turns out i did want to go to the mall, even though i had no cash at all on me. . .not even a penny.  Boy did i get a shock when i saw my schedule. . .well my feelings were of shock, relief, anger, and sadness. . .and this is why my username is tempestsoul! i didn't get English Enriched, but deep in my heart i knew i wouldn't i just kept on telling myself "i'll get it, i'll get it" but before i fell asleep last night, and after i had another fit over one of my dilapidated stories, i knew i wasn't going to get it.

i know freaking over nothing but oh well, its just that my mom always put in my head that i was some super human person, and that i was very smart because of my strange habits. . .felt i let her and myself down.  So depressing. . .little ol' me sad about one class. . .lets listen to the smallest violin of woe! 

woke up around 9 today, it was partly cause i was having a freaky dream about who knows what! I just know it wasn't pleasant. . .and the other reason is that my mom, dad, and sis were arguing about EGGS! i know very strange, but whatever.  I'm watching Xena right now, just dreading the coming of the class schedule. . .i don't think i can go anywhere after the orientation, and i don't really feel like going. . .lately i have been a homebody, i think its because of school.  I want to get all my lazy desires out so that when school comes i will be ready to go! Plus i don't have any money. . .

i started this book journal about yesterday. . .to write the stuff that i don't want other people to read, and to get my brain settled.  Lately i haven't been able to stay on one story to save my life! it's truly a shame really. . .plus i can't stand the fact that i can't write real emotion and feeling in my characters when i write, i always concentrate on the actions then when i read it to myself the character's personality and growth is a mystery to myself and probably the readers on Fictionpress.  Well enough of my writing fatalities, ya know what i have realized i'm writing very artsy all of the sudden with special words and stuff. . .

well i better go and get ready for the orientation, even though i'd rather watch another epi of Xena, which may i add got very corny over the years. . .i like heracles better!

i called this pic crazed for some reason, right now i think it's actually not very crazy. . .

Yay! my computer has stopped going crazy! anyhoo ever since found that the media player can find anime songs i have been messing with it constantly. . .i already of a list of all the songs i'm going to put on to my xanga, and it includes some jpop bands and stuff. So far i have changed the xanga song like three times today and decided to stop with Witch Hunter Robin's song half pain. . .before it was l'arc en ciel with ready steady go, then gundam seed with the ending song, and after that it was for a second my will from inuyasha.

well i'm at home again very lonely when everyone is at work or at school. . .well i'll probably type something else later today. . .

no worries i have solved the orientation problem. . .well i was home all day just walking around the apartment, very restless. i hate it when i turn get all restless, and its only when something is bothering me. . .oh well i am very happy and very sad to see the school days coming in, very confusing feeling.

sometimes i feel like slipping under my bed and hiding from everyone other times i feel like yelling for the school days to come and entertain me. . .*sigh* i feel very melancholy again. It's not very me if you ask me. . .

*sigh* he always lifts my spirits, now something new!

awwww, another one of my fav anime guys!