| | okay.... it's been an exciting life out here in BG. First, we had a shooting! ahhhhh! Kinda scary, it was in the parking lot of a gas station in our generously named "dowtown" area. It was a local man, not a student at BGSU, but about our age nonetheless... definitely big news for a little place like us hilljacks.
BGSU News: we had Panhellenic Recruitment and it went well; it took up both of my weekends and I still think it was worth it. We met our "quota" which basically means we kicked ass in impressing these girls enough to have them "rank" us well. It's complicated trying to explain it, but like any goal, there was a lot of time and effort and it went to a great result, so Alpha Phi is a happy place right now! woowoo!
Other news: one of our freshman football players died! Heart problems his coach apparently told him to "suck up." I really hope the latter info is just a rumor, but who knows anymore...
personal news: I think I failed my first exam since freshman year. It is neurophysiology; mind you, half of them are grad student, the other half are neuroscience majors, which leaves me and one other girl who have no background in this field really; or in physics, which is apparently a huge part of it. When I explain it like that, it doesn't sound so bad. If I said I did my best studying, it'd be a lie. But I did lose motivation when I came to the realization my clueless level had reached an all-time high in this class. Anyway, I think I'm dropping it and jsut coasting through with 14 instead of 17 credit hours. That's a first, actually! I wonder what happen!!!!! (im kidding, im weird, and im kidding).
WARNING: this next section is personal, it might be mooshy and it may even talk about boys! If you don't want ot read it, close your browser window NOW
THE PREFACE; for those who don't know, here's my guy situation. I dated Mike for 2.5 years in high school, since then I've had a few quick boyfriends, and now Jason, who I have been with off and on, but in the past 10 months, very seriously, for 2 years! He goes to Toledo, and we have had rough times, as any couple does, but we've pretty much decided we want to be together forever. I can see it as a real possiblility, and he does, too, so I think that means we're good to go?!
Anyway, we got into a little fight last week; I don't feel he's in love with me like he once was, he jsut doesn't appreciate me anymore, etc. It took a lot for me to admit this, and he seemed to really want to change, and jsut act like he loves me more. At least to demonstrate he DOES love me once in a while (like I hate the "okay, i gotta go, love you, bye" phone conversations). Anyway, I thuoght things would really take a turn for the better with the end of that convo.
Thursday I wake up with a sore throat. Friday, I wake up and I cannot breathe, swallow, or keep food down. So I call Jason that night and ask him to come keep me company, but he's already been drinking so of course, i say stay put, we'll talk tomorrow. Saturday, I wake up still sick, and we have to go on this double date in Toledo we've been promising forever. Afterwards, I tell him I feel sick, and could we go back to BG so I can sleep in my own bed and he can take care of me (everyone wants to feel taken care of when you're sick!). But he seriously told me he wants to stay in Toledo to go to this great party and that I should drive back to BG. I cannot explain how much this hurt. Plus he's promised to call me when he gets back int he wee hours of the morning, but he hasn't both nights, which I can forgive easier. So, today, even thuogh I said I wouldn't, I brought it up and said I wish he was more respectful, etc. I don't knwo if I am out of line, but I really, truly feel like this is the tip of the iceburg in the troubles to come. I am just not feeling the love!!!! haha. Okay that's the story; tell me if I am being stupid, please.
Thats all. I'll write again with time. byebye friends |
