the_burnout_kid's Xanga

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 14:38:07 GMT

Dear Xanga,

I was just reminded of you a few minutes ago and thought I might drop by for an entry.

After all, it's been four months since I was last here.

Oops. =)

Love,
Allison

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 16:29:47 GMT

I haven't written in about 2 or 3 weeks. Whoops. =)

I work a lot now. And it is awesome.
Never thought I would say that about a job in my whole life.

I'm definitely enjoying what I do at the Oracle office. I've met some really cool people in there, and we've all hit it off well. I get along with all of them, and no one makes fun of me like my other stupid friends from school do. They're nice, they're fun. It's awesome.
I didn't know I could get paid to have as much fun as I've been having. Thomas, the editor in chief, agrees.

My favorite parts about working there are:
1. When Thomas randomly bursts into song. Always random songs, too. One day, we got beautiful renditions of songs from The Little Mermaid. He knew all the words. Then one day, it was Footloose. A few Police songs. Other things that we hear or think of. Yeah. It's pure comedy, with Thomas around.
2. The games that Brad and I make up while we're waiting for flats. They never have names, but they're fun. Tuesday, we were tossing a ball back and forth, trying to make it land on the stapler and make it staple. I have no life. But it's ok, because neither does anyone else there. =)
3. The terrible, awful grammatical mistakes we've found while copy editing stories. Usually it's just misspelled words, but there are some other really amsuing things:
            -oridinary (ordinary)
            -Sprink Break
            -yet to be undetermined
            -changelled (challenged)
            -Februaruy
            -funding raising
            -a lot more lamer
Some people don't pay attention, it's amazing. Oh, and did you know that the leg is the largest muscle in your body? ::sigh:: Stupid people. Pay more attention. =)
4. When Marlow, Mark, Thomas, John, and especially Brad, do their Michael Jackson impersonations. There's no other word for it besides amazing. Amazingly hilarious. "Drinking beef stroganoff-ah!" Ha. Awesome.
5. Having Mike walk me to my car every night, even when he finished and could have gone home anywhere from 15 minutes to 2 hours before I was able to leave. He won't let me walk to my car by myself because it's late and he doesn't want anything to happen to me. Awww. No one treats me like that ever. *teehee*
6. I could just keep going on and on with this forever... there are countless things that we do in the office that are amazing and awesome and funny. I love that I fit in so well with them and don't feel out of place when I go to work.
7. Duh. Who can forget the prank calls we all took part in to the Features desk. That night was probably one of the best nights in the office... ever.

Ok, I'll stop with that now. I like my new friends very much.
And it's fun having a crush on someone, too. *teehee*

Speaking of that... Mike and I are going to NY over the summer together, because he's never been. It's going to be rad. Yankees game. Italian dinners. Central Park. Yesss.
I just have to tell my dad. Haha. My mom thinks it should be fine, though.

Moving right along...
In approximately 11 days, I will be in Wilmington, NC, spending some time with Lisa! YEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!
In case you couldn't tell, I'm a little excited. =)
Spring Break is going to rock.

It's funny being single.
I just wanted to throw that out there.

Steve leaves for Korea in a week. He and Dustin are going to come hang out on Saturday, hopefully. It will be nice to get to see him before he leaves. Dustin, too, because Dustin wasn't in Idaho last time I was there.
At least it won't be so bad to him go now. This will be way easier than I thought it was going to be.
Still, sad. I will miss him.
But I'm ok.

And single.
But ok. =)

I learned a lot from being in that relationshp with Steve. Many things that I never would have learned if we hadn't dated. And I'm grateful for that, but I know that God has something different for me.
Everything happens for a reason. And it's nice to be ok and actually believe that, and not just be upset and saying it for the sake of saying it.
God does some awesome, unexplainable things.

I leave you with a picture. Enjoy.

Alayna and I are too cool for words, in my mom's old dresses. Heck yes.
Check out my livejournal to see every picture we took that day. There's way too many. About a 100. Yep. Amazing.

*Ally

Monday, February 14, 2005

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 01:12:33 GMT

I hate Valentine's Day.
HATE.

You have no idea.

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

Tue, 01 Feb 2005 01:08:38 GMT

James Taylor = beautiful.
I forgot how much I like his music until just now.
I'm a sucker for James Taylor.

So I worked my first two nights as a copy editor for the Oracle, tonight and last night. It's weird, I still can't believe I'm doing this for a job. And it's weird realizing how much grammar I still have to learn. Wow. It's crazy. But it's a lot of fun, and all the people on staff are really cool, so it's fun having new people to hang out with, even if it's only for two nights a week.

I'm getting more and more nervous about the upcoming month. I have this terrible feeling that it's going to go very very slow. And then Steve is going to get here, and I'll get to spend one weekend with him (hopefully), and that is going to go by way too fast. And then he's going to leave for Korea.
And I'm not sure how I'm going to react. It may not be very good.
So pray for that. Pray for him. Pray for us.

In other news... the new Anberlin CD came out an hour ago. Every needs to buy it. Now. I'm buying mine in the morning, on my way to class. The songs I've heard rock, and I'm expecting the rest of the CD to be just as wonderful.
I'm going to see them play an acoustic show tomorrow night. And next Tuesday, I'm going to see them play in Orlando. As long as I remember to buy my ticket tomorrow, and it's not sold out. And I'm getting really nervous that it's going to, for some reason.

I have a test in the morning. I haven't studied for it too much. It's really hard to study for because my notes don't make any sense. That's mainly because my professor doesn't make any sense, either. He talks. And talks. And talks. Rather quickly, at that. And he keeps talking. And no one understands a thing he is talking about. But I write it all down, just in case.

And I still don't understand it.
And the book we're supposed to be reading... it doesn't really help at all. In fact, it may just be making things worse.

Let's just add to the fun, and mention that my test is an essay exam. I'm not exactly the best b.s.-er, so I'm not going to do so hot.
RAWR!

I should probably go to bed. Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
At least I'll be able to sleep until 11 on Wednesday. That will be grand.
Not having class until 1 rocks. Too bad it can't be like that every day.

Oh well.

*Ally

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Thu, 27 Jan 2005 10:32:48 GMT

I don't write in here much.

I've started writing really big entries in my livejournal. And I feel silly posting them in here because well... if you saw the length without the lj cuts... you wouldn't want to put them here either.

Anyway.
I had a beautiful time in Idaho with Steve. It gets harder to come home every time I see him. The more time I spend with him, the more I want to be with him and the more I love him, and the more I don't want to leave.
Knowing that Korea is fast approaching makes it harder, too.

Even coming back this time, I had something really cool and awesome to look forward to, and it was the hardest time I've ever had coming home.

My mom thinks I have bad feelings attached to coming home now, because of what happened when I came home in November, and that's why it was so hard to come home this time.
I don't think that. But whatever.

That sad thing is that Liz was supposed to be flying in tomorrow night from England. But now she can't.
So the thing that was supposed to keep me going this week... no longer is happening. That kind of ruined everything.

These past couple days have been kind of rough. I haven't wanted to go to class much. I skipped two of my three classes on Tuesday. I went to all of them yesterday, and I'm on track to going to all of them today. But I've had a hard time actually being in class. I haven't been paying much attention. I need to get myself refocused. I've been trying to keep myself busy... if I do that, I won't have time to sit around and feel sad. I haven't been home much, besides at night, so I haven't been sitting around much. That's good for me.

Tomorrow will probably be the hardest day. Tomorrow and Saturday. Tomorrow I have nothing to do until I babysit at 5:30. And then I have nothing to do when I get done at 10. And Saturday... Saturday was originally going to consist of Liz, Alayna, and I driving to Clermont to hang out with Aimee all day. Except now Liz isn't coming. And Aimee is going with her friend and sister to Islands of Adventure. And I'm getting nervous that Jimmy is going to want Alayna to do something, and she'll go with him even though we're supposed to hang out. So there's no telling how Saturday will turn out.

I wrote some really meaningful, important things in my livejournal the other night. I'm not going to put it all in here. If you'd be interested in reading it... http://www.livejournal.com/users/the_burnout_kid. Leave a comment if you feel like it, or don't. It doesn't really matter. The stuff in the first cut... it's all things from Breakaway. I typed out a lot of the things I wrote down when Eddie and Rodney were speaking. And then I also wrote out some other things that I experienced/learned on the last night. Then I wrote a little about my experience in Idaho with Steve, plus some pictures... and then I wrote a whole big thing about what we had talked about Sunday morning at church, in Idaho. Forgive it's length, but it's all important. So read if you like.

I've been thinking about some things all morning, so I'm going to go sit by myself for about 15 minutes and think without people bothering me, before I have to go to class, so yeah.

I love you.

*Ally

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Thu, 20 Jan 2005 10:51:12 GMT

I'm leaving for Idaho in 7 hours.
Yessssssss.
Today is going to go by too slow.
Although, it's not going by so slowly right now.
It's already almost time for my next class.

<33

I had a beautiful weekend. And I was going to be writing about it now, but I left my notebook at home that had my stuff in it from the weekend.
So I'm going to write about it on the plane. And type it up when I get home in here.

A few pictures from my previous weekend, for your viewing pleasure... just in case none of you looked at my livejournal.

We are so hardcore. hxc. woot.

*teehee*
<33

*Ally

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

Tue, 18 Jan 2005 00:14:28 GMT

I posted a picture story in my livejournal.
I'm not posting them all on here, cause there are 94 pictures, and it would be too long.
LJ cuts are a beautiful thing.
http://www.livejournal.com/users/the_burnout_kid
readysetgo. look at them. I made up a story for the second part. I'm cool.
not really. I'm pretty much just really bored.

My weekend was amazing. expect a long, written (not pictures) entry about how awesome and cool God is, and what I learned this past weekend while I was away. But not right now, because I'm about to go to bed.

*Ally

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

Wed, 12 Jan 2005 22:34:21 GMT

You Are 8 Years Old

8 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

The best part about this is...
I took a completely different test last February... which ALSO told me I was 8.
sweet.

I'm so strange.

At least I know where I stand in life.

*Ally

P.S. Someone who I love very very dearly wrote a beautiful song about it.
It made me cry. But a good cry!
<3

Sunday, January 09, 2005

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 00:15:58 GMT

Apparently there is some extended supercool version of this soundtrack.
I want to buy it.
I think I might be obsessed with Phantom of the Opera.
I've seen it twice (the movie). I plan on seeing it several more time.
My mom bought me the soundtrack from the movie tonight, and I've listened to the entire thing twice, already.

Masquerade!
Paper faces on parade...
masquerade!

Hide your face so the world will never find you.

Hmm. I've cried, both times I saw it.
Perhaps I'm just really lame.

Moving on.

I was at church for many hours today. It was very nice.
We were practicing our flags and puppets for the outreach we're doing next weekend when we're at Breakaway.
I thought my arm was going to fall off by the end of the day.
We did 4 different flags routines... at least two times each. All in a row, with a short break once.
And then, on to puppets. I did a puppet during Stomp!, which is by far the longest song we've ever done for puppets. Then, I had to pump up all the confetti launchers for Pirates Who Don't Do Anything (we put baby powder in them, and use them like cannons!). There were 4 of them. And I pumped them up twice. Then I had to do the lead part for All About Love. Also way too long. Then we did the flamingos for whatever the heck that last song we did is.
Doesn't sound like it would be painful. Oh, but it is. Very very painful.
But it's ok. Because it was fun!

I start class on Monday.
First class of the semester = ballroom dancing. =)
Followed by American National Government.
After my classes, I'm meeting my friend Mike at the Oracle office (our school newspaper), and he's going to show me around the office, and I'm going to apply to be a copy editor (finally).

After a week of class, we're leaving for Breakaway on Friday afternoon.
I've been waiting to go to Breakaway for months.

The following weekend, Im leaving to fly to Idaho after classes get done on Thursday.
I get to see Steve again. =)

And THEN! The weekend after THAT, my deardarling friend Liz, who lives in England... she is coming to visit, for a whole week!!!!
YESSSSS!
I can't wait. I'm so exciteddd!

Thats enough for now. I'm going to go to bed shortly, because I have to be at church early. So. Sleep is calling me.

*Ally

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Tue, 04 Jan 2005 21:15:38 GMT

Today is Tuesday. Today and yesterday were good, because I did not sit around my house.

On Sunday night, around 11:30, I received a phone call from my friend Chris. Not the Chris I'm terribly angry at, someone else. So I went and hung out with him and his friends on their alltooexpensive boat, in Harbor Island.

I woke up around 11:30 on Monday. I went with my mom, my brother, and Dean to lunch. We haven't done that in a while. I went back to church and worked on Dean's computer... I'm cleaning it for him. Filing everything on there.
Wow, he has a lot of freaking stuff on his computer. It's insane.
He's paying me for it. Woot.
Then I went to see National Treasure with my parents, and that was fun, too. I like that movie. I saw it twice. Then I went to Gabe's to work with him on flags. And then I came home. And it wasn't so bad to sit around my house at night because I had not been home all day.

I talked to Steve last night. And on Sunday night.

Last night, we were talking about Christianity, and what my actual beliefs are, because we've never really talked about it before. He knows that I am a christian, but beyond that he doesn't really know much about my personal beliefs. We got off on a topic about predestination, and I don't really know what I think about it now. I'm not real sure I knew what I thought about it before, but now it's worse. We got pretty indepth into that, and I heard so many different things, and we went back and forth on so many different things about it that I'm very confused now. I guess that isn't one of the most important parts of my beliefs, but I'm going to read about it in a few different places and try and figure out what I believe about that.
Besides predestination, I know what I believe. Also, except for the rapture and stuff. I know Jesus is going to come back to earth again. But there are so many different views about when he will take his people from here, if it will be before the tribulation, or before the rise of the anti-christ, or after all of it. I don't know exactly what I believe about that, either. Again, not of the most highest of importance.

That is another thing that I want to read up on, and see if I can come to any conclusion of my own.

Liz is going to be coming from England to visit. She is supposed to be coming the weekend I was going to be going up to Idaho. I don't want to miss seeing Liz, that would be terrible. I have to figure out my plans now. I will probably go up there either the weekend before or the weekend after. Probably the weekend before, because I really want to get out of here and go see Steve. And I doubt I'll have anything due that Monday since it will only be the beginning of the third week of class, so if I miss a class, it's ok.

I've been listening to mewithoutYou all day.
I love this cd.

*Ally