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Summer travel plans commence!

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 00:04:01 GMT

in roughly 30 hours my summer travels begin. This was a late added, but much needed addition as I fly down south to visit one of the service places I want to be at next year. I've seen the other and think I can make a more peaceful decision if I've seen my options.

with a few days break in between, i then begin the heavy leg of my travel. I might be posting more on that later.

Oh! I went swimming today! I loved it! I love water. I love swimming. well, salty water itches, but I love swimming pools. I have a fear of things in the water eating my feet, so ponds and lakes and oceans aren't quiet as much fun. What can I say, I am a citified girl, though i love outsidesy thins. hunting hiking snowboarding mountain climbing rock climbing extreme biking horseback riding snake catching snake cooking snake eating bear catching mountain lion tracking desert ventures in a turban. Ok, so maybe I haven't really experienced all of those all that often. but you never know... or do you?

"Come to bed! it's night night time!" that's my bed. It's telling me to sleep... oh but my tummy is hungry... maybe a Popsicle? leftover pizza? popsicle!
fly fly fly fly away i like planes

the rain is Spain falls mainly on the plain

a little human dignity never hurt

Fri, 25 May 2007 21:55:40 GMT

Life is so much better without school. Most of my education I love. But after what, 17 of my 22 years in it, my attachment, drive and interest wore off. Granted, I learned a lot, but I learned so much more outside of the classroom. My hardest year ever was definitely this year. senior year I also learned the most. Who'd guess. I learned a lot b/c my classes related to things I was concerned about, often added something to a similar topic covered in another class and required insane amounts of time and energy. I was asked in an interview what I do on the weekends... work... clean... run errands... I guess now that I am out of school I can do fun things again. I had a party last weekend and this weekend I'm visiting people all over. I'm also planning on buying my brother some shirts. I feel bad about buying lots of clothes when his clothes are all frayed on the edges. Although, I bought clothes b/c mine were raggedy and didn't fit. I hadn't bought anything new in... maybe 3 or 4 years. I feel guilty buying clothes. I need them. But, you know what? I like uniforms. I like habits. Ok, I don't want to where a habit, but I like simple clothes. I am perfectly fine with wearing the same modest clothes for everything. really. I just am not sure how that would work with my line of work and I hate shopping and am not good at finding nice things. Almost everything is whoreish. Yes. I said Whoreish. Our world does not respect the body, especially womens bodies. I don't want to look sexy. I don't want t look hot. I would like to look pretty. I would like to look nice. I think German Baptists have the right kind of idea going.... I didn't say they have it completely right! But I really like the value of simplicity and modesty. We are more than what we wear. We are more than what we own.
I could go on. I love this subject. The dignity of the human person is AMAZING. I need to read JP II's book on the Dignity of Women. I love Theology of the Body and the DoW excerpts I've read Rock This World. What an amazing man.
I would like to know it better especially with where I might do service next year. My interview today went very well, though I would still like to look at my other options to make sure I make a choice, and not just accept blindly. I use it already in discussions with friends, personal reflections and OH SO much with YG. Catholics don't know or understand how amazing they are because they are male or female. So many don't know how uniquely they image God in their sexuality. Oh goodness. I should stop. I don't want to bore people but I never find this boring. It's probably one of my top 3 subjects... maybe top 2... maybe top most. AMAZING!

?Quieres ayudarme espanol?

My summer is gonna be SWEEEEEEEEEEEEET btw. I am going to see the world! I have been so blessed. I'll let you know more later.
PS did I mention how thrilled I am to be out of school and DONE
at least until/if I enter grad school.
PS Im only watchin that movie if it can put it into spanish... or else I might watch something else

Monday, April 09, 2007

Mon, 09 Apr 2007 15:10:46 GMT

why not?

You.
Can.
Only.
Type.
One.
Word.

1. Where is your cell phone? here
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend/husband/wife/lover? tall
3. Your hair? curly
4. Your mother? out
5. Your father? kind
6. Your favorite item? none
7. Your dream last night? void
8. Your favorite drink? water
9. Your dream car? free
10. The room you are in? mine
11. Your fear? failure
12. What do you want to be in 10 years? fiathful
13. Who did you hang out with last night? family
14. What you're not? disciplined
15. The last thing you did? hw
16. What are you wearing? clothes
17. Your favorite book? bible
18. The last thing you ate? eggs
19. Your life? dedicated
20. Your mood? dread
21. Your friends? pleasant
22. What are you thinking about right now? hw
23. Your car? figment
24. What are you doing at the moment? this
25. Your summer? good
26. Your relationship status? good
27. What is on your tv? vacancy
28. When is the last time you laughed? questionable
29. Last time you cried? Saturday
30. School? graduating

Copy.
Paste.
Answer.
Questions.
In.
One.
Word.

I certainly haven't been getting anywhere on my paper for the last four hours... >insert explitive here< I dislike papers like the one I am working on
Someone said to stop worrying about school and fous on my future; I'm going to graduate. Well, ok, but I need every class this semester to graduate with my major and two minors. I would like a nice GPA, but these last two semesters burried that hope. Oh well.
I own a lot of stuff. I don't know what to do with it. People give me things. The only thing I see that I bought are some books, school/art supplies and my pillow. Lot's of it's pieces and papers from work in grade school and high school. I guess I could throw most of it away. I never look at most of it, though when I do, I like to remember it. If I throw it away I'll regret it. If I keep it, I won't know what to do with it. Well, if I died today, selling my possessions wouldn't go far in paying my debts. Not that I plan on dying anytime soon.
I don't see death as a bad thing. Never have. What's wrong with finally going to meet my savior? Though, granted that's assuming I don't stop in Purgatory first... and that's quite an assumption. Speaking of which, I should probably go to confession.
Speaking of what I should do, I should attempt this paper. Who cares. As long as I turn something in I'll pass. Best go pull out some BS. I'm not very good at BS or critical analysis. Quick! Somebody give me your opinion!
Tonight equals cheesecake and sparkling grape juice to celebrate a birthday! ... and maybe five of my 8 pages complete? ok, that part might be a stretch.

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 11:14:36 GMT

um... basically work is just boring and there isn't even much food besides pretzels really and stale fortune cookes. speaking of which, it's fortune time! I'll go "fill up my waterbottle" Apparently You are headed for a land of sunshine, cause I've already been there, done that and had that fortune about 10 tens already. bummer. besides being a bit stale, ther're just fine really.

It's a sad day when you don't like breakfast anymore. Yesterday I had carrots and maybe some fish, I can't quite recall. A few days ago... cheesecake! I figured, if I was going to eat it later that day anyway, it didn't matter. I still like eating at breakfast time, I just don't like regular breakfast food. Eggs, waffles, cereal, yogurt, fruit strangely enough I don't want. But I'll eat them later.Well, except the eggs. I'm kind of tired of them at the moment.but that will probably only last till next week.

I do wish I had a little space heater back here at my desk; it's a bit chilly.

If I weren't at work, I'd be home reading. Yesterday I read continuously. I was very good and did lots of my hw, but I didn;t get half of what I needed done. Still, I actually enjoyed - for the most part - the reading I was doing and did accomplish a lot. I think I got enough done

wow. I can't remember the last time I Was this bored.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Tue, 16 Jan 2007 17:19:56 GMT

It was there. He propositioned me for my decision. How many times did I reject the offer he held out to me; but sometimes, I felt tricked. Could it be the same thing as before? Now it was soft, seamingly maleable to touch, softer than before, warm and strong. Turn it down? When the rocky surface around me cut and tore and my skin, something soft and gentle would heal it.

If you wait for the marshmallow, you get more; the problem was, how often can you wait?

my world is soft, but even velvet can kill. use it
right or...

Thank God for three day weekends. I read so much AND got some chillaxin with the roomates in without feeling guilty. I'm still behind in one class , but I actually read ahead in another .

I breathed in the air, thick with salt, as my body bobbed gently up and down with the rhythm of the ocean. Who knew how long I'd be able to last without struggling; even with years of training building strength and endurance, storms, or exaustion would pull me under. I didn't want to have to tread and fight, satisfied with just staying up. I needed a raft, something to float on. No one said that was cheating. The problem was getting one. Something strong enough to keep me up out here? If ever I saw one, it would require so much energy to reach, I never made it. This time, though, things would be different, and I search the horizon, searching for my hope.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Tue, 28 Nov 2006 11:26:54 GMT

homeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomework
homeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomework
homeworkhomeworkhomeworkhomework

That's pretty much my life from now until finals are over. Sound familiar? I don't mind too much really... except that sometimes it becomes a little bit... shall we say... controling? I miss a run here, a meeting there, work here, lunch there, a swim here. Christmas break here I come! All two weeks of it.

Homework
you can be fun
admitedly, I must say it
you expand my mind
i see knew things
learn new ideas
but, I am my own person.
beautifully independent
you shall not win
i'd ignore you
but then i'd fail
still,
you shall not win!
i am NOT you
i am ME
i only like you when you fit into my schedule
... which is pretty much almost never

guess i better go do homework                                                 this was exciting, let me tell you

                                           life seems to be a little bit complicated and cramped right now
          SILENCIO!!!!

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 20:55:59 GMT

come home roomate I can't wait. ok be patient

Sunday, October 29, 2006

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 20:53:22 GMT

REVELATION: Say prayers and cross your fingers. I might be able to take on another minor in RELIGOUS STUDIES
I'm waiting for my roomate to return. I need to ask her an important question about if a class we took together would count toward Rel Stud minor before I send yet another question to my advisor and the rel stud dept. I figure my advisor has heard from me so many times this past week I'll try to cut her some slack . She'll probably get one anyway though !! How AWESOME. It would be MORE AWESOME than only having to take 12 credits and a guitar class, though, shhhh, I might still get to fit in the guitar. Ohmygoodness. bounce bounce bounce bounce!!!!!!!!!!!

on another note... all my roomates are gone I've been alone for four hours with no end in sight well, I've gotten a lot of hw done, y talked to mi hermananita y madre

dark. you lift me up. shine. dark. take it all bc its yours.shine. i want you to have it all nothing is mine. shine yours cascade

THE FUTURE>>> Duh duh duhn

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 20:54:54 GMT

I MY GOSH I AM ALMOST NOT A COLLEGE STUDENT ANYMORE - That Means I Am Old!!

I only have to take 12 credits spring semester. I am going to take guitar
my earliest class is at 10:30, which makes me sad. I like mornings.

What are my plans? To do a year of service and trust God. Beyond that... idk, we shall see where he takes me.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and be not on your own understanding. In all your ways achknowledge him and he shall direct your path"

Matt Maher is my favoritest ever.

I was just thinking in my head an hour or 4 ago that my roomates and I need to start discussing what our house does for graduation. Parent dinner? Open house? Tent? Do we have room for a tent? What about a sibling party. Homework time! I'm not there yet.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 11:11:14 GMT

I mean face it, we have already failed and God is still calling us to do it..and you know that God will continue to call even if you say no