well if any of you guys actually read this journal this is what i have to say........screw the past im so out of it i actually hate every single bit of my past...well not every single bit but a whole freaking lot of it....oh and i decided the other day i dont want to live for eternity then i decided no i just dont want to die and then go to eternity i just want everything to flow like i dont get it why does there have to be an afterlife or whatever you want to call it why cant we just die and stay dead i mean we wouldnt know we'd be dead....i dont know i got a lot to think about right now if you got any advice help me out please i'd appreciate it.

[-The Basics-]
-Name-Emily
-Nickname(s)-Lee
-DOB-1/16/89
-Hair Color-brown
-Eye Color-brown
-Height-5'4
-Weight-morbadly obesse jk

[-Favorites-]
-Singer-connor oberst
-Band-tilly and the wall, my hotel year, bright eyes, alkaline trio
-Show-the simpsons, that 70's show
-Channel-what the heck kinda question is that
-Candy-snikers
-Drink-cerry coke
-Clothing Brand-dont really care
-Store-dont care

[-This Or That-]
-Tv Or Movies-both
-Pop Or Rock-rock
-PC Or Laptop-pc
-Aim Or Yahoo-aim
-Black Or White-black
-Brunette Or Blonde-brunette
-Friends Or Family-friends
-Prep Or Punk-punk

[-Love Life-]
-Do You Have A Bf/Gf?-sadly no
-If So, How Long?-
-Crushing Or Loving-crushin
-Ever Been In A Relationship?-kinda
-Ever Had Your First Kiss?-yes
-If So, When?-while ago
-The 1st Person You Ever Had A Crush On-psht how do i remeber
-Your Dream Bf/Gf?-nice, loves me for me, has strong beliefs and wont let anyting change his mind

[-Friends-]
-Craziest-hmmmmmmm.
-Shyest-rachel
-Ditziest-sarah
-Funniest-all of them are funny
-Most Honest-jenn
-Weirdest-definatly carol
-Most Trustful-all of them are pretty truthful
-Known Longest-jenn
-Just Like You-jenn