> > >  1) Name: ryan
> > >  2) Middle Name: christopher
> > >  3) Last Name: miller
> > >  4) Were you named after anyone: no
> > >  5) Nick Names: ryan
> > >  6) B-day: sept. 19, 1984
> > >  7) astro sign: whatever sept.19 falls on
> > >  8) Age: 18
> > >  9) Sex: male
> > >  10) Height: 5 foot 8 or 9 inches (i grew) 
> > >  11) Color of Hair: dark brown 
> > >  12) Color of Eyes:  blue greenish
> > >  13) Shoe Size: 10.5
> > >  14) City/Town: sugarcreek
> > >  15) originally from:washington courthouse, oh
> > >  16) County: tuscarawas
> > >  17) School you go to: none
> > >  18) GPA:  i dont have one anymore
> > >  19) names of parents:  terry and lois
> > >  20) Siblings and ages: nate - 24 soon : dut - 21 soon
> > >  21) Pets: 2 dogs
> > >  -Relationships-
> > >  22) Do you have a crush: yes
> > >  23) If so what is his/her name: kaley
> > >  24) Do you have a bf/gf: yes
> > >  25) If so what is his/her name: kaley
> > >  26) Are you gay/lesbian: no
> > >  27) Who do you miss: friends that went astray
> > >  28) Who is the most attractive person you know: kay
> > >  -fashionable things-
> > >  29) What is your favorite place to shop: GAP for my finer things, and any cheap thrift store for my junky clothes.
> > >  30) Do you have any peircings: one in each ear
> > >  40) If so where: looks like im ahead of the game
> > >  41) If not, what do you want peirced:
> > >  42) Do you have a tattoo: nope
> > >  43) If so, where and of what:
> > >  44) If not, do you want one: perhaps
> > >  45) Where would it be and of what: i want it to mean something, it would most likely be on my arm.
> > >  -Favorites-
> > >  46) Color: dark blue/grey
> > >  47) Number: i dont have one
> > >  47) Alcoholic drink: none for me
> > >  48) Candy: recees cups
> > >  49) Food: italian
> > >  50) Ice Cream: chocolate peanut butter
> > >  51) Fast food Restaurant: wendys/taco bell/fazollis
> > >  52) Regular Restaurant:applebees/damons
> > >  53) Band: top 5*no order* lovedrug, pedro the lion, twothirtyeight, ben folds five, mewithoutyou
> > >  54) Song: killing me softly "fugees"
> > >  55)  love song: love love, such a beautiful thing
> > >  56) Breakup song: give me my money back "bf5"
> > >  57) solo Artist: ben folds or efficiency priority one
> > >  58) Movie: bottle rocket or fight club
> > >  59) Talk show host: conan obrien
> > >  60) TV Show: simpsons
> > >  61) Actor: owen wilson, robin williams, jim carey
> > >  62) Actress: jennifer anniston
> > >  63) Store: borders, sams club
> > >  64) Animal: dogs
> > >  65) Good Number: this is the same as question 47
> > >  66) Game: the game of life
> > >  67) Girl's Name: rebecca
> > >  69) Boy's Name:  mackenze
> > >  70) Subject in school: advanced composition
> > >  71) Car: 91 jetta is what i have, and it does me well
> > >  72) Place to go on vaction: beach or cornerstone
> > >  -Have you ever-
> > >  73) Kissed someone: yes
> > >  74) Made out with someone: yes
> > >  77) Had sex: no.
> > >  78) smoked: used to
> > >  79) Done Drugs: no
> > >  80) Drank: a few times
> > >  81) Got Drunk: a few times in my messed up youth
> > >  82) Bungee Jumped: no
> > >  83) Went Ski Diving: no
> > >  84) Went skiing: no
> > >  85) Broken the law: too many times, all stupid little things that dont matter anymore
> > >  86) Gave someone a bath: animals and my baby cousin once
> > >  87) Took a bath with someone else: my brothers when we were little boys
> > >  88) Ran from the cops: once
> > >  89) Stole something: im sure i have....dont remember though
> > >  90) had a wet dream: why would i answer that?
> > >  91) Made yourself throw up: no
> > >  92) layed by the toilet all night b/c you were
> > > sick: perhaps
> > >  93) gone skinny dipping: yes
> > >  94) Been in love: yes
> > >  95) Made yourself cry: ya....haha
> > >  96) Been out of the country: i wish
> > >  97) Been out of the state you live in:  yes
> > >  98) Burnt something on fire: yes
> > >  99) Lost something that meant the world to you: ?
> > >  100) Went swimming in the ocean: yes
> > >  101) Gone to Church: yes
> > >  102) Read the Bible: yes
> > >  103) Climbed a tree: yes
> > >  104) Watched a movie you hate: yes
> > >  105) Watched a show that is really stupid: havent we all?
> > >  106) Ate something even though it was gross: yeah.
> > >  107) Fell asleep while eating: probably when i was a baby
> > >  108) Fell asleep in the shower/bath: like every morning my senior year
> > >  109) Let a friend cry on your shoulder: yes
> > >  110) Made out in the movie theater: no
> > >  111) Got caught by your parents doing something you shouldn't have been doing: i cussed in front of my mom once when i was young.  i got soap in my mouth.
> > >  112) Been in a car accident: yes, it hurt
> > >  113) Flew on a plane: yes i did....i think 4 times or so
> > >  114) Had to dial 911: yes...for a prank in 8th grade, i got paid 8$ and never got caught.
> > >  115) Been to court: yes, for my car wreck
> > >  116) Fell asleep during a scary movie: yes.
> > >  117) Gone all night without sleeping: yes
> > >  118) known someone who has been murdered: no, but why would you ask that...just to bring up bad memories!  MORONS!
> > >  119) Been to camp: yes, just as a counselor though.
> > >  120) Been to a major league baseball game: yes
> > >  121) Ate fish: just the fish filets...not real fish, that is gross.
> > >  122) Sat in a restaurant without ordering
> > anything: im sure i have
> > >  123) Met a celebrity: so many....depending on what a celebrity is!

hey....everyone and their brother is doing this survey thing.  so i figure why not, right?  well, here it is:

WHAT COLOUR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?:blue (denim)
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: my mom talk to me on the phone
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: turkey cold cut
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: nice and sunny
HOW ARE YOU?: fine, thanks!
---Do you...---
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: on stupid fair rides.
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: dont we all
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: yes
LIKE TO DRIVE?: its all the same once you turn 17
TYPE WITH FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?: always
DRINK?: no
SMOKE?: no
WEAR CONTACTS?: no
HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?: 2
---Favorites---
RELATIVE: not sure
TV SHOW: i like to watch the simpsons if i am watching tv
SHAMPOO: whatever kind my mom buys.  but my favorite kind to smell on someone is the coconut
COMMERCIAL: who has a favorite commercial? (besides those stupid people that watch the entire super bowl just to see the new, expensive commercials!)
BOOK: the perks of being a wallflower
MAGAZINE: adbusters and spin
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: whatever is on my mind for that day
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: 's are not good
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: play a show.
BAND OR GROUP: top 5 in no order - lovedrug, mewithoutyou, twothirtyeight, ben folds five, pedro the lion
SINGER: starry dinamo (rip).  over the rhines singer.
MOVIE: bottle rocket or fight club
FOOD: anything that doesnt make me sick
SCHOOL: favorite school...that is a stupid question
CLOTHES: nice jeans from gap and a comfy shirt
BOY NAME: there are alot.  i like riley, bradley, and aaron alot.
GIRL NAME: rebecca
HANGOUT: dennys i guess
RESTAURANT: applebees or wendys
FEELING: favorite feeling? IDIOTS!
VACATION PLACE: cornerstone or a beach
MUSIC: the good stuff
STORE: any place that has what i need
DOG BREED: i will not answer this one
CAT BREED: i will not answer this one either
BIRD BREED:
FISH BREED:
DAY OF THE YEAR: july 7
MONTH: september
---Future---
IN FIVE YEARS: i wish i knew
TEN: "
MARRIAGE SEASON: summer
PLACE: not too sure
HONEYMOON: hawaii or bahamas
GOALS: to be free
---Have you...---
BROKEN THE LAW: yes.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: when i was younger i used to pack a suitcase all the time, but i just usually fell asleep instead of staying awake so i could sneak out.
EVER CHEATED ON A TEST: yes.
STAYED UP TILL FOUR ON THE PHONE: i think it was like 3:30ish...does that count?
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yes.
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: yes
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes.
USED YOU PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: yes
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yes i have
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: yes, like every morning
FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: no
FELL ASLEEP WHILE DRIVING: yes...it was scary, dont ever do it.
DRIVEN A CAR: yes.
EVER MET SOMEONE FAMOUS: quite a few.  but not famous famous like people magazine famous. just like, who i consider famous.
WANTED TO DIE: who hasnt?
BEEN ON A PLANE: yes.
WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: yes.
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yes, i was Casey in this one play about a train that the town was going to destroy, i was the hero kid and saved it when i defeated the mayor and his evil side kick.
CRIED IN PUBLIC: yes.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yes.
GONE TO CHURCH: yes.
READ THE BIBLE: yes
FISH: yes, but i hate it
SEEN SOMEONE DIE: im not sure...i saw someone wreck their car really bad once and tons of people thought the person was going to die...i wonder if they did?
---Love---
BOYFRIEND?: no
GIRLFRIEND?: yes
SEXUALITY?: straight
CHILDREN?: not yet
CURRENT CRUSH?: kaley
BEEN IN LOVE?: yes
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER?: unfortunately yes
BEEN OUT WITH SOMEONE?: yes.
TOO SHY?: ha..ya right, i wish i was shy, the shy guys always get the good girls!
BEEN HURT?: yes.
HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?: yes.
CHEATED ON SOMEONE?: no
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS?: haha...ya!  like, all those stupid vacation relationships when i was younger, but we werent "going out"
WHO DO YOU WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH?: right now kaley.....but the rest of my life is long ways off!
---Pets---
CURRENT PETS: molly and mo (2 dogs)
MOST UNUSAL PETS YOU'VE HAD: i had a fish...unusal for my house i suppose
BEST CURRENT PET: molly and mo
HAVE YOU EVER SHAVED YOUR CAT?: NO!
---Random---
WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: the drum stick from mwy drummer
WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU: go back to sleep
YOUR MOUSE PAD HAS ON IT: a baby drinking from a bottle.  because it was a free one from some formula thing because my mom worked at a doctors office.
WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?: road signs, drums, drum heads, pictures, coasters from chilis, band posters.
WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?: boxers
VEGETARIAN? VEGAN?: i like meat thank you!THINKING OF RIGHT NOW?: what jj is saying to me
WHAT DO YOU DO THAT REALLY PISSES OFF YOUR FRIENDS?: not to sure, i think they just dont like me, so i probably piss them off everytime i call to see if they want to do something.
DO YOU HAVE A JOB?: not just yet..soon i hope
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: blackstreet, fuggees, and abigale in my one in my room (me and te were in the mood for some rap) and in my car i was listening to the sounds of new amsterdams last night. 
AFTER SCHOOL/WORK YOU: get online
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?: a dark blue/greyish color
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: kaley, friends, abigale, music, staying up 22hours and laughing at everything
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: i need alot of new ones, like my thursday cd....where is it?  i dont know!  but i probably wont get that next....i just purchased the postal service cd....so that was next!
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: te, jake, joe, christian, matt, coby, kaley, liz, ashley, jj, madison east, nick, matt, luke, dan
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: play drums, listen to music, be with the people listed above, etc.
EATING DISORDERS: what about them?
PMS: so glad im not a part of it
MARILYN MANSON: ate my girlfriend?
GUY BANDS: are all dying...FINALLY!
SPICE GIRLS: really 'SPICED' up my life ?!?!?!? i dont know
PREMARITAL SEX: not gonna do it
TITANIC: sunk
JERRY SPRINGER: white trash
SUICIDE: a very sad thing that occurs.  POINTLESS.
SELF-MUTILATION: can be enjoyable, but it isnt good to do.
SOUTH PARK: isnt anyone old of the same stupid stuff?
DREAMS: an escape from every day!

now, if you read all this comment.  i know all that crap about xanga blah blah blah...i just wanted to do a survey thingy.  so i hope you enjoyed it, and until the next survey.....bye.

ryan

hey....

here is to my last post ever!  me and my friend Ted Reams were discussing and we decided that we want to be different *a struggle that sadly enough will never end* 

this is my last post, im hanging up the ole' xanga site for better things to come.  just the same way i hung up my chucky t's **or as you know them "all stars" "converse" or perhaps "those cool shoes everyone is wearing these days".** or the way i hung up going to denny's when i started seeing the people that thought it was kool to be in the "scene". 

to tell the truth...this is just me running away from everyone so i can by myself.  i dont care anymore....i dont care what people at my school think because i know that in 2 months...when i walk up and get my diploma...i will have 2 best friends graduating with me.  and these 2 best friends of mine are all i really have in all my years of high school with my fellow classmates. 

so, before i start seeing anymore people i dis-like making xanga sites, wearing all stars, listening to good music, or anything like that:  i now say goodbye! 

i will be checking in for my final comments.  if you really care about me and want to communicate with me, here is a list of ways:

shattertheantilog@hotmail.com
magooyoutoo = aim screen name
330.852.3193 = my house

godspeed ~ rcm

"the end is near...THANK GOD"

hey....

i decided tonight of all nights that i officially STRONGLY dislike people that interrupt your life and stab you in the back AND THEN have the guts to come back around when you are trying to move on with your life and you just want to be left alone!  o...that and the ever popular friends that talk crap about one person behind their back then talk crap behind your back with that very person.  DONT THINK I HAVENT NOTICED! 

i worked tonight.  i have only been working about 3 days now and it is nice.  tonight was a good night to work.  and i am finding it alot better to only post when i feel so inspired.  im not facing depression, but i dont just want to always  get on here and complain about stuff (like my parents, idiots, or my friends/ex-friends) *yes, i did above...but that has been on my mind forever*

i got an a freaking plus on my oral presentation over the book i never read more than 2 pages of.  talk about a good feeling.  A BETTER FEELING IS GETTING COMMENTS SO I KNOW SOMEBODY IS READING THIS STUPID THING!  MAKE ME FEEL LOVED, OR I WILL MAKE YOU FEEL UPSET TO YOUR STOMACH. 

i know this guy who is a bastard.  not only is he a bastard, he acknowledges himself as a bastard!  so in this case, when i call him a bastard does it make it a bad word?  and if so, why?  because he is truly one and he even says it!  ANSWER THAT ALL YOU PEOPLE AGAINST SWEAR WORDS AND SUCH!  haha

rcm

well.

im sorry i havent written for a while....been a busy boy.  been working on the studio with coby alot lately, it seems to be working good though.  was with futureman all day yesterday - after church we did some recording then went to their show in winfield!  i guess that was about it for sunday.  saturday i worked some, and did other things that wont really matter i suppose.  today i had school and i hate it!  but kaley is coming over soon so that will be about the best part of the day!

rcm