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| I seriously am the worst judge of people I have ever met. I wish I
could see through people like everyone else obviously does, but I guess
I just don't have that ability. I wish I did..then maybe I wouldn't
always feel screwed over by people all the time. It's really sad that
recently people are so mad at me for finally standing up for myself
instead of the usual of letting them walk all over me. I can't tell you
how many times people have to told me that I'm such a push over and to
stand up for myself and that I'm being walked all over. Funny that the
people that tell me this are usually the people
that are walking all over me the most. Funny that I stand up to people
and tell them my feelings and my opinions and then now they are mad at
me. Funny how there are a few people that I am not very close to
anymore because they are mad that I took a stand if I didn't think
something was right. Funny that I have opinions and feelings, and oh
how
funny it is that I feel that I should have the opportunity to express
them without being shot down or having someone pissed at me. What's
worse is that this is about the 3rd time in 2 months. I'm losing
friends because they don't want me to express myself and stand up for
myself? That's crap; it's total bullshit. No I'm sorry, I am NOT going
to apologize anymore for something I didn't do. I am NOT going back
down when people are being inconsiderate of me just so I don't
'start a fight'. No one else has to do that, so why should I? I just
wish
people would just realize for once that everyone has feelings and that
walking all over someone because you know you can, or because they are
nice to you and it's 'easy' is really not cool. I have been more than
willing to talk about each situation, but no one wants to talk about.
People just blow up right away and then if a conversation about it ever
comes up, I feel like the whole time I'm being yelled at and told what
I'm doing wrong. Well what about you guys? I can't tell you what you
are doing wrong because, big surprise!, that pisses you off. I'm so
sick of hearing how I'm such a horrible friend, or I'm so annoying,
etcetera, because for once I opened my mouth and said what I fucking had
to
say. Maybe I am a horrible friend and a horrible person; after hearing
it for so long you start to believe it, you know? But who knows, I guess
I'll find out right? I mean someone will tell me, why wouldn't they?
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| You better watch what you say
You better watch what you do to me
Don't get carried away
If you can do better than me
Go
Yeah, go
But remember
Good love is hard to find
You got lucky, babe
When I found you
You put a hand on my cheek
And then you turn your eyes away
If you don't feel complete
If I don't take you all the way
Then go
Yeah go
But remember
Good love is hard to find
You got lucky, babe
When I found you
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| Spring is almost here and it
makes me so happy! It's 70 today, and it will be almost 80 on
wednesday..I love it! It makes me even more excited for spring break. I
just wish I didn't have to earn a bunch of money and do a project
before then. It's kindof pissin' me off! Spring break is in 18 days and
then I'm going to be tanning on the beach. Hell yeah... I heard
this song today that I've known since I was little when my dad was
listening to 101 the fox, and I've always really liked the song, but
I've never really thought about the words until today. I decided that
one part of it really makes sense to me. It says: "love isn't always on
time". It seems to apply to so many people throughout their lifetimes.
Maybe you don't agree, but I like it and I think it applies! So I'm
going to go, but since I always seem to put up lyrics..I'll just do this song.
It's a keeper!
It's not in the way that you hold me,
It's not in the way you say you care,
It's not in the way that you've been treating my friends,
It's not in the way that you've stayed till the end,
It's not in the way that you look or the things that you say that you'll do
Hold the line, love isn't always on time, oh oh oh
Hold the line, love isn't always on time, oh oh oh
It's not in the words that you told me, girl
It's not in the way you say you're mine, ooh
It's not in the way that you came back to me,
It's not in the way that your love set me free,
It's not in the way that you look or the things that you say that you'll do
Hold the line, love isn't always on time..
"Hold the Line" by Toto
Have a good week, hope the weather is as nice for you as it is for me!
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| Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss it, you know
And I've been keeping all the letters that I wrote to home
Each one a line or two
"I'm fine and how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it's just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I'm lucky I know
But I wanna go home
I've got to go home
Let me go home
I'm just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I'm living someone else's life
It's like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I've had my run
Oh yeah, I'm done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I'll be home tonight
I'm coming back home
Oooh Michael Buble! Carolyn and I listened to this song a few times last night..I know she agrees with me!
5 weeks till I leave for SPRING BREAK!! I can't wait for the beach..it's definitely my favorite place to be.
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| Well today went well.. First day of
classes..or not. Whatever, I don't care cuz my birthday is in 2 days
and I can't wait! It feels surreal sometimes, but then other times it
doesn't feel like my birthday is close at all. yay! I have good
feelings, good feelings inside me.
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