be still my heart
be still my mouth
be still my fingers
I just want to watch you become someone
that I probably can't have
if I look enough, maybe my blessing will find its way
into your body
as unreceptive to me as it may be
I promise I won't chase you
not this time. aoiehaghdlakhlHGLDHFldkfh it'd be easier if I were simple. because simple is always easiest.
in reality nothing is simple.
sometimes I feel like I should warn people not to get involved with me. I am such a flawed, complicated person.
but I'm glad to be this way. because all of the people with me now are the ones who will stay with me. I think it's God's way of getting rid of the relationships that are going to take me off course.
I squeezed my eyes shut to somehow squeeze you out of them through my eyelashes. I'm done feeling doubt. I'm ready to feel patience and freedom. I'm starting to take love much more seriously. I watched Jomar's school bus approach from down the street, and I thought
"that is the next generation."
some of them will date each other
some of them will make the worst decisions
they'll be driving one day
and hopefully going somewhere to worship God but now they're only 6 and 7 with cartoon character backpacks and packed lunches and worksheets on reading and spelling. I wonder what they see when they look at us? | 
