sometimes its the most subtle things.

ha, was having this thought in my mind for the past few days. i was thinking that its really the most little and most subtle things that people do, that really affects me. if someone you treasured a lot said smthing bad to you, you don't feel good. if that someone ignored you, it hurts. although you're hurt, its still the little things that the someone did that makes you happy, and makes you smile. the more normal and insignificant it is, the sweeter it is. (: and so i was thinking about the things that make me happy, like friends, volleyball, smiley faces, hearts, strawberrys, photography, polaroids, cameras, bobby, frolick, picnics, oil paintings, andy warhol's artworks, toblerones, skittles, strawberry pocky, toasts, nutrisoy, fruitloops, tuna spread, black ink pens, dater stamps, notebook with plain black covers, stickers, ladybugs, polka dots, muffins, m&ms (peanut butter), black sheeps, made with love, cute notebooks, towels, doughnuts, yoshiniya, hairbands, hair ties, sentosa, tanning, parties, honeydew, alcohol, nice umbrellas, printing photos, snapple, redbull, haha, i realised i love a whole load of things. (:

oh, the foreign girls are coming on friday, BUT, i'm only having art on friday. so i bet she's gna be bored to death. SENTOSA ON SATURDAY(:

i'm tired nowwwwww, but still, i have to send elana some photos that i took of her today. she took photos as an old granny today. can say its quite good today, cause i had fun snapping away(:

The trees can hear you if you talk to them.

past few weeks, rather busy. been staying back in school to study. AT LEAST I STUDIED(:.

okay, ytd i had GP lecture, then the UN talk, then GP lecture again. boring. went out to get lunch after that, met fel, cherm, krys and suyin on my way back. looks like they had fun! haha. if only i went tooooooo! goshh, art is killing me and depriving me of my social life. HAHA. went back to do art. and transformed myself into an old auntie. quite successful i guess. just that i look really old and really ugly. MAYBE thats what i wld look like 20 years down. haha, i'm feeling depressed already. TO ALL OUT THERE, please remind me to take care of my skin in future. HA.

okay, had some indoor shoots, then set off to a market nearby to have outdoor shoots. (: quite fruitful. the old grannys and grandpas there were very friendly. (: although one scolded gloria cause he thought she was gna take pictures of his friend and report him to the authorities. lol. but he was alright later. (: quite interesting. (: went home and i scared the hell out of my sissy when she saw how ugly i looked. (: HAHA. so hillarious. (:

went to get my weekly essentials today. HAHA. got fruit loops, chips, instant noodles, and loads of junk food. AND I BOUGHT MUNCHY DOUGHNUTS JUST NOW. (: omg, i ate so much! then i had prawn mee for lunch and punggol nasilemak for dinner(: OMG, I'M STILL HUNGRY. (:

bathed my dearest today(: he's damn smelly! and i guess he was desperate to get out of the house, so i walked him(: awwwww, i love bobby(:

somtimes people can really hurt you just with a few words. makes you lose all the confidence you have in them. even when they apologise, its still difficult to get over it. time does heal wounds, but it doesn't remove scars. i guess ill just remember it for a long time.

Somtimes you wonder..

Do the people around you really care about you?
Oh god, why do i even bother.

Today was just bad. Just when i was happy that i ran for ard 10 rounds, someone had to ruin my life and make me cry. Seriously, its time for you to be more sensitive to the people around you. Jokes are meant to be funny and not to hurt your students. Sigh, now i just have to depend on myself. I know i can get my A.

wtf, 16 more days to my death. oh dear, i'm so lost now. I can't rely on anyone now. damn it.

Heck, on a lighter note, I RAN TODAY! like omg, how often do i run man. i'm such a fat pig now. =/ time to get healthy. ha. (:

To make myself happier, i was looking at some artist illustrations and i found this. (: Well, maybe i'm feeling better already(:
"Everything is already in Art, its like a big bowl of soup. You stick your head in and you find something there for you." -Willem de Kooning

Bye world, i'm off to study and think abt my life.

You drive away from my car crash of a heart

Mixtape

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know

Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the sad songs ain't so sad
I only wish that there was more than that
About me and you

[Bridge]
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
That you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
And let's get messed up and listen to probably...

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

oh man, i heard this song in sec school. its been like so long. someone sent it to me. ha. I LOVE THIS SONG. like me xanga background. (: mixtape mixtape mixtape. (:

I PLAYED VOLLEYBALL YESTERDAY. OMG, IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEE. (: i actually went to take pictures of them. but i ended up trg with them since they had odd numbers.(: HAHA. i'm a happy human with the volleyballers. (: then went for dinner with my juniors, HK and JW. (: super funny. we saw some man's atm password cause the machine was right beside kfc(: and then i walked home with HK and JW as usual(:

went to school today. GP was boring. AND I REALLY HOPE A LEVEL'S GP PAPER WAS TODAY'S PAPER THAT THEY WENT THROUGH. OMG, DAMN EASYYYYY. haha. and i was feeling damn crappy during the test. stupid.

wanted to run in the evening, but i fell asleep. HA. what a pig.

i keep worrying about smthing thats unknown and not there. =/ weird. its like perpetually worried for nothing. =/

i miss you?

coughs early leave coughs

life is sad when you have been coughing, sneezing, having a bad sore throat for a past few weeks. finally todayy, miss BT forced me to go to the doctor. HA. she said i looked really bad. =/ so i had a fever ytd night. it was so super cold even when i switched the air conditioner off and wore long sleeves and pants, AND put on a blanket. funny. i dreamt that i was walking through a desert, but the desert was effing cold. =/ its cool when your dreams starts to use your other senses as well. =/ ha. anywayssssssssssssssssssss, i still went to school (stupid decision) and i was like a human sized bacteria walking ard school today. i went to the LT for GP lecture and spread my germs there, then went to my homeroom to contaminte the air, and then went to the library to sneeze a few times before going to the general office to cough like a crazy pig. i'm so sorry to all the humans out there. HOHO.

went to my family doctor, but realised it will only open at 7pm. okay fine, so i went home and waited for my daddy to bring me there. the doctor actually thought i was sec one. =/ she was like "WAHH, SO BIG ALR AHH!" when i told her i fricking was in year 2 alr. oh man, i feel young! :D

okay, the stupid virus in me made me cancel my photoshoot today. ): which means i have to reschedule everything. ): sigh. one more mth before i have to pass everything up. OH, and meowmeow told me smthing ytd that made me VERY VERY HAPPY(: omg, i was like happy the whole day. HA.

to go to school or not go to school. that is the question. -.- okay, lame. i feel like crap now. i shld go to sch for econs tmr. HA, feel like running the 4km tmr. =/

okay, bye to all, i'm going off to puke out all my dinner! =/ HAHA.