Sometimes it's painful when words have meaning,but not good meaning.But to me..it is more painful when words are empty,meaningless..left to make you sit there and think about the meaning when there is none.Sometimes I dont know what goes on in your head...I dont fucking want to.When the rest of the world can make you smile and I speak and make you silent..that hurts,weither you mean it to or not.When I walk away it's for play,but your not playing,and if you are it's a cruel game.Over and over.They say to give up and let it be.But it's not that easy..not with you and me.I cant breathe again,my chest hurts.I'm serious I cant breathe.But why waste my time on pain..I could die in 5 minutes..12 hours..6 days.I dont want the last thing I say to you..any of you be "I hate you" or just "goodbye"....one to simple the other a lie.I think I'm going to write letters to everyone..because I've been thinking about death a lot..I want to live and I need to be here.I have a purpose.But you never know..and like I said I dont want my last words to you to be "I hate you".Those words would mean nothing.