that my friends are the bestest. bj made me some homemade soup and brought it to me on thursday. a few of my guy friends called me and told me how much they missed me hanging out this weekend. they told me that it wasn't the same since i wasn't there to brighten up their night and do something crazy to make them laugh ...  then my girls had a movie night last night in hopes i could join them but unfortunatley i was too sick and exhausted that i just went to bed at 10 but it was still a nice gesture.

p.s. my new body jewelry is AMAZING