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Sunday, May 11, 2008

Sun, 11 May 2008 00:46:44 GMT

This is one of my favorite verses!

Proverbs 3:27 (New International Version)

Do not withhold good from those who deserve it,
when it is in your power to act.

Little by little, I start to realize what I can and can't do. He has always been there for us. He is in control. Don't worry. Breathe, breathe...His words are always timely encouragement.

(Haven't been on xanga for so long!)

Thursday, September 13, 2007

Thu, 13 Sep 2007 22:59:33 GMT

Recently, I got a chance to see patients in actual hospital setting, in an oncology outpatient service and also the ER, emergency room (Things are very different than in a television series - most people don't wear makeups and there's no hollywood stars). Moving fast in ER, observing how "bad news" is delivered with a meticulous plan, and finally reminding myself that I should work harder to understand the human's diseases, and also the sick person himself. "Hi, I am Terence, a medical student. I've got a few questions to ask you about your visit, may I sit down?" It's only in a few years, that I will be expected to say, "Hi, I am Dr. Sio, I will take good care of you." What would happen between these two points? A 3-step licensing exam, many night calls, and medical textbooks, watching Hong gradate from Harvey Mudd, and if God guides us, hopefully a marriage too. Sometimes, I am at loss of words when patients told me absolutely sad things, or when I see the weaken body of an 82-years-old gentleman inflicted by metastatic melanoma. A suicidal girl in the ward, who carried a medical history of post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) because she was raped by her own dad. A 33-yr old lady who's a ten-yr survivor of rectal cancer. An Africian American with diarrhea 10-15 times per day for 2 weeks and I worked out a solution of antibiotics side-effect and ran down the list of organisms with the fellow doctor. A first digital exam. Physical examination of a female chest that carried the merciless marks of breast cancers. At the Mortality and Morbidity conference, a 36-yo Chinese man who died of lung cancer and on the powerpoint slides, the cancer cells staring right back at me, into the deepest fear of my heart, laughing at my inferiority in fertile efforts of even imagining to assist anything. Above all, for every patient, in their own story, our Lord is in control. He comforts, and He's waiting and weeping for us to go back into His arms.

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 19:53:53 GMT

"Been driving around for 40 years..."

Sign found in Taiwan

If anyone is a 24 fan...

"杰克在第一季杀了10人，第二季30人，第三季14人，第四季44人，第五季38人。总共杀了136人。"

http://www.bauercount.com/

Monday, February 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 20:05:28 GMT

Happy new year! This year, what do I want to get done in His light and watching? What did I do last year that showed His mercy and blessing for me? (Weather is still very cold!)

Thanks to Danielle for hosting me this weekend, it's very nice to catch up with her and hopefully our schedules are permissible for more visits in this semester - traveling to NYC is surely more troublesome than going up to Boston, but we do believe that it's God's will to place Danielle at Columbia for a try to BrownMED's linkage program.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 20:05:25 GMT

Pray for strength (to combat laziness, inactivism, and apathy)!

Advocate for MY LORD.

Not a neurologist, not a neurologist...

Monday, January 22, 2007

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 18:49:26 GMT

The many years being at MIT have had a very detrimental effect on me: I am not motivated this month at all due to what's so-called the "IAP syndrome"! Started school for about 2 weeks already, my brain is just not accepting the many new "brain" terms from head & neck anatomy. I seriously think that I tricked myself into thinking that it's still the IAP time...when I was doing like externship, MLK class, etc, i.e. brainless stuff, until now...not to mention the cold weather around - the envrionment is so not motivating.

I should constantly remind myself how much money I am borrowing to go through what I am going through now...ergh...well, Final Exam for this block is only 4 days away...T_T

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Tue, 05 Dec 2006 17:24:02 GMT

Ohhhh....sometimes I do miss MIT a lot .... =(

Thursday, November 30, 2006

Thu, 30 Nov 2006 01:13:50 GMT

Phew...this has been a long, long day...

6:30am: wake up, start memorizing cascades and pathways re: cell injury and blood clotting factors.

9 am - 12 noon: exam, general pathology + immunology, it's not too hard but still...I think I made a bunch of mistakes.

12 -3 pm: lunch, LAUNDRY (long due...), and then start pathology reading (again!?)

3pm - 6pm: practice OSCE: do patient interview and physical exam, received good suggestions from mentors to improve

6pm - 8pm: dinner with Dean Adashi, talk to him about the China-AIDS project

8pm - 1am: in the mall, hopped a few trailers, and see Casino Royale (very good, two thumbs up!)

1:10 am now...need to finish pathology reading, then get up by 9am so I can make it to a new series of path lectures...aiyaaaa....

Something I learned today: I talked to a classmate of mine who's been quiet and perhaps misjudged even by me. I learned something different about him and I find myself with jealousy that I need to control with force, esp. about his solid academic performance - then I realize, I am special in my own ways too, esp. in God's eyes - I have some visions about future re: oncology, but if it's not Him guiding me, the process isn't joyful, and I will get lost very easily - because I tend to get lost very easily when surrounded by a lot of smart people...

Friday, November 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 02:36:22 GMT

(Nov 3) "ON CALL" - well...it's kind of like my first night being "on call" at Brown...because I was in the clinic in the afternoon, then took a long nap, then study (most of the night, may need to nap), and then 6:45am will have a morning round with the CARE program...9am is lecture until noon, then I have reflection panel (CARE), then more anatomy in the afternoon (hip and knee joints)..."sleep while you can, eat while you can..." 5-6 more days before Histology and Anatomy block finals...aiya...

Patients encounters...lovin' it! When I have more time, I hope to write down some stories here. IM-Onc/Hemo?

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(Nov 12) Just got back from a fairly fast-paced and non-academically productive weekend - but I guess it's fine because the Anatomy/Histology blocks are just over (Praise the Lord! He gave me patience and endurance to survive with good "muscles and nerves"). Friday night fellowship is spirit lifting because I haven't been able to speak boldly for Christ for a long time: then my prayers are answered as I chatted with a friend yesterday in detail about Christian faith. Yesterday I was at the Neurology conference/meeting and got a lot of free stuff from pharma. reps...Roselyn reminded me to be careful about their commerical methods though...then I was with Lily in the Rhode Island Hospital's Emergency Department and saw procedures such as placing a gastric tube. Meanwhile, need to pray about if I should serve medically abroad for this coming summer in China (there's an infectious disease project). Saturday night and Sunday are spent in Boston and go back to my Boston home church for the first time since semester started. I was excited to see familiar faces again. Thanks!

Alright, another week starts, and I need to keep paddling until Thanksgiving (need to pray for strength)...our Pathology lab is led by Dr. Sung, who's the deacon for my Rhode Island's church . Danielle is having two exams this week so she can get stressful too...it's blessing that I can see her quite often this semester.

T SIO SIO SIO - Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you. -Psalm 63:3

Monday, October 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Oct 2006 16:15:57 GMT

Thanks to Danielle and Diana for coming down to Providence :)

- class of 2010 White Coat Ceremony