silence

take, take til there's nothing
nothing to turn to
nothing when you get through
won't you break
scatter pieces of all i've been bowing to
all i've been running to
where are you?

where are you?

did you leave me unbreakable
leave me frozen?
i've never felt so cold
i thought you were silent
i thought you left me
for the wreckage and the waste
on the empty beach of faith
was it true?

yes i, i got a question
i got a question
where are you?

scream
deeper i wanna scream
i want you to hear me
i want you to find me
i, i want to believe
but all i pray is wrong
and all i claim is gone

well i, i got a question
i got a question
where are you?

where are you?

~Jars of Clay~

Defiantly resistant, pugnacious, rebellious, pissy pissy pissy, and grossly unsettled...

All this even after one A paper, two bald guys, and three nights of sunshine.

I haven't yet ascertained whether my life gets interesting right before I'm about to close one phase and start another, or if I make my life more interesting right before I know I'm going to go away and likely never see these people again.

I might be heading into troubled waters, but it sure feels alright at the moment...

I've gotten 5 hours of sleep in the last 36 hours.

I consumed 10 cups of coffee in the last 3 hours.

I still have to write 30 pages.

I want to quit.

paralyzed

paralyzed

paralyzed

paralyzed

paralyzed .........................................................