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| wow...its been almost over a yr since i wrote in here....so much has gone on in my life i dont know where to start and really i think it would go on for pages...sam and i are no longer together(my fault) and like always im in utter confussion about relationships...ive lied to myself about so many things i cant begin to know what i really want or what i should do for the better of other ppl...when one lies to himself for so long u begin to believe it and therefore forget what it was maybe u were trying to cover up in the first place...so for the advice ive had and the close friends, ill never begin to thank enough,i do thank u all...dont lose urself and forget who u really are...dont get caught up in the crowd and become who everyone wants u to become...make ur desions ur own ,no matter who or what stands in the way...always just let urself be happy because in the end its all that matters...trust is such a small word for something so big...use it wisely ,for if and when its turned on u, the pain that comes from it is more then any human could bare....i let my gaurd down and too many ppl in my heart at once and now i have to pay the consequences if i like it or not...so really just plan ahead in all it is u do...and especially:if a grl is a hoe from the begining -its so damn obvious shes gonna tear u down and break ur heart till u havent one left..so leave her in her little immature place...cuz ppl dont change unless they want to..so just get that thought out of ur head if u think u can force it or push it on them...another thing; always keep ur friends close and an enemy closer..friends will be there for u thick and thin no matter what stupid choices u make and how hard u kick..they will be there always having a shoulder to lend and an ear to listen...i love yall...more then ull ever know:) | | |
| hey..i just got done talking with corrine!she like really drunk so this is more a reminder to tease her about it later...ive slowly eased in the whole gothic look thing for my mom...today i wore black knee high army boots with black pants and a black shirt with studded belt!!hehe she didnt really care tho...has anyone read (go ask alice) its really good and sorta sucks u in...made me not wanna do heavy shit..i never did want to do heavy drugs but damn..i feel so sorry for her...im doin pretty good at guitar but i wouldnt mind having an AMP god dmnit...ahem**anyway sam might move down here at the end of july so all i can say is...YAY!!!!!!hehehe! now she can meet all the ppl ive been bragging to about her!I have mixed thoughts about things but im so happy ill get to be with her a lot more now..im downloading the new manson cd!!yay!hehe..yea and lera has a bf now and is all happy...my dad is making me get blonde high lights in tomorrow and i dont really want to..i think he just wants me too look better...thanks a lot...i just wanan tell the guy to go ahead and make it black and have red highlghts just to freak him out when im done!!!i need to take more pics of me tho...so yea i need a digi cam now..grr so much damn money..grrrr...i wouldnt mind if i had a job tho..damnit i need one of those too...ahhh this sucks..now im depressed...
 ..cuddles next to sam!mmm | | |
| hey..i have no idea what i wanna do today...im just wacting tv and it sucks more then ever..times like this i wish i had a car..i went out last night tho..it was great i had a ot of fun..but im still sad i wont be able to see my girly for who knows how long...miss her:(..cant believe they arent playing house of 1000 coupes in theaters anymore...too scarey for ppl they couldnt handle it..(whimps)..ive been wanting to do something to my hair for so long but like i have no clue what i want...i know im gonna dye it black then maybe cut it short..not like spikey short but like down to my shoulders...but like im all confussed!lol...i havent really been hanging out with my friends that much or talked to them but its cool because we havent really grown apart either...dying my hair black this summer wouldnt really make sence! sun would probally do something weird..like make it blue!!hmm not to bad!!this sucks im not anerexic..but im like starving because we never had food..like i didnt really eat anything last night..but the good part is im loseing weight.. just not were i want to...im not fat but still wanna lose some weight u know?...i have like this perfect dress i wanna get..random yes but ill take a pic when i get it!!!lol anyway i should go maybe i can beg my dad to take me somewhere!!...latar | | |
| hey muh ppl!!! aww i love yall!!!hehehe..anyway i havent been doing anything with life except shoppng!!i got some really cute capries from hot topic since i dont wear shorts now...i dont now why shorts dont make me happy if that makes any sence at all...but like i have no problem with my body i even wear bibkinis i dont have any problems with being naked either but shorts...i dunno they suck..lol...christina called me last night for like the first time in almost 2 weeks ,so in my hurt and anger i didnt really call her back...plus there is this new j lo movie comming out so that makes me even sadder...but on the bright side im going to music midtown..someone had an extra ticket so yay!!!i just hpe i dont see some stupid rap thing or sappy folk music!!that would be awesome if i could bring lera or catlin... i really miss sam tho:( she doesnt even know when shes gonna see me again..this sucks:( not only that but i lost my 3 fav toe rings last night...grrr..oh well..lol last night i did this weird make up show and took pics lol but it was so close to me i dont think they will come out too good...but i did all these differnt things like : gothic,business,raver,natural...
the gothic and raver were coolest but i liked the gothic the most because the way i did the lips...if i get the pics ill put them on here...but anyway im gonna go...byes!
~liz~ | | |
| sorry i havent written in a long time..i dont know but i havent really felt like doing it...i dont get to see sam until ocober since shes saving up to move down with me which is very sweet...but i noticed that i havent been talking to christina in awhile so i miss hanging out with her but her bf is awesome cuz he's always gettin movies real cheap for me!!!ohh i still want that movie.. long kiss goodnight...thats a really awsome movie...some reason i have a love for sniper guns..lol its weird!!!anyway im watching my wife in this movie!!!ellen!!mmmmmmmm!!!a lot of ppl say im really stupid but i do find her very attractive!!!http://facethejury.com/profile.asp?user_name=thaifoodsux
thats my girly by the way if no one has seen a pic of her!!!mmmm yummy!lol yea anyway i miss catlin..hangign out with her is really fun...and i dont get bored at all..plus i dont get the physical abuse like i do from christina!! anyway i wish i could be around her more...i promised id watch 8 mile with her....i saw corrine not too long ago it was cool...i missed her!!but i think i missed travis more!!!his big self and dreds..lol hes so funny!!!but anyway im about to go to bed so i wont have such a problem waking up~!!byes! | | |
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