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| Its the Little Things...I love my husband so much! Matt is such a wonderful man. I was sitting next to him while he played his guitar this evening and I was just reminded of all the little, wonderful things he does for me that I don't appreciate enough. Little things like putting away the leftovers without saying a word or me asking him to, serving me the last glass of wine when there isn't enough for both of us and when i'm busy studying, randomly telling me that he loves me or that I'm beautiful, singing my favorite songs to me while I'm studying, helping me out with lab prep. on Friday nights (thats not really a little thing, its HUGE, a lot of work and a lot of time!), staying by me while I study to keep me company, setting up the PS3 for me to play my game and destress...there are so many little things that he does for me and when i think about all the wonderful little things he does for me because he loves me, it just makes me all giddy inside! No matter how much I may struggle with satan's lies telling me that I'm not good enough, Matt won't stick around or I'm failing as a wife, I can tell by the way Matt speaks to me, treats me, and cares for me that I have no need to worry. | | |
| I Just Want to Cry!There is a girl I know, she is 16 and has a rough life. This girl, we'll call her "stuck girl", lives with a Dad who is abusive and visits a mom on the weekends who could care less what she does with her time. She was abused physically and sexually by her brother for three years and then FINALLY spoke up about a year ago. Her brother has yet to go to trial. Her Dad doesn't believe that it happened. He rather stick up for his son. Her mom wants "stuck girl" to live with her so that she is away from her brother but while she at her mom's, her mom pays no attention to her. Her mom is having an affair with a married man and "stuck girl" is sexually involved with the married man's son. She goes to a counselor who only tells her that shouldn't be with the married man's son. She goes to a group counseling group where they tell her not to be sexually active. No one is there to help her walk through what she has been through. No one is there to help her see how beautiful she truly is. No one is there to tell her that God loves her. No one is there to tell her that she is worth so much more. The married man's son who she is involved with is dating someone else. He keeps her on the side but she is ok with this because she feels as though this is all she is worth. This boy is 18...this boy hates the fact that his dad is with her mom because his dad is married but he is following in his dad's footsteps!
I met her while she was at the youth group Matt and I help out with. She told me her whole story the day I met her. She said that she could just tell that she could trust me. Through that conversation back in February, we have formed a bond. I love this girl. Although she professed to love Christ back in February, she has no idea who He is. I think she wants to know...she calls me every day to tell me about what is going on in her life now. She calls me knowing that I'm going to tell her that she is going the wrong way, doing the wrong thing, involved with the wrong people. She knows what i'm going to say, yet she calls and she listens. My words don't change what decisions she makes but for some reason it seems as if she WANTS to hear the truth about what she is doing. She is just so...stuck! She lives 1 1/2 hours away from me and I only get to see her once a week starting next Tuesday. I love her so much. I hurt for her so much. My biggest dream is for her to just come live with me. Come live in Cedarville where there is nothing for her to do but go to school and come home and spend time with someone who loves her and cares about her. one of my biggest fear is a phone call telling me that she is pregnant...
Please pray for this girl. pray for her every day! pray for her and pray for me. pray that God will continue to give me the words because I have none. pray that God will help me know what to say when we begin to meet on Tuesdays. pray that God will open her heart and her eyes. pray that God will miraculously change her Dad and he will learn how to love and respect his daughter. God can do it! He can fix all this! Pray that he does it soon... | | |
| I'm Gonna Graduate!!!Yup! Thats right! Thank you so much to all you wonderful friends and family who encouraged me and who had confidence in me and who prayed for me. I survived! It was rough, I'm not gonna lie. It was scary and the questions were really tough. There were about 40 people in the room and 5 or 6 of them were professors. I stumbled on words which disappointed me because I had practiced so much and I'm usually so good with speaking in front of people, but ya know, I really can't let myself linger on the things that I know I did wrong because I passed and I now can relax and just do my classes! Matt was so amazing today and the past couple months as I prepared for it. He baked cookies today and my friend Hana baked brownies. All I had to do today was make sure i was ready to present and go up there and do it. I'm so thankful! I stumbled on words, which totally surprised me because usually thats not a problem, but ya know, it happens and it doesn't mean I didn't know what I was talking about. It just means I was freaked out. I'm not sure i took a breath the whole time. Matt kept motioning for me to breathe and drink some water but I was so afraid of losing my train of thought. When practicing I never had to look at the slide that was up but for some reason, today, I had to look every time I changed the slide...again, oh well, I was nervous! I'm really tired so i'm going to finish my homework and get to bed...I am so thankful that I'm done and I'm so blessed to have such supportive friends and family! | | |
| Today is the Day...Well, this is it! At 3 o' clock today I will be presenting a seminar on the effect of B-catenin on the wnt signaling pathway in colon cancer...AHHHHHH!!! I'm so nervous even though I know I shouldn't be...I woke up to the wonderful sound of men on my roof fixing the shingles and any other day this wouldn't bother me in the least knowing that they are doing it for my benefit but today, well, today I was a little unhappy about it! Anyway, I need to go...i dunno...do something...get ready or something... | | |
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