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Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 23:21:45 GMT

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	× I don't watch much TV these days. (during the summer I kinda do...)	× I own lots of books. (what's a book? =p)
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	× I've tried marijuana.
× I've watched porn movies.	× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
× I curse sometimes. (noope)	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year. (that's an understatement)	× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
✓ I have broken someone's bones. (yup.. I broke someone's finger once by stepping on it)	× I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain. (noooo! I like it!)
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	× I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now. (who doesn't?)
✓ I love sushi. (i dunno about love.. but I like it)	× I talk really, really fast.	× I have fresh breath in the morning. (ha, no.)
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	× I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	× I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months. (i didn't lie.. I just avoided answering a question)	× I am usually pessimistic. (sometimes)
× I have a lot of mood swings.	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	✓ I have a lot of friends. (kinda?)
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	✓ I enjoy talking on the phone. (with certain people)	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
× I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal. (not mine... reading other peoples')	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
✓ I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	✓ I want to have children in the future.
× I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	× I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	✓ I'm online 24/7, even as an away message. (when i'm at school anyway)
✓ I have at least 5 away messages saved.	× I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	× I enjoy some country music.
✓ I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. (Christmas Caroling!)	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	× I am happy at this moment.
× I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	× I am punk rockish.	× I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time. (study? how do you do that?)	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
✓ I love my job(s). (like one, hate the other)	× I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
× I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.	✓ I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro. (just a little)	× I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved. (kinda?)
× I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals. (almost never)
× I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	× I can pick up things with my toes.	✓ I can't whistle.
× I have ridden/owned a horse.	× I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
× I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	× I wear a toe ring.
× I have a tattoo.	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	× If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	× I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
× I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. (sorta)	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed. (used to)	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	× I have terrible teeth.
× I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
× I have lived in either three different states or countries.	× I am extremely flexible.	✓ I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	× Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
× I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
× I have played strip poker with someone else before.	× I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
× I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	× I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language. (sorta)	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
× I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	× I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	× There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
✓ I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	× I have hit someone with a dead fish.
✓ I am compulsively honest. (i try)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
✓ I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. (music is a must)	× I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me. (all the things attached to my keychain)	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	× I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
× Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	✓ I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (i could if i wanted to)	× I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	× Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed.	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	× I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	✓ I don't like to chew gum.
× I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	× I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	✓ I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly. (not weekly...)	× I love to sing.
× I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	✓ I have a custom-built computer. (not exactly cuz i didn't build it)	× I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	✓ I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else. (ha, yeah right)
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	× I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough.
× I need more time to myself.	✓ I wish I was more open-minded.	× I hope that I go really prematurely grey.
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	✓ I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Wed, 31 May 2006 22:07:30 GMT

wait.. what? am I actually typing an entry? when was the last time I did that? do I even remember how? (if amanda was doing her job i'd be burried alive in goose feathers six times oevr by now =p )

Anyway.... today was interesting. So I woke up pretty early (well compared to the times I have been waking up) so I could go fetch my dad's car from the parking lot. After that I went back home and got dressed and such but then I was bored so I decided to take a new facebook pic (which is now uploaded.)

Anyway, so after that I drove over to Domino's (where I used to work) and picked up an application because I'm that desperate for a job right now. (much like everyone else these days?) Then I got some gas for the car and headed down to South Brunswick to pick up Katia from work (who would otherwise be stranded there for 2 hours). Then we went to hang out in Princeton and met up with Ryan and Mike (who dated Tia at one point?) at the Princeton Record Exchange AKA PREX. It was scary while we were waiting for them though... we saw this... person... that kind of looked like Mike from far away (we never actually found out if it was a boy or a girl) and this other guy that kind of looked like Ryan so we thought it was them but it wasn't. Sooo anyway, I was on the phone with Laura when Katia comes over and pretty much drags me through the store and I'm like "what wha what?!?". And then I look up, and who do I see? Dr. Mi, my profeesor from college!! (he taught my Asian Film class as well as my freshman seminar) That was.. really odd. SO by the time mike and ryan actually did show up.. me and Katia were like "OMG WE HAVE TO GET OUT OF HEREEE!"

SO after that, we went to the music store to play around with some cool guitars so that was fun. Then we went to the 'hippie' store and later to Tiger Noodle for some food. They had bubble tea so I had to get some. Then when went to promenade square and were kind of bored so we started making our own percussion group. Mike was drumming on a statute while katia clicked the heels of her shoes together and I used mike's practice pad as a bongo. Then mike jokingly threw his hat down in front as if we were expecting donations. It was really cool to see peoples' reactions as they walked by though. Then my parking meter was pretty much expired and Katia had to be home anyway so we all left.

On the way home I got a little lost and took the wrong exit off or Rt. 1 and ended up at Rutgers... but I don't know how to get home from there. So I pulled into some dirt parking lot. At this some a man came up to me and asked me If i was lost, so I said yes and got directions. Little did I know that If I kept going straight for a couple yards and made a right, I would be on my way again. Afterwards he asked me for some spare change, so I gave him my last dollar. Thanks, Wayne.

Sooo then I finally got home. There were some funny quotes but I don't remember them all.

Aside from all of this...

I dont know if this is a big deal or not, but lately i've been paying more attention to my appearence and what I look like and etc. trying to stop biting my nails which is a bad habit I have... going running down by the beach.. trying to do some stretches everyday....

but anyway, I began to notice some little things like how the girl at the 'hippie' store or the hostess at Tiger Noodle smiled at me (both were quite attractive, I might add =p) Just a stupid little coincidence? I don't know....

Monday, January 23, 2006

Mon, 23 Jan 2006 16:30:15 GMT

so I suppose i'm supposed to update this thing...

Well let's see... I'm back at school and I've only had one class so far which would be japanese. Japanese is always fun though but supposedly 102 is supposed to be the hardest. Other than class, I've been playing lots of pool lately (both online and in real life) and apples to apples, one of the best games ever! Guitar hero was a pretty interesting game too. I think i'm going to like my class schedule (practically having 3 days off) but i might go crazy because I'll have too much free time... but I'm not sure yet. It is good to back at school though because I missed people and also I can go swimming again! Also back to Aikido where I still can't do a backwards roll =/. On the emotional front everything is pretty stable at the moment, which is pretty good; I'm just not used to it. I guess this entry was pretty boring but I needed to update to keep my 'resolution' and so amanda won't throw goose feathers at me.

Well I'm off for now to my 4 hour long Animation class.

Thursday, January 05, 2006

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 14:18:14 GMT

how's this for a resoloution.... Actually try and update this thing... we'll say... maybe once a week? starting when I get back to school?
Question.... how many of you read my LJ and how many read Xanga? I don't know which I should update more... Maybe one will be for day to day things and one will be for thoughts and feelings (AKA Emo Blog!)

What do you think?

Monday, October 17, 2005

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 15:16:05 GMT

What? I'm updating? what a surprise right?

I guess you could say a lot has changed since my last post... june 30th was it? Well anyway, instead of trying to fill in all the stuff that's happenned since then I'll just try and update from this point forward. (ha! we'll see if that actually happens =p)

All I'm gonna say about the first few weeks (or month?) of college is that is has changed my life already...

I went home this past weekend and I guess it was alright. However, there will always be one thing I miss everytime I go home...

Speaking of missing things, here's a list for you..

I miss marching band and all the friends I made there (and the drama too =p)...

I miss my friends that I havn't seen in a while...

I miss hanging out with Grittney on any random day of the week and going to dunkin doughnuts (will never be able to spell that word) just because we had nothing better to do and talking about random things to cure each other's emo-ness. I also miss our walks by "the beach" (is laurence harbor really a beach?) and fooling around on the playground equipment to feel like little kids again...

I miss sitting outside Sports N' Stuff with Ting and having some of the best conversations and recieving some great advice and "Tingism." Plus I miss Ting in genereal... come back to NJ =(

As boring as it was, I miss veteran's park summer camp with katie and ash and the rest of the staff sitting around complaining how annoying the kids were. At least I got to go bowling and rollerblading =).

I miss driving around on friday nights with ryan/ting/katie/ash/iwi not even knowing where we were going and just singing along to the songs on ryan's ipod.

I miss the 9 months of my life from may through february where I learned so much about relationships and myself in general...

I miss... THIS COULD SERIOUSLY GO ON FOREVER!

Originally i think i had some real purpose to this entry but i'm not quite sure what it was...

why can't writting a paper for my college classes by this easy?

does anyone still read this even? O_o
Edit: This is part of what I did last weekend =)

Thursday, June 30, 2005

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 16:37:35 GMT

I know I havn't updated in longer than forever... oh well.

Here's my first semester schedule...

Monday:

Japanese

8:30 - 9:50

Tuesday:

Interactive Computing

8:30 - 12:20

Man, Machine, and Cyborg (seminar)

2:00 - 3:20

Wednesday:

-- No Classes! --

Thursday:

Japanese

8:30 - 9:50

Digital Media

5:30 - 9:20

friday:

Man, Machine, and Cyborg

2:00 - 3:20

Friday, April 01, 2005

Fri, 01 Apr 2005 13:18:09 GMT

So I'm updating in school because I'm bored....

Haha I love it how my weekdends start on Thursdays...

Yesterday afterschool I went to SNS with Ryan and Katie.. haha that was lots of fun! W00T I got my 10th AA on Sync heavy.. so I think I'm tied with Ting now? I also saw Darren, Tina, and Gene there. After that ryan took us to subway so I could get food. He was trying to use his Ipod's radio transmitter thingy in subway to take over their ghetto radio station but it didn't work :-x. Then we walked next door to Shoprite to find food for Katie. Haha I had some change left over from my meal at subway so I bought a doughnut... lol I'm such a loser.. I was like "buy a doughnut... or use this money for one game of ITG..." So then Katie found some food and we went to leave and I saw that they had those crunchy chinese noodles that I love.... Sooo bought a bag of them for a qaurter and started eating them... lol NOODLES! (haha grittney u remember that?). Then Ryan took me home and I got home around 9.

Plans for today....

hopefully getting my haircut... then going to the bank to cash my $15 check from the government for tax returns... lol. After that hanging out with katie and pachara and then going to see grittney in the asian cultural show. Afterwards.. going to funmania and then to pachara's house....

Plans for saturday...

Hopefully going to eight on the break to play some DDR and ITG! haha i'm trying to freestyle this one part of a song but I keep screwing up (haha ask ryan and katie.. they saw me practicing.)

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 22:08:08 GMT

Hey look I'm updating! I wonder if anyone will actually read it though because they probably figure I never update so why bother...

Soo umm... what can I say.. it's like I have planned out in my hand what I wanted to write but then when I actually get to typing the entry I forget it all.

I think I recently figured something out about myself... I realized that I like change and I'm always looking for things that are new and exciting... If something is the same all the time I get bored with it rather quickly (like school!). I guess that's something that could influence my career decision... and could also explain why I just want it to be June so I can graduate already....

So what have I been doing lately? Well during the week it's just school... and then going to mall on random days when I get bored (which is often). On weekends I go play DDR in one of various places with my friends.

umm yeah.. now for the DDR news for anyone who cares... I'm up to 9 AA's now with my last one being www.blondegirl (the song about porn! lol that's not a real link, just the song name.) Songs I'm geeting close to AA are 321 stars, Sync, Frozen Ray, and Sana en Morette... Maybe I'll have one of those by next week...

Hmm what else.... in the past few weeks I've had a little "issue" or "misunderstanding" but I'm glad thats all resolved now.... But now because it's resolved my life seems empty... and my so-called "love life" is now non-existant....

Oh well... I'm sure theres more things I wanted to say but I probably forgot them....

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 21:29:09 GMT

wanna take my quiz thingy?

http://www.quizyourfriends.com/takequiz.php?quizname=050315190957-2976

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Sat, 05 Mar 2005 16:35:53 GMT

hey people guess what? I'm going to college! I got my acceptance later from TCNJ today =)