Here i thought you guys might want a new pic :)
from left to right: Kat, Tasha and MEEEE
This was taken the night i got my dumb ass grounded and if you look at what im drinking you will see why lol

I couldnt sleep. its about 4:23 a.m.... so i was reading through all my past entries and found this..

Tuesday, April 9th
Josh Bornstein... Your my homie forever. everytime i have a problem i know that i can count on you to help me out. We have both been through most of the same shit even growing up. You put other people before yourself and treat people with respect even if they dont really deserve it. your like a brother to me and I hope we stay close for a very long time. I'll always be there for you no matter what the case is.

its so weird reading all the past entries and seeing his name in them. idk im sorry for putting that but i cant get over this. me adn Tasha had a long conversation about it last night and me and Chayse kinda did too.  idk this shit just seems like its getting harder and harder everyday.

Dad wants to have the house ready to be put up for sale by mid-july. he wants to move us all down to lake travis.. just outside of Austin Texas. He has already found a house.
I might not be up-dating for a while. I leave for texas on the 2nd and wont be back till the 9th :(.

Fuck man and on top of all this shit im grounded for having a littl TOO MUCH fun. oops i guess never drink and put someone else's shorts on. people (especally angry fathers) assume alot of shit haha o well. thats life i guess. If u wanna hang out before i leave then u have to come over and see me. i can have people over at my house i just cant leave.

Yeah... Im back at the stage i was at a month ago... FUCK

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go (alone)

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Incomplete

AWE YAY! Life is good right now.. well as good as it can be lol. I dont think anyone could top my weekend! Thursday night, me and Sarah hung out with chayse and Tasha and Nicole over at Blakes. The only bad thing about that night was me and Sarah ahd to go home and i almost fell off of blakes roof and 'body builder' Brock had to catch me ha! Then friday night i hung out with Drew and all them and almost fought Sara Sofre (different Sarah lol) but she is a puss and wouldnt leave drews until drew took her home. (i couldnt fight her at drews outta respect for the house) But o well another day i guess. then saturday i stayed at my sisters that was fun then sunday i went over to steve's. Damn im fuckin busy in my spare time huh?

The smallest things have been making me happy lately for some reason.. Like for instance my Dad took me out to lunch and i felt like i was happier than i have been in a long time jsut chillen with my dad. And the fact that Kat and Andrew come over everyday kinda helps me feel a lil more loved. Idk i know i have friends, not many but i dont need a million people to know my name to make me feel like someone is happy with me.

I learned something today. It kinda made me look at ym own life and how i am and treat people. What i learned was something that Sara said to someone about a friend.. "Never try and make peoples life hell, you dont know what they have been through" and i also have something to put to that "Never judge someone because come on you never know what they are thinking of you."
I know that i have alot more growing up to do, alot of my friends say that i need to stop trying to grow up since i had to do it so fast at such a young age but o well you have to do what you have to do i guess. I personally think i have gotten pretty childish for my age. Some may not agree, some may agree. o well either way haha.

Well anyways thats a lil bit of a deeeep subject to carry on and there are alot of opinions to be said about it, im sure, but anyways.. when me and Dad went to lunch we went to Arby's and i was talking about how Econo-lube caught fire and how Scotty was up-set and we drove by it and my dad just kinda looked at me like someone slashed his tires, but it was kinda fun when we were trying to come up with a reason why it caught fire. My theory is that someone flicked a ciggarette butt and it rolled into the oil pitt. but o well who knows i guess.