Newly found energy

For a while I kind of gave up on my site but I figure if at least one person posts things on there it might be worth it to keep it going. I've added some new posts that will hopefully get it active again.

http://hearmehealme.proboards107.com/index.cgi I’ve started a site for people to just come and talk. It’s basically an online support group for people who deal with self injury, abuse, eating disorders, and depression or any problem. I have posted some helpful things on there to help people over come self injury and other problems.

So I'm back. I've been asked what the last entry was about by a few people on MSN and yahoo so I will explain. I was up set and trying to deal with a lot. One person in my family committed suicide and another one tried and ended up in the hospital. I was under a lot of stress as well with trying to get things straightened out with college for next year. I still have to register for classes and the website wasn't letting me and I had more things to take care of. I don't feel like going into detail of the whole situation but that the jist of it.

A battle you know nothing about yet your not alone

I read something interesting on someone xanga last night. The person was saying how she was alone with her problem and that no one understood and that she was alone in the world. This it the point I want to get across. You at not alone. I wrote this last night.

So many people think they are alone in their pain and that there’s not a soul out there who understands so this is my message to you you’re not alone. Behind every happy person is a painful memory or some kind of struggle. Behind every person is some kind of hurt. Some of us have been abused, some of us cut, some of us have eating disorders, some of us are depressed and so on. There are people out there you have never met who share the same feelings, fears, dreams, thoughts, and problems. Everyone is fighting a battle that no one else knows any thing about. Perhaps this makes us all connected in some way. After all we’re only human.  

My next point. Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about so be careful what you say. Really. I was taking to my friend the other day she was upset because in class people were talking about rape so lightly. As if it was no big deal. They were talking about how Bill Nie the Science Guy raped someone (he really didn’t the teacher looked it up and he didn’t). This is how rumors get started. Any way she was upset how they were talking about it so lightly. Need I say she was raped a few years ago?

I took an online psychology class. The professor had us watch Supersize me then we had a discussion and had to write about it and our thoughts on it and our thought on the obese.  Was of the comments from a student was “people need to stop living to eat and start eating to live” another was how it was the persons fault for being overweight. The rude comments went on and on. Need I say the professor use to weigh 300 some pounds (she’s lost a lot and weighs 130 or so now) She got a bit upset by some of the comments.

Next my friend we will call her L. She has been abused all her life and her parents are terrible. She has a lot of problems because of what she has been though and is seeing a psychologist, is on meds, and is going into foster care. People think she’s weird. They keep making fun of her and saying really mean things about her. Very few will actually talk to her. Two of my friends have even come up to me and said “why are you hanging around her she’s weird!” I’m getting sick of it. They have no idea the hell that she has been though. So be careful what you say everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about.

The site I’m trying to make my point with that no one is alone. http://hearmehealme.proboards107.com/index.cgi

Lately I’ve been questioning psychology and mental illness in general. Things just seem a bit odd to me. I mean the psychology association (or what ever it’s called) VOTED on whether homosexually should be a mental illness (it use to be then it was decided it only is an illness if the person doesn’t like being a homosexual). In the medical field they would never vote on something like cancer to see if they should consider it an illness but this is the way they do in psychology. I actually read about this in a book. Madness, Hursey, and the Rumor of Angels. It’s a book all about flaws in psychology and mental hospitals written by a counselor I think it was. Something else I noticed if you act “normal” then they don’t consider you crazy. All you have to do is act. In the book it told stories of many people who were sent to a mental hospital and in most of the situations the people just acted normal to get out. If they were there for depression they acted happy to seem “normal” to get out. And it worked. I’m sane because I act sane? I always manage to hide my OCD from people. I always have to check things over and over. I lie so no one thinks any thing is up such as saying I forgot something in the car so I can run back to see that it’s locked. I don’t have OCD because I don’t act like I do? Hmm this is how the mental system works. You can just act your way out of it.

http://hearmehealme.proboards107.com/index.cgi I’ve started a site for people to just come and talk. It’s basically an online support group for people who deal with self injury, abuse, eating disorders, and depression or any problem. I have posted some helpful things on there to help people over come self injury and other problems.