Hey daddy, are you going to hit me again,
are you going to cause me to bleed.
Are you going to add more to these cuts and bruises,
the ones no ones ever seen.
Are you going to hit me so hard again that I'll spit out blood,
will you sit back with tears in your eyes,
and question what you've done?
Or will it be like the time you hit me so hard i feel asleep,
will there be blood all on the floor
because the gashes you cause are so deep.
Hey daddy, did you know you've killed me deep inside.
daddy I want you to know I'm sick of having to lie.
Im sick of makeing up excuses "Oh, I just tripped and fell."
Hey daddy as mean as this sounds... I hope you go to hell.
Maybe then you'll feel what I've felt for all these years.
Then you'll understand why I shed all  these tears

Hey daddy, can you please stop yelling at me,
I know im not the best.
Hey daddy, did yuou know your words hurt me,
they rip straight through my chest.
Hey daddy, I dont think you understand
the way you make me feel.
Hey daddy, these cuts on wrists are because of you,
and they wont seem to heal.
Hey daddy, did you know because of you,
I've contemplated several ways I want to die.
Hey daddy did you know,
I've been thinking of suicide for a very long time.
Hey daddy, did you know you've spat in my eyes,
and stepped on these dreams i once considered mine.
Hey daddy, i dont think you've noticed but
your pushing me too far.
Hey daddy, my wrists are bleeding
and they will not scar.
He daddy, i wish you knew that your
causing me soo much pain.
daddy, I want you to know.
YOUR DRIVING ME INSANE

Turn on the shower
lock the door
fall upon the tile
and cry once more
grab a towel
damp the sounds
don't let a soul hear
that you're breaking down
 
 

Some people are just born
with tragedy in their blood
 
 
The only thing worse than a broken heart is knowing
you'd give anything for a another chance 
 
& if i bleed,
i'll bleed knowing you don't care
& if i sleep just to dream of you
i'll wake without you there 
 

F.E.A.R.: Fuck Everything And Run 
 

I'm just a fucked up girl
Living a fucked up life
In a fucked up world
With a fucking knife.
Welcome to my world;;
Where being me is never enough 
 

pretty pictures on her wrist
depressing thoughts on her
mind. screaming her silent
tears.everyone believed her
when she said  " im fine "  
 

laying in her bed eyes full of tears
suddenly coming true is all of her
fears. her heart is breaking she's
full of pain.  her deep sorrow is
driving her insane.  she wants to
scream she wants to yell but she
must never admit how hard she
fell.   so as the sun begins to rise
she wipes her eyes,pastes a smile
on that looks genuine&once again
she pretends that everything is fine 
 

scratches & scars on  her wrist tell
a story of a girl who gets so worked
up over the smallest things&doesnt
know how to deal with them.      its
about a girl with tons of problems&
issues that she cant explain how she
feels about them.  she needs to open
up.   she   needs   to  let  things   go 
 

and noone will ever know how
many times she told herself that
she   just   wasnt  good enough 
 

she was  shaking from the
pills&she dialed his number
she screamed out his name
but he never answered.she
was dead the next day.just
another disaster&he could
have   saved   her if he had
              only answered <3 
 

i'm still young ;;
i've got things to do.
liquor to drink
boys to confuse
parties to go to
&& times to screw up.
because right now,
i'm just living it up. 
 

Tell me, doctor, how to shake a waking nightmare that is only worse when i am sleeping. 
 
i miss those 5 mintue hugs ...
i miss those 10 minute kisses ...
i miss those hour long movies ...
and i miss those 5 hour phone calls ...
but what i miss most of all baby ...
is when you took only about 30 seconds ...
to look into my eyes and tell me ...
just how much you loved me ...
and just how perfect and beautiful i was ...
thats what i miss the most and it hurts to know ...
that i'll never get those back 
 

drugs beneath the bed
A body on the bedroom floor
One gunshot to the head
Black clothes in the closet
Depressing pictures on the wall
Letters written to a *s*p*e*c*i*a*l* someone
Begging him to call
A mother who was crying
A dad who was out of state
She was always fast asleep
When her parents came home late
All she wanted was acceptance
For someone to say they tried
each time people abandoned her
Another piece of her died
The ambulance outside the house
Neighbors came to see what she’d done
She finally told the world how she felt
With the sound of her daddy’s gun. 
 

I'm never going to show you how broken I am inside.
I'm never going to show you how I need you in my life.
You'll never hear me say that I miss you
Or find out that you're the reason why I cry.
You'll never catch me...
Because you'll never see me fall.
I'm just going to keep everything inside
And smile through all the pain
And even though I'm breaking down,
I'll always manage to stay sane.
I'll never show you what you want to see.
I'm never going to let you see through me

And I’m sorry, for what I have done to myself.
I didn’t want to hurt anymore, I didn’t want to cry anymore.
Bloods pouring out or my mouth, I can her my mothers frantic
Screams as she finds me face down on the concrete.
The sirens are nearing, the world is spinning.
The police are pushing the crowd back.
The paramedics reach me, but their too late, and I’m sorry.

sometimes ;;
it seems we hurt the ones we hold dearest to our hearts,
&& we let the foolish things tear us apart.
 
 

it didn't last very long.
but you still made me feel like
the most beautiful girl in the world.
 
 

what am i really suppose to say when you ask
"whats wrong" its kinda hard when
N O T H I N G
    is right
What if? You loved someone...
What if? You thought they felt the same...
What if? You asked them who they loved...
What if? It wasn't your name...
 
 
 

I cried because you wanted her over me
but then I laughed because she’s ugly.
 
 

She's so glamorous in that heart-broken,
shattered spirit, dead on the inside
kinda way
 
 

Her picture contains a twist
Painted in crimson red upon her thin wrists
 
 

This wasn’t a suicide, it was a murder!
I cant believe you just stood there and let her
She took that blade and pressed it in
Committing in this world the darkest sin
Forever leaving the world behind
She pretended to be fine, leaving you blind
But some of you saw through her lies
You didn’t look into her deceiving eyes
She was going to kill herself, and you let her
Because of this You could simply call it, murder
 
 

We meet up in the bathroom
the gun hidden in my hoodie
You come in && look confused
I pulled out the gun & said i love you
the bullet went through my head
& I'm sorry
 
 

I have no choice but to hide all i feel
The cuts in my wrists that refuse to heal
The tears that fall from my bloodshot eyes
The fake smiles I put on to cover these lies
I wish I had time to explain it all
The reasons are writen in blood on the wall
 
 

All she wants is something
to hold onto. That's all she needs
 
 

People always ask, do you still like him?
& honestly, I don’t really know, but there’s
just something about him, I can’t let go.after all that’s said and done, i still do think your
amazing, I still cherish every moment i ever
spent with you & every smile you brought to my
face. I’ll forever be thankful that someone like you
was brought into my life, even if it had to be taken
away too soon.