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Name: Gina
Birthday: 12/3/1989
Interests: I love to watch movies, hanging out with my friends, dancing to music, reading books, making scrapbooks full of memories, collecting stuffed animals, and just having a lot of fun with the people i love the most....
Expertise: I love to help my friends, im not being lazy in school, making people feel like they are special (whenever i am able), making people laugh even though it makes me look like an idiot, and just being there for people who need help
Occupation: student
Industry: AOLG
Message: message meEmail: email me
MSN: nightangel_music13@hotmail.com
MSN: sweet_butterfly_fairy_1006@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  nightangel_music13@yahoo.com
Member Since:
6/12/2004
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| ** there are things that i wanna say, there are times when i wanna feel, there is pain when i wanna love, there is lost when i wanna find. there is no feeling in my heart and in my fingertips....there is not love in my life...well not anymore, i have ruined the most perfect love of the lifetime because i was too selfish to see what was right in front of me. i never knew that this kind of love existed and i just let it go without even having the chance to run after him. i walked away from something most people would forever hold on to, but im just a wasteful little bitch who doesnt know the good from the bad....he was so perfect to me, he treated me as if there is no one else in the world, he makes me to happy, he tries to make me laugh when i am sad, he knows every deep dark secret within me, i know that i cannot live without him. he means the world to me and i can never say that enough, i can never say i love you too much. it seems like everytime i say i love you, im pouring out my heart and leaving it open for hurt, i dont know what im going to do without him, i know that he loves me, but i think that he can find somebody better, someone who will treat him better than me, i know that im trying so hard to treat him right, but then he doesnt see it. he doesnt see that i wake up every morning thinking about him, that i wanna spend the rest of life with him, i wanna have his children and be the perfect family that i never had. i have always dreamed of having something, but then whenever i get it, i take it for granted.....i dont know how to appreciate what i have. i just love him so much that it hurts in my heart whenever i think that he is so far away. i want him to be with me always.........but now he too far to reach and i blame myself for everything, i blame myself for not thinking right, i blame myself for all the fights that we had, all the wrong that i did to him, all the pain that he felt......baby, im so sorry that i couldnt make you any happier, i will always love you no matter what happens.....this is my final good-bye! i love you....** | | |
| ** there are things that i wanna say, there are times when i wanna feel, there is pain when i wanna love, there is lost when i wanna find. there is no feeling in my heart and in my fingertips....there is not love in my life...well not anymore, i have ruined the most perfect love of the lifetime because i was too selfish to see what was right in front of me. i never knew that this kind of love existed and i just let it go without even having the chance to run after him. i walked away from something most people would forever hold on to, but im just a wasteful little bitch who doesnt know the good from the bad....he was so perfect to me, he treated me as if there is no one else in the world, he makes me to happy, he tries to make me laugh when i am sad, he knows every deep dark secret within me, i know that i cannot live without him. he means the world to me and i can never say that enough, i can never say i love you too much. it seems like everytime i say i love you, im pouring out my heart and leaving it open for hurt, i dont know what im going to do without him, i know that he loves me, but i think that he can find somebody better, someone who will treat him better than me, i know that im trying so hard to treat him right, but then he doesnt see it. he doesnt see that i wake up every morning thinking about him, that i wanna spend the rest of life with him, i wanna have his children and be the perfect family that i never had. i have always dreamed of having something, but then whenever i get it, i take it for granted.....i dont know how to appreciate what i have. i just love him so much that it hurts in my heart whenever i think that he is so far away. i want him to be with me always.........but now he too far to reach and i blame myself for everything, i blame myself for not thinking right, i blame myself for all the fights that we had, all the wrong that i did to him, all the pain that he felt......baby, im so sorry that i couldnt make you any happier, i will always love you no matter what happens.....this is my final good-bye! i love you....** | | |
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Here are jsut some picture that I forgot to load on my computer so here we go...
this is gina and alyssa on her surprise birthday party at jen's house
this is maria and gina in homeroom, just having fun
these are my best friends in the entire world: maria, lauren, and ram
this is gina and chrissy at the frosh frolic this year. it was really fun and there was like other things which now that i think about it makes me laugh really hard about.
lauren, eliza, and ram getting ready for christmas ball.
the final touch at christmas ball in okura hotel in tumon
okay so that is all the picture that i wanna show right now. thank you for your time! bye everyone! love you all! | | |
| man, it has been a long time since i have written in here. the reason why im writing in here was becasue i am heart broken. my boyfriend doesnt know how much hurt im carrying in my heart. i have no freaking idea where he is and im trying to call him on his home phone and both his cellphone, but no one is answering. i hate it when he does this to me and i have all these horrible images about something bad happening. right now, i dont think that he really cares about how im feeling because if he loved me then he wouldnt be hurting me like this right. i worry about him all the time because i keep thinking about him. i stayed home not only to get better, but because he asked me to and i thought we were going to spend the day talking to each other and spend the day with each other. but i guess i was wrong. i cant help crying everytime i think about him now. i feel so foolish before everytime someone called my house, but then it would be for my mom. now that i cry, my heart hurts everytime i let one tear slide down my face. i cant believe he would do this to me again. this has been the fourth time he has done this to me, and why wouldnt he? im not the perfect girlfriend. i guess he found someone better than me because he always seems to go out all the time. he says that he doesnt but i can feel it in my heart that something is wrong. i have no idea what to do. i cant bear to live without him and i cant bear to see my life without him in it. he makes me so happy and i havent been this happy since i had a whole family before. i never knew that there would be someone out there who would take care of me not just to get something in return, but because he loves me. or thats what i thought.....right now, i dont really know or make sense of what im saying because im not in the right state of mind. if i were like thins before i met my boyfriend, i would have done something desperate because i dont have anything to live for, but i have him and i dont want to make him disappointed. well, lets see whats going to happen later on. bye. | | |
| * this is going to be my last entry for my entire life....
ha ha ha, im just kidding, this is going to be my last entry of this year though. i know that i have had alot of sadness and joy, friends and enemies, and alot of people that i have loved, grown to love and other stuff. i just wanna thank all the people that have supported me throught everything, you know who you are. i just love you guys!
well, this is to my baby:
honey, i love you so much and i cant believe that i have loved you in so little time. so people cannot believe that we can be in love because of our situation, but its because they are jealous. i dont care about what they say or what they do, as long as we have each other, i have the stregnth to do anything and everything for you. i love you so much! call me later on okay? love you! bye!* | | |
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