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I stole this from a donkey:

`` 5 things that make you laugh:
5. tickling me
4. the word 'penis'
3. farting
2. friends
1. parents

`` 5 things you love:
5. games
4. pleasure
3. friends
2. girls

1. family

`` 5 things you hate [without hate there is no love]:
5. 56kers
4. pleasure
3. friends
2. girls
1. family

`` 5 things you don't understand:
5. mom
4. homosexuals
3. death
2. math homework
1. life

`` 5 things you plan to do before you die:
5. confess my sins
4. graduate from college
3. win some award
2. find a girlfriend
1. get Layed

`` 5 things that you like about the opposite sex:
5. sometimes they're pretty
4. special scents
3. humor

2. intelligence
1. beauty

`` 5 things you say the most:
5. fuck
4. September 6th
3. my name is Tim
2. hello
1. .....*insert blank stare*

`` 5 bad habits you have:
5. thinking illogical
4. procrastinating
3. staring
2. gunbound
1. scrathing

`` 5 things you wish you had:
5. more friends
4. eternal life
3. 1 billion dollars
2. scholarship to the college of my choice
1. a girlfriend

`` 5 scents you love:
5. the new clothes smell
4. girls
3. the gas station
2. trees

1. mommy

`` 5 things you are thinking about right now:
5. Miami
4. college
3. school
2. gunbound
1. sex/girls

`` 5 things that you have done today:
5. walked
4. check a girl out
3. talked
2. went to college night
1. gunbound

Today was pretty slow. I was playing gunbound for about five hours. Sadly, my parents kicked me off the computer and we went to church. I must have been some sort of mindless zombie because I don't remember anything that the priest said at mass. I did however, remember them talking about this fundraiser thing for the church. I hate it when they start advertising the fundraisers in the middle of the homily. I mean I know the stuffs important, but was it ever meant to be like that? Did God want us to solicite fundraising products during the middle of his mass? It don't seem right to me. Half the people in the church don't even care about the fundraiser. I go to church to pray and reflect upon God. I want to hear praise God and all of the religious spiritual stuff that goes along with it. I do not want to hear about how the church needs our money again. I mean we go to church cuz its free, but yet in entirety it isn't. Yeah we give some money for the presentation of gifts, isn't that enough? I'm not saying this 'cuz I'm poor or broke. I just think the church could think of a lot of more creative ways to make money. Take for example the bread and wine used for mass. Maybe they could charge for that? That food isn't cheap to make and the wine could have a price put on it. How about some parking fees? Haha. They could have a 5 dollar fee per car. Wow, they would make a lot of money from that. Why not give the lecture to those who want to hear it? Have it done outside of mass. I guess the best we I can do is to pray to God that I don't have to sit through anymore of those fundraising lectures and that the church finds a better way to get their money.

We had dinner at Panda Express. I has some fried rice, chow mein, orange chicken, and beef with brocolli. I know a lot of people dismiss Panda for having crappy food, but I've grown to like their stuff. The restaurant isn't dirty like the usual ones you go to either. My only complaint would have to be the food service. We waited in line for about fifteen minutes to get our dinner. It was pretty slow. I saw Henry and Linda there waiting in line when we sat down. By the time we finished eating they hadn't even gotten their food yet. Panda was some slow ass service. Chris, Nan-nan, and some other dude were there too. Good dinner. My fortune cookie said that I'd have many changes before I'm satisfied. That sounds good to me. I'm out for tonight.

No more gunbound for me. Its over. Its dead. Its boring. I even uninstalled it! Its time for me to move to bigger and better things. See right now I'm installing counterstrike again. This might not me such a good idea since I could end up becoming really addictted to this game and never put it down. Laughoutloud. Just like when i played gunbound, i would pull crazy all nighters and play untill 4 in the morning. crazy stuff. i had to stop playing gunbound in the first place since it was fucking up my school work. I guess i'll forever be a golden axe in gunbound. Hey maybe someday I'll go back to playing it.

I know I've changed my name dozens of times and before. I've also reiterated thousands of times before that I'm going to change my habits and my life. I usually say that I'm going to turn things around and start over. That doesn't always happen though. In fact it hasn't happen and i need to change the change...? err. Yeah i think you understand what I'm trying to do. I've come to the point where everything that i do will effect what happens for the rest of my life. Those things are grades and test scores. Basically everything i do from now on will be a reflection of those things. I need the grades and I need to score high on standardized tests so that I can succeed and be able to get into an insitute of higher education. With what I'm getting right now that isn't going to happen. I'm not going to get into some nice university and finish my degree quickly. I'm gonna end up at some community college for 2 years struggling at home and I'll have to try to get into a college from there. Yeah that sounds like crap, but i'll have to deal with it. After all, I can't go through high school all over again. I've failed thus far and the best i can do is try to fix what I got left of high school.

BUTT-fuck dude. How am I going to make? With an average SAT score who is going to want me? I don't even know if I can get a good reccomendation. Is it even possible for me to get into some UC? Maybe I could go somewhere out of state far from wear I grew up. I've been toying with the idea of studying abroad or going to the east to study. I understand that those colleges are much more difficult to get into. The culture in those are parts of the country are different to. Living in this part of Cali we have so much diversity that we don't even look as if we are the minority. We aren't at school and it helps me fit me pretty well. If i went to the east it would be more of a college shock and the kids I'd meet would probably be much different that the kids here. I'd have to get used to being the outkast. After all how many filipino kids even go to college? Most of them end up staying close to home and living with their parents until they turn thirty. Fcuk. I do not want to end up like that. I need to figure something and put some change in to my life. Yeah this is getting pretty long. I'm out for tonight.