DISCLAIMER: I do not advocate eating disorders, nor do I try to 'convert' anybody to an eating disordered person's lifestyle. In fact, I think an eating disorder is the most disgusting, terrible fate anybody could hope to suffer from. I do not teach people how to get one. I do not leave comments criticizing a person's intake. This site is merely a database of information I have kept. Nobody is making any of these girls who appreicate the site read this. Do them a favor and leave them alone.

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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

There are people who attempt to meddle. They are worried about us. They love us, and they care. We appreciate it, too. However, recovery is a hard and very long process. We are just not ready for it. Reaching a lower BMI/weight for your height is exciting and also risky. Things must be done in order to ease the doubt in the minds of many. Friends, family, the significant other. Whomever. We understand that this is wrong. But we are just not ready. A few ways to keep the suspicion away:

1) Layering clothes. This is somewhat obvious. However, do it conspiciously. Buy tanktops or  undershirts that won't peak through. Not only that, wear tights or capris under the pants. It will keep you warm, which is usually a problem at a low weight anyway.

2) Don't buy clothes that are too big of they will only define your thinness. Wearing baggy pants and a huge sweatshirt will only make you appear as if you are swimming in them. No good.

3) When being weighed (Clothing alterations):

a) If they don't make you change clothes: Wear belts. Carry a vast amount of change. Slip a weight in the underwear, and your bra if you wear one. (That wording sounded off, but I know there are male anorexics, too. Don't want you all to feel left out.) Wear thick bangles. Put a sweatshirt over the bangles so it doesn't look as if you're trying to seem heavier. Put things in your shoes. Rocks, pebbles, who ares, as long as its weighty. Every ounce counts.

 b) If they do make you change into a hospital dress, slip a weight in your underwear. Tie your hair into a pony-tail and try to slide a weight there. If you do this, shake your head around to see if it'll fall out. Make sure not to make any sudden movements when you're in public if you choose to do this.

4) Unfortunately it's harder when one has to take their clothes off and put on the hospital gown. Thankfully, there are things you can do beforehand:

a) Salt pills. Take them. They will make you gain weight -- but it is purely water weight.

b) Drink soda. Drink as much as possible. If you're going to drink soda, make sure not to drink water, water will kill the effect.

c) Drink water. If soda isn't available, drink a shitload of water. Do not pee, obviously.

d) Do not eat for a day before, if you know you are being weighed. Before your appointment, eat at least 500 calories. Heavy foods, a 500 calorie salad isn't going to show any effect on the scale. An omelette or a sandwich or a cheeseburger will. Because of the lack of food, and then sudden intake of food, the scale reports a higher weight because the body does not know how to process all that food. Don't worry, the weight will ease off, it's only temporary.

e)When you are being weighed, breathe in a heavy dose of oxygen. It does add weight, it's been tried and tested.

f) React strongly. "WHAT!? I didn't know I weighed this little! That's sick! Oh my god.. That's so gross.. I guess I've just been so stressed.. Ew, I weigh less than a kid.. Whatever, man. I better hit a Mickey D's." Stress it. Yeah, the stuff in quotations sounds pretty ridiculous, but you know what is meant. Regard skinniness as repulsive, go as far as to say that you'd like some weight gain shakes or whatever. Embrace their plan. It was also help in the fact that your parent or whoever took you there will be a little lenient, allowing you to have the shake at your own time, as long as you have it daily. Show her or him the empty can. Dump it out into the toilet. Hold any pill under your tongue. Spit it out when you are out of sight. Pretend to put it in your mouth, drop your hand, put the pill in your pocket, or just toss it somewhere. Pills are small and I doubt they're combing the ground for tablets, anyway.

g) Throw a fit. "I am so stressed! I can't handle this! Don't you trust me? Don't you believe in me? I know I can do this. Stop forcing me, it takes time! This is so emotionally trying! You guys have to lay off!" That will usually buy you a few days.

h) Tell them you'll keep a notebook of what you eat. Lie, lie, lie. Explain that maybe you just have a fast metabolism, you don't like being too skinny, but you'll just have to deal. How sad.

5) Color plays a large part in how slim or big you look. Pastels will make you look slightly bigger. Darker colors will make you look thinner.

6) When you go out grocery shopping with them, buy fattening food. Lick your lips and clap your hands. Whenever they're away and you have time, go back to the supermarket, and return the items for lower calorie foods/some extra change/magazines/whatever. If they ask where it went, well.. Explain you got hungry and ate it with friends, your sibling, whomever. And then, you decided to take the garbage out.

7) Do the same when clothes shopping. Buy a bigger size to make them feel as if it isn't quite severe. Explain they must be warped, you ARE a normal weight, you ARE normal, in fact. Go to the mall later on with a friend who understands/doesn't care. Say your aunt sent you a shitload of clothes and they're too big, you gotta exchange them.

8) Take food to school/work every day. Throw it out, give it away, dissect it into little peices, eat small amounts, whatever you'd like. Bring back wrappers, 3/4 eaten sandwiches, and the like.

9) Appease them in all other areas of your life. Good grades, a promotion, a clean room/apartment/house, good news (made-up, who cares?), whatever. Distract them with other things. Cook for them, write them letters, make them little surprises, call them and sound happy. Don't put the music on too loud, and smile often. A facade can work wonders.

10) Finally, if there is nothing left, sit down and talk to them. Just tell them honestly, that you can't deal with it. Explain it to them. Be patient, ones notion of an eating disorder can be ridiculous. You can't blame them, the public butchers it often through media, etc.

Good luck. We all know how hard it is to have to deal with this. Sometimes, we're just not ready to give up. And when entered into treatment forcefully, everything usually backfires. If anybody has any stories or tips or anything they want added, comment!

Next entries:
> Bigger anorexics. Anorexia is apparent in somebody who weighs 191, as well as 119. What to do, what helps, struggles, et cetera.
> Maintaining weight.
> New low calorie foods
> Eating disorder related songs
> Fasting, its effects
> Meal plans
> Breaking plateaus
> Perhaps a short overview on the other eating disorders, anybody interested?

Suggest more, everything will be responded to!

Also, I was thinking about perhaps starting up an AIM thing.. Perhaps make an ana encyclopedia screenname, so people can IM and ask questions or just talk, and also, maybe I can create a big list of AIM screennames so more anas can keep in contact? Just a thought.

Respond and comment everybody!


Monday, August 01, 2005

Hey Everybody!

The Ana Encylopedia will be up and running shortly. The owner had a short period of 'recovery'.. or whatever the hell it's supposed to be. It quickly tuened into an ugly battle of COE, and of course, it crumbled back into anorexia. I am so sorry for leaving, everybody.

Future topics:
> Maintaining Weight (for sailed)
> Breaking a Plateau
> Effects of fasting
> New Low Calorie Foods
> Meal Plans
> All suggestions welcome

Everybody spread the word, there will be at least two new entries a week. If there isn't a good turn out, there's really no point of writing the entries for nobody. Link the site and subscribe. It takes quite a while to collect information and write these entries. I want to know somebody is being helped. (:

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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Hey everybody.

I am just going to say this once.

I do not advocate eating disorders, nor do I try to 'convert' anybody to an eating disordered person's lifestyle. In fact, I think an eating disorder is the most disgusting, terrible fate anybody could hope to suffer from. I do not teach people how to get one. I do not leave comments criticizing a person's intake. This site is merely a database of information I have kept. Nobody is making any of these girls who appreicate the site read this. Do them a favor and leave them alone.

Thank you. <3


Monday, April 18, 2005

I think it is a pretty established fact that anorexic's have a tendency to eat *just a bit* less than normal people. However, it is my belief that when you do intake calories, you try to intake the best kind, that nurtures your body and also leaves you satisfied and craving free.

Here's a list of foods you can depend on and eat.

--> Negative calorie foods. While the theory is questionable, the list is not. Eating the foods on the list will make you lose weight. Not because the calories you expend in order to consume, but because they are low calorie, and importantly, very healthy. They are good sources of fiber, protein, and the good kind of carbohydrates. As well as that, if you eat a lot of them, you won't feel weighed down or bloated, and they will last you for a while.

--> Pop corn. This is the perfect food for when that nosy friend of yours pries into your business and asks why you're not eating. Laugh it off and grab a packet of pop corn and announce that "I'm such a pig, I can finish the whole thing.. And I will, too!" Get the fat free kind, or the light butter kind. 15-30 calories a cup, varying on the brand. Take note, however, about serving sizes. There are a lot of people confused about this -- I was, too. I finally used a measuring cup and measured out my servings. Usually a bag comes out to 3 or so cups. But to be sure, measure it anyway. If somebody is around, do yourself a favor. Find some sort of ladel or something and see how much it can hold. It's usually around 1/4 of a cup to 1 cup. Dish it out with the ladel. That way, you know how many calories you consumed, and your friend is none the wiser.

--> Fat free cheese. Fat free cheese is very yummy. Also, you can use it to your advantage. If people call you out on not eating, or accuse you of anorexia, just laugh and say, "Are you kidding me? Those anorexic chicks would never touch cheese!" Or something equally as stereotypical. *The best way to ward off prying people and nosiness is ignorance about having eating disorders. Mistake anorexia for bulimia, and be as stereotypical as you can. Say you have a fast metabolism. While it is offensive, it does get you off the hook.* Sorry to go off on a tangent. Anyway, fat free cheese is good protein. Protein makes you feel fuller for much longer, so it's good to have a little bit. Also, it has calcium, which keeps your nails from getting brittle.

--> Tuna. If you eat seafood or meat, tuna is a really good choice. It keeps you full for such a long time and it's relatively low calorie, unless you plan on eating bowls of it at a time. You can mix it with FF mayo (10-20 cals/tbsp) or mustard. Have it on salads, alone, or on low-cal bread. Just knowing you put it in your food will make you feel fuller. Mind games, I tell you!

--> Low Calorie Bread. If you have to eat bread, have it low cal. The calorie amounts range from 40-65. Sara Lee does a 45 calorie kind, so does Pepperidge Farm. Lite Bread is also very good. Another suggestion is to buy Ukranian bread. There's this company called Underdog (I think?) and their bread slices are about 2 of our bread slices. Get this, though. The whole thing is only 30 calories. It's so good. Hard to find, though.

--> Soup. Warmer things make you feel very content and full. Contentness and fullness will result in much lower chances of a binge. Progresso soups are usually 80-130 calories per cup. Dilute it with water, and it'll last you for a while. Broth also works, you can buy it in a can for 20 cals/cup, usually. Boullin cubes are another good choice, ranging from usually 5-10 calories. Also, Lipton makes good powder soups. You just add water. If you buy the regular kind, it can range from 45-120 calories. Try the Low Carb Lipton Soups, though. Chicken Flavored Noodle is 25 calories. Miso soup is also very good, only 35 calories a packet, and well worth it, too.

--> Popsicles. Yum, popsicles! The perfect summer treat. A lot of brands make sugar free, fat free versions of it. A company called Tofutti makes a delicious fudge pop for 30 calories. It's organic, though, so it can be pricey. Usually a fudgesicle type popsicle ranges from 30-60 calories. A popsicle ranges from 15-35 calories. Make sure it's fat free and sugar free, though -- That saves a lot of calories. Also, this is a good way to make friends think you're eating, you can have a lot and numb your mouth so you don't crave food.

--> Ice. While it isn't really a food and happens to have no nutricious value, it is a really good thing to have. Especially during summer. The numbing of the mouth causes lack of taste, which means you won't want to eat something. Even if you do, it'd be pointless because your mouth is numbed. Chew on it when hungry. You will feel satisfied, just for the plain fact that you're chewing on something.

--> Gum. Again, no nutricious value, but it will keep your mouth occupied. Buying the sugar free kinds will save you many calories. There are a lot of flavors, too. Usually ranges from 2.5-10 calories.

--> Cheese Nips are really yummy. I think about 40 are 150 calories? Also, there is this other brand that makes Air Crisps or something. 39 are 140 calories and they are really tasty. As well as that, there is this Asian brand. I don't know the name, but it looks like this: There are two trays covered with plastic. The crackers are really thin and the label on it is black, red, and puce-ish. 17 are about 120 calories. They are so good, and come in a few flavors, too.

--> Frozen Vegetables. Most of these fit into the negative calorie category, but I wanted to give them mention. Heating up a bowlful and eating the vegetables one by one is rather satisfying. Have it with FF parmesan cheese or some sauce.

--> Fat free powder cheese. You know, the kind you put on your pizza. It is a really good subsitute for normal cheese. Kraft sells it, in green bottles. A lot of companies do. It ranges from 10-30 calories per teaspoon, or 15-25 calories per tablespoon. However, theres a lot in that tablespoon or teaspoon, so it's worth the calories.

--> Sahara's carb free pita bread is really good. It's flaky and only 90 calories for the loaf. You can heat it up and peel it apart slowly. It also tastes like real pita bread. Most people use 1/2 to make a sandwich, so you can make 2 sandwiches with a loaf. It's really filling, too.

--> Yogurt. Yogurt is a really fun food. Freeze it in your freezer for a little while and it tastes just like ice cream! Danon Light N' Fit is 90 calories a cup. It takes a long time to eat and makes you feel full. It tastes just like ice cream!

--> Soy milk. Soy milk is really nutricious and about 50% of your daily calcium. One cup is 100 calories. However, it has a lot of protein in it, and it also comes in flavors. Have it before you sleep so you don't feel bad about it. Or have a cup every other day/A half cup every day.

--> Veggie burgers. They are sooo yummy. Gardenburger and Boca Burgers come in a lot of different flavors, and they are made naturally with cheese and vegetables. They range from 80-120 calories, but they are filled with protein and they are worth the calories because they taste so good.

--> Frozen fruit. They sell it in packets and it's really good. Tack a toothpick onto a frozen strawberry and eat it slowly. Sprinkle on some Splenda if you want. Tastes like ice cream and it's low calorie. Mixed berry packets are 70 calories for a cup. Strawberries are 50 for a cup.

--> Lunch meat. Buy the lean kind, it's usually 10-20 calories a slice. It's great for Atkins and awesome for protein. Put it in salads, have it plain, or toast it with FF cheese and bread.

--> Soy chips are really good. Ranging from 100-120 calories for about 20-25, they are filling and taste just like chips. They come in a ton of different flavors.

--> Rice cakes. They are a really compatible food. You can have it with practically anything. They also come in a ton of flavors and fill your tummy. The calorie amounts range from 25-70, depending on brand and flavor.

Wow. That was long, huh? Onto Beverages:

--> Diet drinks. Cannot stress it enough. They fill you up as if you just ate and make you feel really full. Sipping on a bottle through out the day can reduce cravings. A lot of people complain about Aspertame being in it. My logic is this. If you can starve yourself to emaciation, then Aspertame is not exactly the biggest threat you need to worry about.

--> Coffee! It keeps you full, has a laxative affect, and is 1-5 calories for a tablespoon of the regular kind. If it's flavored, it cannot be more than 15 calories for a tablespoon. It keeps you really full and also gives you energy. Observe how you usually see Mary Kate with two large coffee cups in her hand. Then look at the size of her thighs.

--> Green tea. Green tea might have an acrid taste to a lot of people. I taught myself to like it, a lot of people did. There are also other solutions. Lipton has come out with flavored green teas, the flavors are Ginseng & Honey, Honey, Mixed Berry, Oranges, Gauva & Passionfruit (I think?), and Peppermint. All are really satisfying. Try adding a packet of sweetner, it makes the taste more bearable.

--> WATER. Water, water, water, water, WATER. Have a lot of it. Constantly drink it. You will lose so much weight. If you had 2 liters of water a day, minimally, and around 800 calories, you would probably lose at least 3 pounds a week. Water will keep you hydrated and less hungry. In fact, thirst is 90% of the time mistaken for hunger. As for the other 10%.. Just pretend you're really thirsty. =D

--> Juice. It's refreshing to drink and the lite versions are low calorie. V8 makes a yummy lite juice. Tropicana also makes one.

--> Light lemonade or iced tea are very good. Usually they are 5 calories/cup. Diet snapple tastes very good.

--> Crystal light makes a packet where you can just stir water into. It's 5 calories for a teaspoon, I think. Chilling it with ice makes a good beverage for a summer evening.

--> SF/FF hot chocolate. It is so delicious and perfect for chocolate cravings. It comes in many brands and some sugar free hot chocolate has calcium. Others have marshmellows. The one with marshmellows is 35 calories a packet. Plain sugar free hot chocolate is around 20-50 calories, most commonly 20-25, though.

That was short, I don't know too many liquids. Onto Condiments.

--> Ketchup. While it's more calorific than the rest, it's very good and can make a lot of things more appetizing than usual. The low carb kind is 5 calories per tablespoon and the normal kind is 15/tablespoon.

--> Mustard. It says zero calories. But we all know nothing is 0 calories, so round it up to about 2 calories/tablespoon. Its very good with a lot of food and you can use it for dipping carrots and lettuce. Also works on toast, tuna, soy chips. It is also very addictive if you have it plain.

--> FF mayo. Mayonaise is usually very calorific but a lot of companies have a lighter version. Usually they range from 15-30 calories per tablespoon and taste pretty much the same as normal mayo. Hellmans and Smart Beat definately make it.

--> Salsa. Salsa is also very versatile. It tastes good on salads and also with soy chips, tuna, bread, mixed vegetables, by the spoon, or with gardenburgers. It ranges from 5-15 calories per 2 tablespoons. The spice also helps out your metabolism!

--> Salad dressing. This is a somewhat tricky subject. Always stick to the fat free kind. Regular salad dressings can have up to 110 calories per tablespoon! In restaurants, always ask for it on the side -- Most calories in a salad from restaurants come in the dressing and croutons. Fat free italian is very good, only 15 calories for 2 tablespoons. There are light versions of almost every dressing, so they're pretty easy to find.

--> FF/SF cool whip. It's really good and tastes like the real thing. Having a few spoons frozen tastes just like ice cream! You can also fool your parents into thinking it is ice cream, so they don't make you eat the real thing. It can go from 10-25 calories for 2 tablespoons. It also tastes very good with frozen fruits, or fresh ones.

Well, I'm all out of ideas. Whoa, I think this is my longest post. It sure took a while. I hope you guys enjoyed it. Not sure if I can post tomorrow, got a big test. Grr. Any suggestions? I love getting your comments! If anybody ever wants to contribute anything, I would appreciate it so greatly and you'd get all the credit. This site is all of yours as much as it is mine.

<3!


Sunday, April 17, 2005

Thanks for your awesome input in the last post!

Here is a list of books related to eating disorders, or discussing them. This is a quick post and I'll probably post again tonight if I can. The ones in bold are those that I've read and really recommend. But don't go by me, I bet all of these books are amazing. Although, I don't really think Stick Figure was wonderful. It seemed to discuss the size of her thighs more than the emotions she felt. But once again, it's only my opinion. =)

Enjoy! <3

'The Best Little Girl in the World' by Steven Levenkron

'Good Enough' by Cynthia Nappa Bitter

'The Golden Cage'  by Bruch

'Slim to None' by  Hendricks

'Stick Figure' by  Lori Gottlieb

'My Sister's Bones'  by Cathi Hanauer

'No Body's Perfect' by  Kimberly Kirberger

'Body Lines'  by Elizabeth Rees

'Angel Mommy'  by Linda Krikorian

'Second Star to the Right'  by Deborah Hautzig

'Hunger Point'  by Jillian Medoff

'Wasted'  by Marya Hornbacher

'Appetites' by  Caroline Knapp

'A Body to Die For' by  Keisha Lett

'It's Not About Food'  by Normandi

'The Body Project'  by Joan Jacobs Brumberg

'But I'm Not a Bad Person'  by Lauren Traer

'Body Outlaws' by  Ophira Edut

'Insatiable' by  Eve Eliot

'Fat Chance'  by Leslea Newman

'You Remind Me of You'  by Eireann Corrigan

'The Passion Of Alice'  by Stephanie Grant

'I am not an Artichoke'  by Lucy Frank

'Miss Perfect'  by Jill Ross Klevin

'When Mirrors Lie'

'The Hanged Man'  by  Francesca Lia Block

'Life in the Fat Lane'  by Cherie Bennet

'Nell's Quilt'  by Susan Terris

'Kim: Empty Inside'  by Beatrice Sparks

'The Acid House'  by Irvine Welsh

'Survivng Ophelia'  by Dellasega

'A Starving Madness'  by Robinor

'Women Afraid to Eat'  by Berg

'Eve's Apple'  by Rosen

'When Women Stop Hating Their Bodies'  by  Hirshmann

<3 Have any of you read any of these books? If so, any recommendations/reviews? I'll gladly post them up!



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