STRESSED

out like no other.
I'm having a guard sleepover on friday.
I have to clean the house,Get supplys and go to guard practice.
I'm so busy it's rediculous.
But i guess i kind of put it on myself.
But whatever.
I have to go clean and then practice.

Peace Bitches.

So i will be 16 in three days.
Life is getting better.
Kind of.
But i'm not excited about turning 16.
Well i am of course..
But I don't know the responibility thing jus isn't woorkin out.

Haha but whatev.
Hopefully i will be captian.
And hopefully i'll be on the Rifle line.

Yay.
I'mm old.

It's been forever since i've been on here.
So much has gone on in the last few months.
So many un-good things.
Me and blake broke up.
Then Kayla and brandon.
Then Keever and quinn.
You can only imagine..
I lost like 30 punds in 2 weeks.
Because all i did was cry and eat nothing.
STUPID.
Whatever.
I've got a new boy but he's
Not blake as much as i wish he was he's not.
And i'll never have blake back.
But it's nice to pretend...
Ehh..
I kill myself with thoughts.
















Please pray for neely.
He's dong very badly he's in the hospital.
Life support.

Unhappy.

So.

i know how blake feels.
he's got this friend.
they're really good friends.
and like they talk.
alot.
and she tells him everything will be okay.
he crys to to her.
she crys to him.
but he never talks to me.
her .
her.
i'm jealous.
behond belief.
i wanna cry.

Cry.

Jealousy.
i hate it.