Okay...again...I suck at this whole update thing.  With work at the Iris Garden Gallery, trying to finish three assignments a week, and all the other random stuff here in Indiana, I a pretty busy.

So, my friend's brother isnt able to play with his soccer team each week in Bloomington, and he asked me if I would take his spot!!!! I was soooooooo excited! I have not played in way tooo long!  So the day of, my doctor tells me I may have screwed up my knee pretty badly, an injury that happened almost two years ago!  So I was not able to play :(  I was very upset.  It could have been worse though, I guess I could have had to have my leg amputated or something!...

Um...I go to Starbucks to work on my homework so often that I have made friends with the baristas.  Haha.  But at least I am getting my stuff done...well, for the most part! 

...shoot, didnt see the time, I have ot go pick up my brother from work! 

PEACE!...................

So, guess what I got to do!!!???

I got to ride a motorcycle all day, and we even went into the woods and went off roading!!! it was soooooooooo fun!!! I Think I might have to learn to ride now....

Lets see, what else...oh, I suck at poker...luckily Sean was able to win back the money for me! (Thanks Sean!)

Oh, on a trip to Chitown to see my friend Heather Lynn Parman, I got to eat some delicious Chicago style pizza, but then spent the rest of my time in the windy city on the bathroom floor of Boarders, rubbing the back of my pucking friend Kelsey.  But I am glad I could be there for her :) 

um...not much else going on..so uh...sorry such a boring entry, but thats the LIFE OF AMBER for today :)

Peace.

Okay, okay...so I never got to my update with pictures...I am sorry.  I am a lousy Xangaer. 

(Just to let you all know...I AM TAKING VIOLIN LESSONS!!! I am very excited about it. lol And I might take guitar too!! )

So, I am back in Indiana.  There is so much going on in my head, but not all of it is coming together for me.  Lets just say, HOME.  I am learning it is a word that has a very ambiguous meaning, interperreted differently by every single person.  Home right now is not a home by location or feeling that I have ever known before.  Not that it is bad, but different. 

I am not used to the hooting owl that talks to me throughout the night, or the smell of my home that has replaced the one I miss. I am not used to the efforts to work out car situations or the inability to just randomly decide to drive somewhere, or the fact that my friends do not live next door, or in the same state for that matter, or that while I am laying out trying to get some sun, I no longer have a pool to jump into to cool off, or have the dogs to lick my face or sit on my legs with their hot fur hindering my skins absorbtion of the sun to form a nice tan.  I am not used to the fact that my mom is a single mom working her butt off, partly because of money, partly because she gives her all in everything she does, but partly, I believe, to keep here mind off of how different life truely has become.  I am not used to the fact that my baby brother is no longer my baby brother, but in many ways my big brother.  I am not used to the fact that there is my mom's room, not my parent's room.  I am not used to the weird creaks and noises that this house keeps whispering and sometimes shouting to me, reminding me that I am no longer on familiar territory. 

Yeah, there are a lot of things that are different.  There are a lot of things that I could easily think about and suddenly feel the tears falling, but there is so much around me that I know is such a blessing from the Lord.  I absolutely LOVE getting to see my mommy everyday, and my brother everyday.  I love the trees.  I love the fresh air. I love the cabin liike house.  I love being my mom's friend.  I love knowing I can make a difference to my mom and brother.  I love the fact that God has brought my family through alot, and we are able to experience so many things we would never have had the opportunity to have experienced before. 

Home.  It is different.  I miss my Wisconsin home.  I miss my New York home, I miss my Farm home :).   I miss it so much.  But right now, this home is where I need to be.  And I dont have to force a smile and shout out the laughter to break through the Different that surrounds me, because at the same time, I see the Joy.  I see the new that is so good.  After all, that is what life is all about right?  Change, perserverance, growth, and finding the joy and the happiness God intended for us to find inside of it all. 

Welcome Home, Amber.

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...coming soon............

.............................................UPDATE WITH PICTURES.......................................

                           ...are you ready for this?

I didnt think so....okay, maybe, since i havent updated in a month and four days (thank you JohnO for the exact number of days.)

Things that I fear, I never really expect to happen.  But they do.

Maybe I should start to expect the things I fear.  Then maybe they won't actually happen.

...I should try to sleep.