Love and Death

Life happens for a rest. Everything that has happened to us happened because it was supposed to. Like you can't help who you fall in love with, you can't help what happens to you. You can't stop things from happening. You have to take things as they come. Yes, life isn't fair, but sometimes you have to take it and turn it into something that makes it worth your while. Death is a part of life, just like love and happiness. I don't know I guess ever since I lost my Pop-pop I've basically thought about what life is really about and I figured out you will never really understand it. God has a plan for us all, whether or not we know it yet. He also helps us get through things, like love and death. Personally I think those two things are the hardest things to deal with. Love might conquer all... but you have to conquer a lot to get it. Seriously, you have to put yourself up to rejection, hurt, pain, etc to fall in love or it's not worth it. Nothing is worth it if it's handed to you in a golden platter and in a way no one realizes that. You have to really think about it, is an "A" really worth it if you didn't study for it. It's like love you it's not worth it unless you'll do anything for it. I mean anything too.

You're not going to find the perfect one right off the bat either. You have to go through a lot of heartache, and break a few hearts to find the one for you. No matter who he or she is, you'll have to work to get it. I don't think many people get it. You have to make it happen. Falling in love is easy, it's getting it to the place where you want it to be that's hard. Seriously, just because one crush, crushes you doesn't mean you have to give up. Believe me I know about getting crushed, I also know what's it's like to have the crush like you back. It's the coolest thing in the world, but don't get lost in it. Believe me, unless you're honestly sure, you should keep you're options open. Just because he has a cute butt, doesn't mean he's the one for you. Don't be in a relationship, for the sake of being in one. It's not worth it or fair.

Death, though, death is something no one wants to experience. Especially if it is a love one. I am certain that if it wasn't for my faith in God or in heaven, I wouldn't be ok with my Pop-pop's death. He's in no pain, no pain whatsoever. That's crazy, considering all that he went through in his lifetime and now he's in this amazing place and he's watching us and still loving us. I think that's awesome. Yes, I miss beening able to talk to him and have him talk to me back, but I still talk to him in my prayers and stuff. Maybe that seems werid, but it's the only way I feel connected to him.

Well I guess that's my rant of the week.

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Caitie

Yeah I love it...

First off I love how Jacquie (spell?) and Stever congratulate me on breaking the codes... when the filters were down.... lol. Anywho.

You know what guys I am graduating this year. I am leaving Clearfield High School and coming back as a visitor, not as a student, well when I do come back. I am living up my senior year like hardcore. I am usually busy on the weekends with my friends or I'm just lovin' life at school. It's so werid... the only things that are bugging me about school is the fact that I need to get my applications out and that I woke up early today to take the SATs. Yeah... woot woot for that. NOT!

I'm loving it... the only thing keeping me down is the fact that high school relationships seem to bring everything down. Now, I do like this certain guy and there's a lot of drama around that... but other than that I'm not worried. I'm letting everything that happens between us happen, because you know what... who cares. Next year I'm going to look back and laugh. I'm going to be sitting in my dorm room at Erie (Gannon or Mercyhurst), Susquehanna, Mansfield, or maybe Point Park... and not even think about the high school drama. The relationships especially. WHO CARES?? I mean yes I do want to be in a decent relationship, with someone who I like and likes me back, but I'm not waiting for that to happen. I'm not going to let it judge how I am going to spend the rest of my year. Next year I'm going to meet so many amazing new people and who knows maybe my future husband... then again I may have already met him. Life happens for a reason, everything does and just because some guy doesn't like me doesn't mean my life has to end.

I learned a lot this summer about love and friendships. While I am more cautious when it comes to my heart and falling in love... I have let myself gain more friends and making old relationships stronger. I don't know what I'd do without you guys... I know I'd be a different person, everyone that I have met has changed me somehow. But seriously just because I have loved and lost, doesn't mean that I'm against it. I just feel that high school relationships are what you make them. I do hope this is read and commented on.

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Caitie

I'm at school...

and on xanga.

I'm sorry I haven't updated much. I've decided to only use this site for my random ranting and raving.

so to whoever reads this have fun.

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Caitie

Myspace

The 12th Man

Yet again we won the game.

Nothing much to say.

I have a mypspace.

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Caitie